Wala pa si Creed sa loob kaya napalingon ako kila Saskia. Nagsasalita siya pero hindi ko marinig. Riel also spoke a little before Creed rode the driver's as well.Nang tumapat sa bahay namin ang sasakyan, nagtaka ako nang biglang sumipol si Creed. Agad tuloy akong napabaling sa kaniya. May tinititigan siya sa malayo so I traced his sight and saw a small car parked at the other side of the road.Mabilis siyang lumabas ng sasakyan at tinungo ang sasakyang iyon. From that car came out the woman he was with before. Iyong pinahiram ng damit ko dati. She was wearing a super fit bodycon dress with beads thatsparkle even in the dark.Dahan-dahan akong lumabas ng sasakya , balak na lang sanang pumasok sa bahay namin. Hindi ko yata kakayaning masaksihan pa ang tagpo nilang dalawa.Creed is cheating on me... right in front of my eyes. And I hate myself more for feeling pathetic like a trapped being with no means of way out. Ang sakit-sakit na pero ito pa din
I don't know how long I was seating there. Ang bango-bango ng nilagay kong bath bomb, and it eases my pain for a bit. Sana... pwedeng permanenteng tanggalin na lang lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon. I want to calm this heavy heart weighing me to the very bottom of whatever depth it is at.I sat still on my bed as I take some more moment reflecting things in my life. I just don't understand why these things happens to me. I especially do not remember doing anything that could result to this heavy karma. Or did I?Tuluyan na akong nahiga sa kama, closing my bed side lamp as my last move. Pero kahit ano mang ikot ko sa kama, hindi talaga ako makatulog.At last, I finallygave up trying to battle with my insomnia. Tumayo ako mula sa kama ko at naisipang lumabas muna sa terrace upang damdamin ang lamig ng simoy ng hangin.It feels right to have a hot cup of coffee as I feel the night's coldness, but that would make me stay up more than to actual
Nagtaas siya ng tingin sa akin mula sa cellphone niya. Naka-crossed legs siya at ang ikli-ikli ng suot na palda.She scrunched her nose nangmas lalo pa akong lumapit. "Oh my gosh, girl! Lumayo ka nga, amoy kusina ka!"I switched my weight to the other side at nameywang. "Malamang, nagluto ako ng hapunan. Ano nga'ng ginagawa mo dito?""Dadalhin ko kung sinong gusto kong dalhin dito." came a voice from the staircase, Agad akong napalingon at natagpuan si Creed na nakapamulsang pababa ng hagdan."B-Bakit mo kasama ang kapatid ko, Creed?" malumanay kong tanong.Athen stood up from the couch, her chest parallel to my navel. Balak niyq yatang magyabang, not realizing our height difference. Binaba ko ang tingin ko sa mukha niya. Ang ganda-handa niya pero gano'n naman ang kinapangit ng ugqli.Nameywang siya, still not fazed. "Bakit? Bawal?""Wala akong sinasabing bawal, pero sa ganitong oras ng gabi, himala naman yatang 'di pa n
Maybe... Maybe it really is just better to give up on him now. He clearly doesn't want me anymore. It has been clear for months now.But why does it hurt so much, knowing that it is my sister replacing my place in his heart?I want him to be mine forever. I want us to be us forever. But now... it is just a far-fetch idea. A thought of pure desperation, so surreal. A dream I could no longer reach. A belief no longer accurate.Hindi ko namalayang nabitawan ko ang dala kong album, kasabay ng pagbagsak nb mga luha ko. Natigilan silang dalawa sa presensya ko.Hanggang ngayon, kinu-kuwestiyon ko pa din ang sarili ko. Saan ba ako nagkulang? Nagkamali? May nagawa ba ako para mangyari sa amin 'to? Sa akinAno ba kasi 'yon? Baka puwede pa namang itama? Pwede pa ba? Gustong-gusto ko na din kasi sumuko."A-Alam kong obvious naman ang sagot dito sa itatanong ko pero... ayaw mo na ba talaga? Magkatapatan tayo ngayon kasi pagod na pagod na akong mah
