LOGINA L Y S S A
I have never stared at myself in a mirror this long, not even on mornings when exhaustion made its home on my face, or nights when I have cried hard enough to scare myself, because this time feels different... way different...
The bathroom is small, barely wide enough to stretch my arms out, and the single yellow bulb above the mirror is enough to light up the room. As I stare at my reflection, I see every question I have not answered sitting plainly on my face, the tension in my jaw, the way my lips keep pressing together as if holding back words I am afraid to say out loud, the uncertainty in my eyes that refuses to settle, no matter how long I look.
I am dressed better than I have been in years, not glamorous or expensive, the way women like Mrs Valentino carry themselves, but still decent and intentional in a quieter way. I wear a long black dress I forgot I owned until this afternoon, it's soft fabric that falls smoothly against my body without clinging too tightly and simple enough that it does not feel like a costume. My hair frames my face neatly, washed and styled with more effort than I usually allow myself, and my makeup is light, just enough to make me look awake, functional, like someone who belongs in rooms far bigger than my apartment.
I look fine.
Inside, I feel hollow and overstretched, like I have been pulled in too many directions at once, and something is bound to tear.
As I leave the bathroom and make my way into the living room, I glance at the digital clock on the TV stand. 5:47.
Thirteen minutes.
I smooth my dress again, even though there is nothing wrong with it, then walk further into the living room, where Carmen has been pacing since the moment I came out of the bathroom, moving back and forth across the floor with restless energy, her arms folding and unfolding, her foot tapping hard enough to make the lamp tremble slightly.
Then she comes to a stop the moment she sees me, her mouth falling open as she stares me down from head to toe.
“Wow, Alyssa,” she says, breathless, taking a few steps closer to me.
I lift an eyebrow, attempting humour even though my throat feels tight. “That good or that bad?”
She continues to look me up and down slowly. “That is 'a you are about to walk into a very dangerous fairy tale' kind of good.”
I let out a quiet breath that almost turns into a laugh, but it fades when I realise she is not smiling.
“You sure about this?” she asks, her voice lower now, and the truth comes easily to me.
“No,” I mumble.
“Then do not go.” She tries to plead, her eyebrows knotted worriedly.
I shake my head, trying not to think the worst of what might happen to me tonight. “I have to.”
“You do not,” she insists, stepping closer, frustration flashing across her face. “You can still say no. We can figure something else out. We always do.”
I look down at my hands, at the way my fingers are pressed together too tightly. “If it were just me, I would walk away. I would not hesitate. But it is not just me.” I say, and it seems that's enough for her to understand.
Her expression softens, worry breaking through her anger, but she still shakes her head. "Just promise me you will be careful. Promise me you will call me every hour."
“I cannot call you every hour.” I huff.
“Then every two,” she says without missing a moment. “And if I do not hear from you by midnight, I am calling the police and showing up at that place myself.”
A small laugh escapes me. “You would actually do that.”
“I would,” she replies simply, then turns toward the window and pulls back the blinds. “And right on time.”
I join her, my stomach twisting the second I see the black car waiting at the curb, polished and silent, expensive and completely out of place on this street.
Carmen grabs my hand, squeezing hard. “Text me when you get there.”
“I will,” I say just as I pull her in for a tight hug.
“I mean it.” She tells me, mumbles against my shoulder.
“So do I,” I answer just before pulling away and beginning to make my way towards the door.
I do not tell her how badly my legs are shaking, or how much I want to lock the door and pretend none of this is real. I just nod, draw in a breath, and step outside before I can change my mind.
By the time I reach outside, the driver is already waiting, tall and formal in a dark suit, his expression neutral.
“Miss Hart?” he asks politely as I get closer to him.
“That's me,” I answer quietly, and he nods before moving to open the door, and after a brief pause, I climb into the back seat, the interior quiet and immaculate, smelling faintly of leather and cologne.
The door closes, and locks, and the car begins pulling away from the curb.
I watch the city slide past through the window, familiar streets giving way to wider roads, streetlights thinning out, buildings replaced by hedges and gates and stretches of quiet. It feels unreal, like I am being carried farther and farther from the life I know with every passing minute.
After close to 25 minutes, we drive down a long bare road lined with rows of green hedges, and at the edge of the road, there is a set of large black gates. As we approach, they open for us, and once I look out the window, I feel my breath leave my lungs.
The driveway curves through gardens and fountains illuminated by warm lights, statues rising from greenery like silent watchers, and then... the mansion appears. It's a pure white, lit up by golden lights that glow softly as dusk settles. Massive, elegant and surreal.
The car stops at the front of the mansion, and the driver steps out to open my door. As my heels touch the stone, I look up at the place where my life is about to change.
“They are waiting for you inside, Miss Hart,” the driver says, and I nod and step forward.
