KALMIA’S POV I was in the kitchen fast. The scent of home sunk deep into my bones and soaked them, soothing them like a tonic. The walls were warmer; the silence gentler. I wasn’t on edge or berating myself for still being. I wrapped the scarf around my head and pulled on a fresh pair of shorts and tank top before digging around in the cabinet. Something easy but filling, something that smelled like peace. I was chopping onions. But something compelled me to slam the knife against the cutting board. I looked up through my watery eyes, pushing my hand behind them. I was not sure if it was the sting of onions or the choking artist in me. I was so focused that I only then realized he was behind me, holding me around the waist. “Oh!” I yelped. “Arrow! You scared me.” He nuzzled against my neck. “I missed you cooking. Smelling like home. You.” “Finish cooking first,” I said while chopping onions but my lips kept twitching from overwhelming joy. “I understand,” he murmured int
KALMIA’S POV We were lost in our hug, in that moment of warmth and that thin atmosphere of forgiveness, when there was a loud clap. Clap! Clap! Clap! We looked over our shoulders. At her store entrance Jade stood with her hands slowly clapping while her face displayed a broad smile. In her gaze I could see both playful mischief and deep pride. I rolled my eyes playfully while showing a smile. Was that your reason for trying to get rid of me from your home? She laughed and shook her head. You really understood exactly what I was doing, Kalmia. You just needed a little help. The person who entered my store this morning appeared ghostly and was crying to request an audience with you. Arrow tucked his head in a bit shyly, but still kept a tight grip on my hand. “I just wanted to make things right. I couldn’t go another morning without you.” I stared at him. “Arrow... I—” He interrupted me kindly and moved my stray hair from my face without saying a word. “Little Dawn is waiting fo
KALMIA’S POV “From what?” she asked loudly. “From love? From healing? From your own happiness?” “From getting hurt again!” I cried, my voice breaking. “You don’t know what it felt like, Jade. Those words he said left me feeling completely empty. How worthless he made me feel.” She pulled away sharply like I had struck her with my hand. “I know I don’t,” she replied gently. “But I know what it looks like to lose yourself in bitterness. I saw you transform from someone who brightened every space to someone who struggles to face her reflection. My eyes burned from tears which I fought to control with furious blinking. “Don’t act as if you understand my best interests. She raised her hands up in exasperation. “Then what, Kalmia ? What do you want? From where I’m standing it sounds like you want everything to stay just the way they are in your anger.” Silence fell between us, painful and thick. A trembling breath escaped me as I quietly said “I need tranquility, Jade.” I long for
KALMIA’S POVThe silence in Jade’s bedroom was deafening after I delivered the news.I could practically see the questions moving behind her eyes. Confusion, disbelief, shock. And then, something else. I faced something I had never seen directed towards me before.Jade stood slowly from her position before moving her nightgown around her ankles and she looked directly at me. Her face was stony. “Kalimia,” she said quietly, her voice both thick and dangerous, “if you aren’t going to return to Arrow… I can’t continue to let you live here.”I blinked at her. “Wh-what are you saying?” I asked dumbly, my throat tight.“You heard me,” Jade said sharply, her eyes flashing. “You’ve been here for weeks. I have supported you in all your endeavors but I cannot continue to give you shelter when you reject your family over prideful reasons.I felt the air leave my lungs. “Jade… how can you say that?”I spluttered, my eyes stinging with tears. “You don’t know what I’ve been through. You have no ide
KALMIA’S POV I remained standing at my studio’s center while holding Arrow’s letter in one hand and my shattered feelings in the other. Aching heart, roaring pride, shattered mind. That’s when Jade walked back in, arms crossed, gaze fierce. No smile this time. She’d had enough of my merry-go-round nonsense. “No, Kalmia,” she stated plainly, words cutting through the silence. “I won’t let you do that to Arrow.” I whipped around to face her. “Excuse me?” I blinked in confusion. “Do what?” “Shut him out. Pretend like none of this matters. Like you don’t still care,” she said, advancing toward me. “You’re mad. I know. You should be. But don’t make him pay for doing what we prayed he’d finally do—change.” Heat swelled in my chest. “Jade, please. You can’t know what this man did to me. “I know I don’t,” she said, much quieter now. I witnessed how his actions affected you. My hands were holding yours while you cried yourself to sleep. Your body twisted inwards which made me think
KALMIA’S POV I forcefully closed my eyes to convince myself that I could alter my decision. But that was the problem, wasn’t it? I was changing my mind. The pain of the past was an old ghost now, but so was the love. So was the man I had loved with my entire being. I swallowed, and opened my eyes. “I don’t know if I can just go back, Arrow,” I said quietly, unsure. “But I’ll try… for us. For our family.” “I’m willing to try…” I had said. But the moment he stepped closer, my entire body clenched. Like I’d been shot. Hit in that same old place. An old, old wound that hadn’t healed, not even close. I looked into his eyes and saw the man I had loved, the man who had been my entire world. But I also saw the man who had cut me open. Smiled down at me as I bled. The man who had humiliated me. Crushed me. And suddenly, I felt like I couldn’t breathe. “No,” I said, stepping back, harshly. My tender tone disappeared and memories rushed back with intense force. “No, I can’t do this. I