CHAPTER 15
Bollywood
Haze
I can hardly believe Jonathan invited me for a stroll and agreed to go to an amusement park. He must have been really pleased with how quickly I changed my clothes, oh my! I urgently need to review some of my habits before moving in with him. As Jonathan drives, I browse the park's website on my phone to check out some of the attractions. The park doesn't close late, and it's already 8 in the evening, but there's still plenty of time for us to have fun. I'm glad I can now have a moment of relaxation and even happier because, despite Jonathan's unexpected visit and the fact that none of what I wanted to say to him turned out the way I imagined, he preemptively mentioned that the remaining money I didn't spend was mine, and I didn't have to ask for it. It was a relief, as I had already sent all the money I had saved to my sister, and there is still something missing in that apartment so that I can make it feels
Scars JonThat change of clothes at the Park left me very anxious. If Hazel were any other woman I had met in life before, I would definitely think that she had done it on purpose, but my sharp male instinct tells me that she doesn't have that kind of malice. She doesn't seem to be the kind of person who sets up intentional situations; she's quite genuine and spontaneous, and that's something I envy and admire. I remember what I said to provoke her fetishistic imagination, and I smile as her head rests on my shoulder, asleep. A woman who allows herself to sleep on the shoulder of a man who is almost a stranger is certainly trustworthy. Or maybe she has a childlike soul. Maybe Hazel has a bit of both. And she's a little crazy too. I make a decision that might not please her when she wakes up, but I head towards my house. As I park the car in the garage, I slowly turn my body to look at her a little more and admire her English beauty. The lipstick on her lips is gone after the ice cre
The choices we makeHazelSitting on the couch at Jonathan's house, I know I'm acting childish and sulky, but I can't control myself. I've never been one to complain much about the difficulties of life, always fought for everything I wanted, but I've had to fight so much for my professional choice that I always overreact, and I just got scolded because I was talking too loud. I wish I could say I didn't want to react like this, but no words come out of my mouth. He is ready to leave the room, saying he is going to get some clothes for me."You can choose three more guest rooms to sleep in. You won't be bothered at all. You have my word. All I ask is that you get to know the house better before your mother arrives here."He leaves. He's definitely angry with me. And I'm angry with the world. I can't even reflect on everything I've just seen in his house. All the curiosity about the mysterious room, about the instruments he
FeelingsJonWe have a quick cup of pure, strong coffee with whatever Hazel has found in the fridge and then we leave the house. On the way to work, I ask Ahmet to drop Hazel off at home, but not before stopping at a gym called Bodyfit.-See there? Sometimes, when work leaves me, I come and punch a few punching bags to de-stress. You can even put my picture up if you like. I won't get angry.I smile, blinking my eyes several times.- Ridiculous, Jonathan.I ask him to pick up his cell phone. There are things Ahmet shouldn't hear, it's better to type. Hazel understands and opens her messaging app. I type.My mom wants to come to town, I'd better be at my house right away, get everything ready for us to move this week.She looks at me with wide eyes. I wonder what's going on in her head. Mothers are mothers. They suspect everything and even know everything, even if we don't know it yet. It's better that my mother doesn't know eve
In the Claws of a SeducerHazel"I love you? I love you?"That was all you managed to say at that moment, hastily, to Jonathan, Hazel? I could have thought of so many words, so many things, but all I could say was "I love you," and I feel like it provoked some kind of reaction in him. He must have found me ridiculous for that. I can give rude answers when necessary. Especially when I am angry, it seems that words come out faster than my thoughts, but when it comes to lying... I'm terrible! My spontaneous reactions always put me in trouble. As for all the things I saw in his room... I don't even know how to react. They make me curious, but they also give me shivers, and Jonathan must have noticed that, crystal clear. I cannot forget that he is a dominant man. What do I know about erotic dominance games? Practically nothing. Am I in one now? I've been in dominance games of a different nature before, and it wasn't p
The consolling solitudeJonThe week begins with the investigation into the worker's accident. Unfortunately Hamza Saad is there to make everything more boring. I've already called the hospital and learned that Omar, the worker, was fine. I'm on the building's huge construction site when Hamza approaches me. The wind is blowing hard because of that space. He's smoking a cigar that I don't know how it hasn't dissolved completely in the strong afternoon wind.”Jonathan, this is a setback that takes days away from the original project.’”I know, believe me, I know more than anyone.””Not more than anyone, I'm with two construction companies herefor a long time. You were here the day it happened, I hope that doesn't fall on your CV.”He flashes a fake, yellow smile.How can someone with so much money have yellow teeth like that? I know exactly what this bastard me
Changes are necessaryHazelIn a few days I'll be at Jonathan's house. I don't feel like packing at all. I've barely had time to enjoy my apartment and I'm already moving. I'm starting with the hardest part, which is getting my things out. I'll leave the best part for tomorrow, which is tidying up and decorating everything with the things I've bought, as well as the pots and pans I've already put away. It's a good thing I got two boxes from a nearby market to help me organize.There's not much to move. At first I thought I'd have a lot of suitcases because, as well as the work clothes I brought from London, I've bought some others here. That's part of the huge debt I've taken on.How can you not fall in love with these beautiful clothes?It's not just about the fabric or the good tailoring, but the way they fit our bodies and dance with us, enhance and give fluidity to our movements and sparkl
ProblemJonI wake up on Tuesday to Hazel's cell phone ringing. I turn over in bed, naked as I like to sleep, and answer it. I've put a ringtone specifically for her on my phone, it's an Elvis song, quite sexy actually, called "Trouble".TroubleIf you're looking for troubleYou've come to the right placeIf you're looking for troubleJust face meI was born standingAnd fighting backMy father was a mountain man with green eyesCause I'm bad, my middle name is sufferingWell I'm bad, so don't mess with meI never looked for troubleBut I never ran awayI don't take ordersFrom any kind of manI'm just madeOf flesh, blood and bone
A Starry Sky of New PossibilitiesHazelTuesday finally arrives, and I wake up very early, already excited to call Jonathan. I remember he had mentioned he would have a few days off from work, making this the perfect time to be with him without disrupting his routine.Before calling him, I checked the entire apartment to make sure everything was in order and safe. I've already informed the doorman about my absence, leaving my contact number and Jonathan's as well, my fiancé. I even took a short drive in my old car since it's going to be parked for a while. Yesterday, I made some notes about things I still need to handle, unrelated to the move, such as my visa, some contracts, and another note with all the questions I have about our relationship to discuss with Jonathan. The list is not short. Finally, I call him."Did you fall out of bed, baby?" I check the time; it's still early, and I've already done so much! I ask if