He Won't Let Go

Jacob

He got home for the first time since the night he got those divorce papers from Arianna; he kept himself busy with work so he didn't have to think about the documents in his drawer, waiting for him to sign and end his marriage. A marriage that he despised so much, shaking his head; no, not the marriage but the woman that I called my wife; my feelings towards her were very, very hostile to the point where I could call it hate; that’s the reason why I can’t understand why I am having second guess my decision to sign those papers and set myself free.

    Who wouldn't jump at a chance like that? The woman I don't even like wants a clean divorce; letting out a dry laugh, I pick up the bottle of whiskey and make my way up to the main bedroom; while unbuttoning my shirt, I take a shot of the brown liquor, letting the burn comforting me in the darkness of the room cause there is no way that I'm feeling sad over her no being here, nope that can’t be there must be another reason why I’m feeling the way I’m feeling at this moment.

The ringing of my phone pulled me out of my dark thoughts; taking it out of my pocket, I saw that it was my sister Hazel who was calling, and without a second thought, I picked up, “ Yes, Hazel, what's going on?” I quickly asked her because she only called me if there was something wrong with the company and nothing more.

   

“ Ah, right, Jacob, where are you?” she asked me while listening to one of her many assistants.

I guess she was still in the office, and I was right; something must have gone wrong with her project, and now she was calling me to put more work on my overloaded desk. “ Where would I be at this time of night, Hazel?” I asked her sarcastically.

“I don't know. You could be out there doing God’s know what with that annoying wife of yours,” she said between clinch teeth, even Hazel that was soft-hearted and couldn't stand Arianna, and I dont blame no one in my family for feeling the way they are feeling towards the woman that I called my wife.

“ Is that why you call me at this time of night?” I ignored her question and tried to get out of the phone call as soon as I could, drowning in my sorrow.

 “ Oh, right. The reason I called Mom was that she wanted me to remind you that tomorrow is dinner night, and don't bring that wife of yours to her house,” she said with no emotion whatsoever. 

It's not a shocker to hear my mom saying that I shouldn't bring Arianna to dinner, but now that I hear those words, I feel some way; it's a way that I can’t explain, even if I find the right words I don't think that I'll be able to explain how I'm feeling right now. “ yeah thanks, I won't” I finally told Hazel before hanging up the phone. Now would be the perfect time to let her know that Arianna wants a divorce, but something stops me from saying those words out loud.

    The question I have been asking myself for the past few days is whether or not I want a divorce, and so far, I haven't come up with the correct answer. I got off the chair, walked into the bathroom, turned on the shower head, and let the water run to warm the room before entering. Then, I let it drip over my body and help my muscles relax. Getting out of the shower with a towel wrapped around my waist, I looked at my hair in the mirror when my eyes felt where Arianna’s toothbrush was supposed to be, but it was not there. Putting my hands against the sink, I bend down and let my hair fall over my head, “ damn, what the hell is wrong with me tonight? I can't stop thinking about her?” Those questions were ruining my head when I walked back into the bedroom, put on my pajamas, and lay under my soft cover for the night.

      Morning came too early for my liking; getting off my bed, I went to get ready for my day; once I was in the car, my secretary told me someone was here to see me, and when I saw who was walking into my office, my whole mood as change, it was none other than Lisa, the woman who is trying to pull an Arianna on. It's not going to happen no matter what she does or who her goddamn father is.

“I don't have time for whatever it is you plan to do today,” I quickly told her before she could sit on the sofa.

Midway, she looked at me and said, “I think you do, Jacob,” sitting down. “I didn't like how you left the other day, and I'm here to talk about it.” 

“ What are you, a therapist?” I asked her because God knows I need to speak to one, one who can tell me why I can't stop thinking about my soon-to-be ex-wife.

“Now, Jacob, is not the time for you to be joking around.” Putting her hands on her flat stomach, she says, “We are having a baby whether you like it or not.”

Ah well, Arianna had class when she was playing her games. Honestly, there had to be a reason I got into Arianna’s games: I can see a player a mile away; what about her? Did she get me hooked on her? Closing my eyes, I turned Lisa out and thought about the night that I met Arianna; it was a celebration for Logan. He had finally got his first restaurant open after working so hard to get everything in order, and the opening was a success, so Aiden and I decided to take him to one of his favorite places to have a great meal and some good drinks. The only thing I was expecting to do that night was to chill with my boys and nothing more. Still, when it came for us to order, we got the sexiest waitress, and I couldn't keep my eyes off her; the way her eyes lit up when she smiled, I couldn't help but check her out and imagine all the things that I could do with that small body of hers. I guess she was feeling the same because once she gave us the check, she slipped her number in my pocket, and from there on, we got a room and spent the most fantastic night that I had ever had; before I knew it, I was thinking of asking her to be my exclusive girlfriend. All I could think about was how lucky I was to find such a beauty in a rare place; little did I know that that rare beauty would be bone that I couldn't swallow when she showed up on my doorstep to let me know she was pregnant, at that moment I was happy because I did like her but I wasn't expecting was what came after the wedding, and it's something that I can never forget.

