There’s a roaring in my ears, for I have not had a thing since breakfast, which was just a sandwich.
My breath catches in my throat as I gulp, knowing that I have to say something, have to plead with the man in front of me, to help me to pay off my poor Dad’s bills. For Liam O’Grady and Finn St Just are the realtor giants who are buying every property in sight, turning them into fancy housing estates for the elite. Lavish bungalows in gated societies, with pools huge gyms, movie theatres, and restaurants…the works. And they are also loan sharks… So I want to get them to loan me the money to get out of Dean Nelson’s clutches… It’s become an obsession with me and I have been planning and plotting over the months for this one encounter. Only, with one thing and another, I could not come over. First the oven at the bakery malfunctioned. Then the twins came down with fever… But now, I’m here, finally. And I’m not going away till I get the men to agree to help me. & I look up, way up, into the cold tawny eyes for the man is tall, towering over me. He is handsome, with mussed-up hair that verges on a beaten gold kind of blonde, and that’s an understatement. His clothes; that’s what I notice. An expensive white silk shirt, the sleeves rolled up carelessly, the trousers clinging to his strong thighs. L feel his eyes on me and look up startled, and my gaze focuses on the cruelty in his mouth. Instinctively, I know that he is a man who will extract a price for everything he does. Nothing will come free. I will have to pay if I ask him for help. But… My stomach churns as I begin to understand what I am letting myself into… & I swallow and open my mouth to speak, for the man is watching me, his face shuttered, only his golden eyes alive and curious. & His expression is disinterested, almost pitying as he studies me in silence and I feel as though the world has been shut out. The look he gives is one of neutral speculation. Like a man watching a particularly uninspiring show on TV. & I swallow again, my throat tight as I manage to get the words out. “Uhhh…I wanted…I wanted to …” But he’s already turning away, dismissing me, his expression bored. ‘Melanie,’ he says in that smoker’s voice, addressing the blonde who looks like she’s going to fall onto her knees and worship him, “I…” But I pounce, grabbing his sleeve in desperation and hear the worshipful Melanie gasp in outrage. ‘Please Sir,” I stammer and his eyes, widen slightly before they narrow to slits. “What?’ he growls and I hear my heart hammering. Surely everyone can hear it too? Something has changed between us; it’s in the air, a sizzle of chemistry? It feels like static and I step a little away. But his gaze, gold and intent, is now on me. I have his entire attention and I’m not sure I can handle it. * He nods at Melaine the blonde, a hand snaking out to grip my elbow. Firm, not painful. “I’ll find out what his young lady wants.” And before I know it, he’s propelling me out of the room. Just as I stumble away, I notice a door at the end of a corridor. A door with the legend, FINN ST JUST written in gold. But the man who is leading me, strides away from it, into the bowels of the building, away from the buzz of the front office, deeper inside… *** My father, the good man that he had been had made quite a number of mistakes in his short life. Indulging my beautiful stepmother, who flitted from one gathering to another in our small community was the least of his crimes. He adored Heather and he would have done anything to keep her happy. Expensive clothes, the latest footwear, handbags and perfumes; Heather just had to turn her puppy eyes on him and my Dad would rush to buy the shop for her! And when the twins were born, he loved us all, equally. * I liked to think that I was his special favorite. I had inherited my mother’s colouring and figure and I knew that when he looked at me, he saw her, the Spanish beauty she had been, with her curvaceous figure and her tempestuous deep brown hair, the ringing laugh, the dimples and the wide mouth. I was not beautiful like my Mama, Sophia Cruz had been, but I looked like her at times. “My wise little Bianca, ‘ he would smile, his brown eyes shining with love as he ruffled my brown curls that were untamable. And I would lean into him, my arms around him, safe and secure in his plump arms. & Heather loved us all in her absent, flighty way. So it fell on me to take care of the twins when she was going from one village event to the other, one hen party to another. & But as I grew older, I realized that something was wrong. Dad was growing more stressed. He would snap at us, and ignore Heather when she asked for a new dress or new accessories; the twins and I went to school in our old shoes and satchels, feeling a little like church mice. But it was also the state of the bakery that bothered me. I was sixteen and I could see that the place was becoming more run down with each day. & Perhaps that was why it was no surprise when I came home one day from school and found Dad in the large kitchen behind the bakery, speaking in hushed, worried tones to his assistant, a sensible grandmother of four named Alice, talking about the debts he had run up. Alice helped with the baking and my Dad ran a tight ship, with just the two of them and a young man who came in the afternoons to help with the heavy stuff. As I stepped in, Dad was speaking in a low voice, ‘…don’t know how to …debts…realtors…” He clammed up the moment he saw me in the doorway and refused to let me in on what he was discussing. I also knew, with a sinking heart, that he would never share his problems with Heather. She would probably have hysterics, I thought wryly.By dawn the next day, Bianca had made up her mind. She was unsure about Roxanne’s whereabouts; the young woman might still be in the Delano mansion for all Bianca knew, and she did not want to call Roxanne directly. The thought of accidentally having the gruff, terrifying Mafia Don answer the call, highly unlikely as it was, put her off.What kind of mood could Roxanne be in, wondered Bianca as she paced, her infant on her shoulder as she tried to help the baby bring up a burp.But one thing was certain: a little bit of plain speaking would not hurt.It was barely dawn, and she had crept out of bed, nuzzling O’Grady, who had tried to sit up bleary-eyed, as he sleepily offered to assist her with Cian.“Go back to sleep, Irish,” she had said fondly, and Bianca watched affectionately as with his black head tousled, his jaw dark with stubble, O’Grady had grunted and fallen back onto the bed to resume snoring.Bianca had crept into the large room beside the bedroom, where she sat and fed