I guess it's finally game time...
A L Y S S AMy heart races as the number echoes in my mind, making it almost impossible to focus on anything else. I try to picture that amount in practical terms, hospital bills, treatment plans, debt erased, but it feels abstract, almost unreal, as though it belongs to someone with a different name.“In addition,” he goes on, and that's when I bring my attention back to the present, watching as Mr Whitmore continues to read the document in his hands, “a final settlement payment of five hundred thousand dollars will be granted upon completion of the two-year term...” He lets out, and my heart drops a second time as I swallow quietly. 500,000 dollars. Just like that.I should feel relieved hearing that. Security, or some sort of stability. Instead, I feel strangely detached, like I am listening to a deal being discussed about someone else’s future. It makes me think about what would happen to me, and the child I'm supposed to have...Will I be able to stay with him? Will I be able to
A L Y S S AWe finally reach the Valentino estate, and the sight of it feels even more overwhelming today, given what is to take place.Once the car parks at the front of the house, the driver steps out and opens my car door for me, and I have to admit, that's still something I'm not yet used to. I smooth my hands down the front of my white dress before stepping out of the car, conscious of every movement, of the way the fabric falls around my legs, of the fact that this is the closest I have ever come to looking like a bride. That's when I notice the same woman who greeted me the last time standing waiting near the entrance, dressed smartly in a formal dark grey dress, her expression polite as she watches me approach her."Welcome back, Ms Hart." She greets me just as I slow down my steps as soon as I reach her. That's when I notice that she's not the only one standing by the doors. There seem to be two men standing at either side, both of them dressed in black with an earpiece in ea
A L Y S S AThe next morning...I barely slept last night. I lie in my bed staring at the ceiling, replaying every word Stephano said to me, every look he gave me, the way he stood there, so certain of himself and so sure that I am temporary. I turn onto my side, then onto my back again, pulling the blanket up and then pushing it away, my mind refusing to quiet down. It is not just what he says that keeps me awake; it is how easily he says it, as if reducing me costs him nothing at all. By the time morning light begins to slip through the curtains, I feel more drained than rested, but there is no space to indulge that exhaustion today.Carmen sits across from me at my small kitchen table, her mug of coffee cradled between both hands as she listens to me recount last night in a voice that sounds unfamiliar even to my own ears. The breakfast she insisted on making sits in front of me, eggs and toast that would normally make me grateful, but I keep pushing the food around my plate instea
A L Y S S A“If I were you, I would speak to me with more humility.”He lets out without raising his voice, or stepping into my space aggressively... The restraint he shows makes his warning feel more threatening, as if he assumes I will understand my place without him having to spell it out. He stands a few feet away from me in the centre of the room, his hands resting casually in his pockets and jacket falling perfectly along his frame. His posture is relaxed, leading me to believe he has never once doubted his authority in this house. The same authority I will soon have to answer to if I am to marry him.His head tilts slightly as he watches me, not in an angry way, not even particularly annoyed, just as if he's expecting something of me, or waiting for me to correct myself.For a moment, I consider doing exactly that. Apologising would be easy, right? All of this will be so easy if I followed through with everything he says... or else the opportunity to save my mother's life will
A L Y S S AMy heart thunders as the words register in my mind...I will marry her...Stephano has agreed to marry me... just like that...I watch as Mrs Valentino releases a breath she has clearly been holding, her shoulders relaxing slightly, while her husband nods once, satisfied, both of them glancing at each other before they both look at their son, then at me.I stand there, stunned, my mind struggling to catch up to what has just happened. I have not agreed to anything out loud, yet my future has been decided in front of me like a business deal concluded without my signature."Spendid. We will begin with the preparations immediately." Mrs Valentino lets out, and that's when confusion forms on her face as I stare back at her, forcing me to take a short, timid step towards her."But... Mrs Valentino..." I begin nervously. "I-I thought you said I had till the end of the week..." I let out, remembering what they had told me when they both brought this offer to the table. I then watc
A L Y S S AI stand there like a deer caught in the headlights as the word replays in my mind.Bride.The word feels foreign, almost absurd, yet attached to me in a room like this, standing in front of a man who looks at me like a problem to be solved rather than a person. I feel small under Stephano's gaze as he looks back at me. He does not react right away, nor does he blink or move or soften his gaze. He stares me up and down, his expression completely difficult to read, making it almost impossible for me to tell what exactly is going through his mind. Finally, he turns away from me and turns towards both his father and mother, his eyes bouncing between the two of them.And that's when we all hear it. The humourless, cold laugh he lets out, one that means the atmosphere in the room is completely heavy and unbearable.“This is a joke,” he says, motioning his hand towards me, immediately making my heart sink to my feet before suddenly racing. The expression on his parents' faces cha







