로그인Autumn
Shock makes me go still, and I glance quickly between Luke, Elijah, and Benedict. Because they’re the ones who spoke up. And considering how tense things are between them, I’m guessing it wasn’t a coordinated thing. They just all spoke up at the same time. To say they’re dating me. What the hell is going on? The table is silent, everyone looking as shocked as I feel. Raymond’s eyes are wide, and he also looks between his brothers, shaking his head. “Wait, what? You… you’re dating my brothers? All three of them?” God, I hate this. I feel caught, pinned underneath the silence and the stares from everyone else at the table. I have no idea what to say now. I had no idea they were going to speak up and say what they just said. I don’t know what they’re doing. I just wanted to save face in front of Raymond and not have to deal with the terrible, condescending pity in his voice when he talked about me not having anyone. A glance at his three older brother confirms that none of them consulted with the others before deciding to speak up. They’re looking at each other the way you look at someone when they say something that surprises you, but it’s a subtle thing, probably not noticeable to anyone else. The three of them are just as surprised as I am. Luke recovers first, clearing his throat and shrugging. “Yeah.” Mom is staring at the three of them, looking between them and then back to me. “What?” she asks, shaking herself. “I’m sorry… I just… what?” She seems stunned and confused, and there’s a small part of me that is amused at catching her off guard. Elijah snorts. “It’s the twenty-first century,” he says in his deep, even voice. “It’s a nontraditional relationship. You’ve heard of those, right? We’re all dating Autumn.” Coming from Elijah, it seems almost reasonable. He has this way of talking that makes everything he says sound believable and true. But Mom doesn’t seem to be digesting it well. She leans back in her chair, her eyes wide. There’s a twist to her mouth that lets me know she’s not on board and is put off by the situation, but she’s too polite to go off about it with guests in the house. So she just swallows and nods shallowly. “Oh. Well, then.” “Okay, wait,” Raymond says, cutting in. “How did you even start dating them?” He addresses that to me. “They haven’t been back here in years.” None of his brothers seem to know what to say to that, and I falter for a second, my brain scrambling to come up with something that will sound plausible. “We’ve been doing long distance,” I say all at once, remembering the plot of a movie I watched recently. “We reconnected online a while ago, and things just sort of sparked between us.” Rhiannon raises an eyebrow. “Online? Like on a dating app?” I shake my head. “No, it was on social media. One of them sent me a message to check in, and I responded, and it went from there.” “And you never stopped to think you didn’t need three of them?” Rhiannon laughs, sharing a look with Raymond that’s not quite snide, but definitely isn’t warm. “Nope,” I say, popping the ‘p’ sound obnoxiously. “Go big or go home, right?” “Are you happy?” That question is from Dad, who so far hasn’t said anything about it. I cringe a little internally, because it doesn’t feel good to lie to him. Part of me is waiting for him to try to defend my honor or something and demand to know what the three of them think they’re doing, all dating his daughter. But of course he doesn’t. My dad is too hands off for that. Too calm and eager to stay out of any drama. He looks at me steadily, and I give him a little smile, nodding. My insides twist with guilt. “Yeah,” I say out loud. “I’m pretty happy.” “That’s good,” he replies. Mom looks like she doesn’t know what to ask, her lips pressed into a thin line. I know if I let Rhiannon and Raymond get going, then they’ll come up with all kinds of questions, trying to either make me feel bad or poke holes in the story. I need to wrap this up before it gets more out of hand. “It’s not that exciting,” I tell them. “We’ve just been talking a lot, and one thing led to another.” “Three times?” Rhiannon throws out. “Yes,” Luke says firmly. “That’s why we’re all here.” “Uh, I’m also getting married, remember? Raymond says. “Don’t forget about that.” “That too.” The way Luke says it makes it sound like an afterthought, and I have to smother the ripple of amusement. My heart is still pounding through the conversation. I’m half waiting for all three of them to laugh and admit this is all a lie, or for someone to see through everything, but it doesn’t happen. They seem as committed to this as I am now. Rhiannon folds her arms, leaning back in her chair. “It’s a little weird for you to be dating all three of Raymond’s brothers, isn’t it, Vi? I mean, he is your ex.” For a split second, I see red. I have to work to bite back the comment I want to make, which is that Rhiannon is sitting there at the table, wearing an engagement ring from my ex. If anything’s weird, it’s that. But that would cause more drama, and I don’t want that right now. I don’t want things to get ugly. “Now, now,” Mom says, jumping in. Maybe she can sense the tension growing at the table between me and Rhiannon. “This actually works out for the best. Your brothers already have their own invites to the wedding, Raymond, so your cousin can still come, and Autumn still gets her date. Her… dates.” Instead of looking happy about that, Raymond just looks irritated. His eyebrows turn down, and he’s a half step away from pouting. But he doesn’t argue. He just nods and starts pushing food around on his plate. The conversation moves on, thank goodness, with Mom rushing in to start talking about other wedding logistics. That’s enough to soothe things with Rhiannon, now that she’s back to being the center of attention, but I can’t really focus on anything that’s being said.Autumn When I get my period right after Christmas, someone knocks on the door. I manage to stagger over to it, only to find a delivery person there with a big bag of supplies. The pads and tampons I prefer, the tea I asked them to get for me the last time, and a few DVDs of movies to watch.A couple of days later, there’s another delivery, this time with different herbal syrups and some rose and orange blossom water from a brand I never would have been able to afford.There’s a note from Luke with that delivery that says “So you can keep experimenting”, and my throat goes tight to read it.There are so many things like that in the days after Christmas, and I can’t wrap my head around it.Clearly they want me back. Clearly they want me to know that they’re still here, still thinking about me, but the question is why?When they could have anyone they wanted. When they could just go back to their lives and pretend none of this ever happened.Why are they spending so much time trying t