Lisa's screams brought me into reality. “Why are you screaming?” I asked her once I saw that she was standing too close for comfort. Pushing away from her, I didn't give her time to give me an answer. “Go home, and we will talk about this later. “I just want her out of my office as soon as possible.

She must have thought the same thing because she went, “You are not getting rid of me that easily; I will call you later,” before grabbing her bag and walking out of my office.  Watching her leave, I thought to myself, “Man, you have got to stop letting these women play you.” I have one who's playing a game to win while I'm trying to figure out what the end game is.

Pulling my phone out of my pocket, I decided to send a text to Arianna; she’s been calling and texting since the day she gave me those papers; I think today would be nice to have lunch and find out why she is in such a hurry to get a clean divorce from me. It didn't take long for her to agree to meet me at the restaurant so we could sign those papers, at least that’s what I told her, but I have another idea that I’m working with, and I need an answer today if possible.

    Spending a couple of hours looking over the jewelry that we are going to put on display for the fashion next week, I took the ones that I believe are good to go and the ones that I think need a little more touching. I took them into Hazel’s office. Since she wasn't there, I left them with her secretary with notes and made my way to the restaurant to meet Arianna. 

Once I got to the restaurant, I saw that she wasn't there yet, which was good. I got to be the one waiting for her and not the way around; I hate being late to anywhere; whether I want to go or not, I'll always make sure that I'm early. I was about to send her a text when i shadow fell over me, lifting my head, I saw it was her standing next to me, just as beautiful as she was the night I met her, with her naturally curly hair down to her back.

“ Hi, you here,” I say nervously for no damn reason.

“ You asked me to be here, did you not?” she said firmly.

Taking a sip of my water, I say, “Yeah, I did call you, but still, I thought you wouldn't show.”

“ why wouldn’t I? Did you bring the papers with you?” She went right down to business.

“Now, wait a minute, how about we get something to eat before we get down to business” I try to get control of the situation.

Giving me a look over before raising her hand for the waiter to come, I was glad that she was ordering something to eat, but when she was done, I heard her tell the waiter, “Make it go,” making me turn my head so quick I was shocked that I didn't break it.

Looking at the waiter, I say, “No, we are both eating here, thanks,” without allowing Arianna to say something.

“ Why did you do that? You know, I thought you would be happy about this whole situation,” she said.

“ What's there to be happy about? You want me to sign those papers without telling me what kind of games you are playing” I repeat the same words from that night because, yes, I'm not buying that she just wants out of the marriage; there is something more.

“ why does it have to be something more? I just want a divorce which I'm sure you and your family would be happy about,” she says while playing with the napkin on the table and not looking me in the eyes like she would.

“you're right we would be happy about it, but what we wouldn't be about is you playing games, and I'm sure it's another one of your games trying to be in control of the situation,” I said to her.

Shaking her head furiously she goes “It, 's not a game I just want out, so I could move on with my life” 

I let her words hang in the air between us because there was no way that I just heard what I just heard, after putting me through hell she wanted to move on with her just like that. After a good few minutes of us getting lost in our thoughts, she says “What do you want Jacob?” 

Hearing my name coming out of those lips I could just lean forward and kiss them since I know they would taste as juicy as they look, while my heart seems to have a different idea of it, my head was a complete mess with honesty in my words I say “I don’t know I want” it was hundred percent the truth, I don’t know what I to do or what I should do. I'm guessing this is her game after all putting me in a difficult position. 

Seeing our waiter I called him over and whispered to him to put our food to go cause there is no point in making this lunch any more miserable than it already is. We are sitting there waiting for our food like complete strangers who just happened to sit at the same table. Luckily for us, after twenty minutes, the food came out and the waiter handed it to us and left us in our miserable silence.

   Looking at the bags on the table, neither of us makes a move to grab the food and go since we both seem to want to leave the minute that we walk in but now it seems we don't even want to leave despite us being in an awkward position. Arianna seems to have enough. She grabs her bag and says, “Thanks for lunch, but can you sign the papers by tomorrow?” 

I do not know what possessed me to wrap my arm around her waist and pulled her towards me before kissing her on those juicy lips that I was daydreaming of doing uncontrollable things too, the shock of my move gave me a chance to push my tongue and side of her mouth and kiss her as my life depends on it, I savor every inch of her lips making her moans right there in the middle of the restaurant.

   Feeling her hands run over my chest, I got excited, it's a good thing she pushes me away because who knows what I would've done in the middle of this restaurant,

Taking a step away from each other we were both breathing hard and staring each other down like we are the only two people who existed. Without a word, she turned her heels and left me standing there still wondering how I'm going to let her go.