Baby Cian was a handful.He expected to be fed continuously to Bianca’s exasperation. And to make matters worse, her masters pressured her to keep doing so. At one point, she stood, her hands on her hips, glowering at them as she snapped,“Let’s get this straight, men, I’m not a milch cow!”O’Grady shot St. Just a perplexed look, and Bianca’s lips twitched. It was as though he had a thought bubble floating above his handsome head, reading,“What’s that?She grinned inside of herself, and O’Grady was behind her in a moment, his hands around her waist as he looked into her eyes and growled,“Ah, lass, when you stand like that, your big t*ts waving about,” Bianca blushed furiously and tried to push him, but he captured her wrists and bent his head, just as St. Just came up behind her and hugged her. She giggled as they ran their hands down her body, and she shuddered. But as though they had some kind of unspoken signal, the men stopped, and O’Grady raised his head, relishing the way her
Bianca was dozing on the large couch, her baby on her chest. Feeding him had become a joyful experience, and she loved the feel of his toothless little gums on her nipples, suckling greedily.Stroking baby Cian’s head of soft brown hair, she mused silently, that her son looked more like Finn St Just than O’Grady. Not that she had the heart to tell him. Liam O’Grady was like a man who had conquered the world and just about every waking moment was spent crooning, kissing and fussing over the infant, till Bianca had hollered at him in exasperation.“Irish, grow up! He’s our baby, not your toy!”Looking suitably chastised, O’Grady had settled down on the bed beside her, kissing her gently. As she stiffened and turned to him warningly, he held up a hand in surrender, the other draped around her waist.“ Ah, lass, doubt your Master, do you?” And when she studied him warily, he shook his hear, no merriment left on his handsome, rakish features as he continued solemnly, “No, Pet. Nothing at
Bianca was dozing on the large couch, her baby on her chest. Feeding him had become a joyful experience, and she loved the feel of his toothless little gums on her nipples, suckling greedily.Stroking baby Cian’s head of soft brown hair, she mused silently, that her son looked more like Finn St Just than O’Grady. Not that she had the heart to tell him. Liam O’Grady was like a man who had conquered the world and just about every waking moment was spent crooning, kissing and fussing over the infant, till Bianca had hollered at him in exasperation.“Irish, grow up! He’s our baby, not your toy!”Looking suitably chastised, O’Grady had settled down on the bed beside her, kissing her gently. As she stiffened and turned to him warningly, he held up a hand in surrender, the other draped around her waist.“ Ah, lass, doubt your Master, do you?” And when she studied him warily, he shook his hear, no merriment left on his handsome, rakish features as he continued solemnly, “No, Pet. Nothing at
Bianca’s lids fluttered open slowly.The room was quiet now, except for the soft beeping of monitors and the occasional shuffle of nurses. She lay still, a dull ache pulsing through her lower abdomen. The sterile scent of the hospital hung thick in the air, mingling with the rawness of everything she'd just experienced. Her eyes fluttered open slowly, as though her body wasn’t quite ready to match the speed of her thoughts.Moving with a groan, Bianca thought, so this is what it feels like. Not the movie version. Not the soft-focus montage where the baby slips into your arms and everything fades to gold. No. This was real—raw, bright, clinical. She could remember the cold of the operating table, the calm chaos around her, the way the anaesthesiologist talked like this was all routine. Maybe for him, it was. For Bianca, it was the moment everything shifted.They say you don’t feel pain during a C-section; she thought with a sigh. That was technically true. But what they don’t tell you
The brothers looked at her, love shining in their eyes as the doors to the operation theatre swung shut.They stood still, breathing hard.When she comes out, said O’Grady in a soft growl to his brother,“Saint, I’m going to propose formally, drag our Pet to the altar, make an honest woman of her, what say?” Finn St Just nodded. He was too overcome to say anything. Having had a surgery recently, he knew the utter loneliness of the person who was wheeled into the theatre, lying on the impersonal sheets before the actual procedure, when one was wheeled into the theatre. The feeling of fear, of panic that overtook the patient, a fear, lingering and quiet, that persisted…no amount of reassurance given by the people who loved the patient, who waited, with nail biting tension, outside the theatre, could reassure the one who lay, cold, desolate and alone, int eh four white walls of the theatre, waiting for the procedure to begin.O’Grady was pacing, his hands raking his thick black hair as