13. Confession closet

Jessica

He was spot on, he whispered and asked the exact question. It was as if he knows that the dream was a fail, that I spent the whole morning hangover from the abrupt feeling of I don't even know what.

I know sex is supposed to end with a climax, but I have never actually felt what it's like. And I've been avoiding to date simply because of the fear itself. Troy had left his mark, I don't even know how I was supposed to recover from his doing.

The therapy was supposed to work, I kept telling Amanda that I was getting better. But honestly, I was too afraid to try, always telling her that I was too busy to work to date men.

"Jessica, good you're home. You have to come with me to a gala tonight, I lost a bet and I need to attend Dale's mom's thing tonight."

Amanda called me just after five and asked my whereabouts. I have just woken up from my nap, thanking myself that I