Benedict “Never mind. It doesn’t matter.”“It does matter!” I insist. “Why are you giving up on this? I just want to understand.”“I’m not!” she says. “I’m just going along with what our deal originally was. You pretended to date me for the wedding. The wedding is over. It was never real, and there’s no use pretending it was, right?”Hearing her say that turns my stomach, and I give her a hard look, cutting her off before she can say anything else.“Are we really going to keep pretending this is fake?” I ask, not even trying to hide the raw desperation in my voice.She blinks up at me, looking unsure. “Isn’t it? Hasn’t it always been?”“Maybe at the beginning,” I admit. “But now? It’s not fake for me. For any of us. Honestly, I’m not sure it ever was, if I really think about it.”I watch the emotions play out on her face. It’s hard to pinpoint what they all are, but she’s digesting what I said, taking it in. I can see that what I said has affected her, making her swallow down whateve
Benedict I get up, telling Elijah and Luke that I’ll be back later. I get in my car and drive into Sweetwater Lake, starting at the bakery.It’s empty, the lights off and the windows dark. I can’t see if there’s still stuff for Autumn to move out of it, but she’s not there, which is the main thing. I drive by her house, and her car isn’t there either.So I head into town.It takes some driving around, but I finally find her car outside Porter’s. As I park near it, I look up and see Autumn, coming out of the diner with a paper bag in her hand, heading for her car.I get out and walk over to her, shoving my hands into my pockets as I approach.It takes a bit for her to realize it’s me heading in her direction, and when she does, her eyes widen. She starts walking faster, keeping her head down, hurrying to her car. She gets one hand on the handle of the door and pulls it open, but I get there before she can get in.“Autumn,” I say. Honestly, I’m relieved to just see her again.I know
AutumnAs if summoned by me thinking about them, my phone lights up with a series of messages. All of them have been texting me since I walked out of the rehearsal dinner, but I haven’t read any of them.I just want it to be a clean break. Dragging it out and pretending like things aren’t the way they are isn’t going to help.That thought makes tears spring to my eyes, and I have to laugh at myself. I’m acting the same way I acted after Raymond and I broke up, but that’s stupid. It’s like I told Simon, it wasn’t a real relationship, so it’s not a real break up.This was inevitable, and I knew it from the get go. This was always going to end with them leaving and me being alone again, and I managed to lose sight of that.In a way, it’s my own fault that I feel like this.Remembering that doesn’t make me feel any better, and I blink away the tears, trying to keep more of them from falling.I shouldn’t be sitting here crying over them. I should be trying to figure out what my next step
AutumnTwo days later, I’m sitting in front of the fire, feeling like my house isn’t really my home anymore. The guys weren’t even here for all that long in the grand scheme of things, but they managed to change the way the house felt with their presence.Their jokes and laughter, their banter. Now it’s just quiet. Empty. It feels like it did when I first moved in after my relationship with Raymond ended, and that just makes it worse.After I walked out of the rehearsal dinner, I went to the only person I could think of that I could trust. It certainly wasn’t anyone in my family.Simon opened his door and his arms for me, letting me break down while he stroked my back and comforted me. Talking to him made me miss my grandmother something awful, but he was kind and listened to the whole story when it came pouring out of me.Of course, he was shocked, both to hear about the break up and that none of it was real in the first place. I pointed out that it technically didn’t even count as
Autumn But she just presses a button to play another clip. This time it’s Elijah’s voice.“—she fails at everything she does. What do you expect?” There’s a brief pause, and then he adds, “She’s an embarrassment. Nobody actually respects her.”Rhiannon stops the audio, then pulls up another clip. This one has a slightly muffled quality, as if it was recorded from a distance when the men were obviously unaware.Still, I can tell it’s Benedict’s usually charming voice talking, and somehow, his words hurt the most. “I can’t believe I ever even wanted to be friends with her at all. She’s the most selfish fucking person I’ve ever met.”“I don’t want to hear any more,” I breathe in a shaky voice, turning away from Rhiannon and her phone.“Are you sure? I have a couple more that you should really—”“I said I don’t want to hear anymore.”Before she can say anything else, I stride away from her, heart pounding in my chest. There are tears in my eyes now, and there’s nothing I can do to stop
ElijahMy brothers and I react at the same time, impressively coordinated. We grab Autumn before she can hit the floor, steadying her between us as she’s wracked with shaking from her orgasm.Moans and whimpers spill from her sweet lips as she writhes through it, and my cock throbs in answer.It’s
Autumn There are hands everywhere, ghosting over my curves, smoothing my hair back, touching my face, and I can’t keep track of which one of them is touching me where.Except for Benedict, fucking his fingers into me again and again, working me up even more until I feel like I’m strung so tightly.
Autumn Just like before, I can feel the other two watching, but I want them to see. It makes my skin buzz with heat, my body responding to the feeling of their gazes and the way Benedict kisses me.It’s deep, hungry, like he’s finally giving in to what he wanted to do at the bakery and intends to
Autumn I can feel his soft intake of breath, and after half a heartbeat of stillness, he kisses me back, deepening it enough that it sends a little shiver down my spine. His lips are warm and firm, and when we separate, I can feel my pulse in every limb of my body.Elijah and Luke are standing the