"What's wrong with him?" bulong ko sa pagtataka.I proceeded to dial Saskia. Ano ba naman kaya ang nangyayari doon kay Riel?Pero naka-ilang ring na at hindi din sumasagot si Saskia. Naguguluhan na ako. Base sa boses ni Riel, he seemed worried and in a hurry.Napabuntong-hininga ako. Bukas ko na nga lang 'yan iintindihin. Gusto kona rin namannang matulog dahil anong oras na rin.I took a quick half bath and readied my pajamas. Habang binu-butones ko isa-isa ang top ng pj ko, I can't help but think of my friends. Mag nangyari kayang hinfi maganda?***"Kuya Creed, ano ba!"Bungad nabungad ang pagtitili ni Athena habang pababa ako ng hagdan. Maagas sana akong aalis, kaya lang ay nahihirapan akong mamili ng maayos na susuotin. I don't want to turn out overdressed, atmas ayaw kong magmukha namang walang taste.Before sleeping last night, nakapag-desisyon na akong puntahan ang either isa sa kanila to know what's goin
I became busy sa work, two days passed already. I wanted to make it up to the both of you for being busy and not being able to atleast take you two out for a coffee. Inuna ko siya kasi mas malapit 'yung location niya. You're aware that I work only 15 minutes away from her condo unit. She texted me early that day na wala daw siyang lakad so I already expected she'd be home.""And she wasn't?" paghula ko.Tumango siya. "What blew my head off was the fact that the guard forbid me to go to her unit. That was the first time visitors are forbidden to enter the tower. Bagong implemented raw na rule. I tried to contact her pero she wasn't answering, right? I approached the receptionist to at least give her unit a call 'cause she wasn't answering my call.I was so shocked to find out from the girl that Saskia never came home. Hindi daw nag-register ang card niya sa last two days."Napatakip ako sa bibig ko sa gulat. This relives that same feeling in me whe
My foot took a step back, followed by the next one. Ni hindi ko mamamalayang umaatras na pala ako kung hindi lang nahawakan ni Riel ang kamay ko para pigilin akong tumuloy."Don't." pigil niya.I took a deep breath. I need to overcome this. I have to. I'll eventually discover it, anyway. What's the point of delaying.Dahan-dahan akong naglakad palapit sa gate. Ako na mismo ang nagpindot ng door bell doon.Mabilis akong umatras pabalik sa pwesto namin kanina. Riel was dumbfounded by the move I just pulled. Hindi siya naka-imik kahit noong makabalik na ako sa tabi niya. Hindi niya siguro inaasahang pipindutin ko kaagad.Hindi ko din talaga alam. Parang hindi na gumana 'yung utak ko. Basta ay noong nandoon na ako ay pinindot ko na lang. There should be no more room for hesitation.Kung maghe-hesitate ako, e'di hindi na kami matatapos dito.Matagal kaming nakatayo doon pero walang nagbukas ng gate para sa amin.Lalo
"He does not look as if he grew the life Saskia lived in when she was younger but he sure do look like her. There's no way they're not connected with each other." aniya habang seryosong nagmamaneho. Napansin kong sumilip din siya sa side mirror niya. "Plus, I think Saskia once told me that their family is the direct native children of this province. Way older than the pre-colonial period. It could be that their bloodline kind of also spread among the people here. Baka nga lahat sila dito ay magkakaanak na."I nodded. "Yes. Makes sense."Naghari uli ang katahimikan sa sasakyan as I think of the current situation we're in. Sa totoo lang, 'yung pagpunta namin dito ay walang kasiguraduhan. Kasi paano kung nasa condo na si Saskia? And that she only went somewhere for a bit?"Well, here we are." anunsyo niya nang maiparada na ang sasakyan sa tapat ng bahay nila Saskia."Are we still going to ring the door bell?" tanong ko habang nakatitig sa bahay.