*** Helen ***
As I drive along in my new car, I feel like things are looking up, I feel lighter, more confident and it gives me a new determination to get my affairs in order.
I want Alan out of my life. I do not want to live like this anymore and I am not tolerating him coming into my house whenever the fancy takes him when he is sleeping with someone else. I have tried desperately to give him a chance to be in Summer’s life but he is not interested. He has made it clear since the day I found out I was pregnant that he does not want to be a father. I thought once Summer was here, he would change his attitude, but everything was so sour between us, he didn’t even try to love her. I know I have pushed this because of my own lack of father growing up. I have tried and tried to get Alan to accept our daughter, but enough is enough. How could he not even love his own flesh and blood? I suppose his reaction to me being pregnant in the first place should have warned me that this was not going to happen how I hoped, but I was already so in love with my little surprise, I didn’t want to see how against the idea he was. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ *~ Flashback ~* *** Three Years Ago *** “You’re what?” Alan shouts at me, making me flinch. “I’m pregnant. We’re going to have a baby, Alan,” I explained. I thought I had been pretty clear the first time I announced to him I was carrying his child. I seriously do not see what his problem is. We have been married for over three years, we are both employed and we have a home. Is it really such an issue that I am pregnant? I know it wasn’t exactly planned but it wasn’t prevented either. I try to think if he ever said anything about having children but now that I think about it, he always changed the subject whenever it came up. “Well, you best get rid of it, Helen, I do not want any sprogs running around.” I feel my tummy turn to ice water, my tongue is too big for my mouth, and I cannot breathe. “Get rid of it?” I ask him, unbelieving. Why? Why is he doing this? “Alan, it’s our child, our baby, I am keeping it. I want this baby.” “I don’t. I don’t want it, Helen, and if you go ahead with this, I don’t want you either, you’re on your own.” Without a backward glance, he walks out of our home and does not return for three days. By the time he comes back, I have worked through my heartache of his rejection of not only me but our innocent babe growing inside me too. I have become angry instead. “Have you got rid of it?” he asks me emotionlessly. I just shake my head back at him which leads to him accusing me of forcing him to have a child he does not want, that I have done this on purpose and he will never forgive me for it, before he leaves yet again. He went on a six-month tour of Iraq, and I went into premature labour while he was away. Summer was born eight weeks early and I was terrified I was going to lose her. I did it alone. Halle did come to visit and helped me with essentials but after Summer was born, Alan’s salary stopped coming in. I had no option but to go back to work despite having a poorly new-born and feeling traumatised. The day Alan’s parents turn up at my house and realise they have a grandchild confirms the extent of Alan’s denial. His mum is heartbroken, and his dad is angry and disgusted at his son's behaviour. Alan accuses me of turning them against him. I have no one to support me, my own mother is living in the south of France with husband number six who is a handsy leach. It’s just me and my little girl. Over the next few years, Alan would randomly turn up, but he never asked about the baby, he never held her or even looked at her and it broke my heart that he remained closed off to her. I wanted more for my little girl than I had, I wanted her to have the daddy I never did. Looking back now, those times when he came home were obviously the times he had argued with his new piece on the side and he had nowhere else to go. He would come into my house uninvited, looking down his nose at me and his daughter and then he would leave me all alone, feeling even more unloved and dejected each time he did. *** End of Flashback *** ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ My phone ringing brings me out of my daydream. My snazzy new dashboard tells me it’s Halle calling and I am able to answer handsfree while I drive. I tell her I am just around the corner from work and I will be there in five minutes. My thoughts about Alan and our pathetic excuse of a marriage continue to trouble me. A marriage is a partnership, and I can no longer delude myself that I can make this work. I meant every word of my vows and I have tried my hardest to get us back on track, but Alan is no longer the man I married. I don’t know if he ever was the man I thought he was. He continually stamps all over our marriage and all over me, and I have had enough. He is unfaithful, unsupportive, and negligent towards me and Summer. It’s been almost three years since he even kissed me, never mind anything more intimate. I live a loveless life filled with anger and disdain and I cannot do it anymore. We have not lived as husband and wife since I found out I was pregnant; I can prove that financially we are no longer associated in any way, shape, or form. Alan will probably have no objection to us officially divorcing, he has made it quite clear he hates me and he holds no affection for our daughter. Those last thoughts bring tears to my eyes for the second time today. I had hoped to give marriage a better shot than my mother had with her several attempts and yet here I am, 25 years old, looking divorce down the barrel. My mother’s numerous marriages embarrassed me growing up, and my aim was to always do better than she had at sticking to my word and my convictions. Now I was as big a failure as she was. As I pull up at work, I try to block all the negative thoughts from my brain and concentrate on my work. I have been working at Paloma Azul for more than four years and although it’s far from my dream job, it is a decent job, the pay is better than most similar jobs and my boss happens to be a close friend who is not only extremely understanding but exceedingly helpful too. Halle Morales is a force to be reckoned with. I met her at 16 years old when we all joined the sixth form college from a wide variety of secondary schools. Halle was self-assured, blunt, and absolutely, stunningly beautiful. I must admit I was really intimidated by her for the first few years of our friendship. In fact, I think I still am! I know there is something shady about Halle’s family business. However, I do not want to know any more than that. Her parents have always been very welcoming of both me and Summer and have saved me from the past two Christmases alone. Their business is their business. They are lovely people who have treated both me and my daughter like family, they have treated us better than my own family and I will always find time and respect for them for that. Paloma Azul is an elite nightclub with an exclusive membership list. Every single person who goes in there has paid for the privilege; trust me, I process not only their payments but their tracking details too. As I reach Halle’s office she is talking on the phone and it makes me smile: it must be Brad. I do wonder if she will ever accept him as a partner the way her father would like her too. “Fuck off, you useless prick, I do not need your help, you can shove it where the sun doesn’t shine.” Halle is shouting fiercely down the phone. I guess Mr Morales is going to have a long wait!*** Melanie *** I have never seen Alan as angry as he is now. He is stomping about my dining room, ranting and raving about Helen and how she is trying to ruin his life. When I first started seeing Alan, I knew he was married but I saw him as fair game. I knew both him and Helen before they got together. At the time Alan and I had been seeing each other in secret and we carried on sleeping together even after he became involved with Helen. He told me he was seeing her as a bet with his friend Luke and I believed him. It broke my heart when he married her a few months later. I walked away from him and had a couple of children with another man, but I thought about Alan every day. He was my first love and I thought he had loved me back. I didn’t see him for almost three years and then out of the blue he started drinking in the local pub where I was working. It wasn’t long before he was fucking me against the rubbish bins in the alley behind the pub. He told me all about Helen, how s
*** Aivi ***My time to prove myself has come.My Alpha has identified his Luna, his fated mate, and I am going to bring them together. I overheard the Alpha on the phone saying that his mate finishes work at 6pm so I am going to retrieve her. I know my Alpha will be thankful to have this sorted out with very little trouble, so I have decided to take this off his hands.I know they see me as some stupid kid, they don’t see me as their equal, but I am determined to prove I deserve my place among the elite and by capturing my Luna I am so sure they will see that too.I recruit a couple of my Gamma Guard to help me and we take one of the pack vans with us. I tell the guys she is human, and we cannot give away that we are werewolves.My plan is to get her to the cells and explain to her that she must accept my boss as her new lover and then I can release her. As we sit in wait for our future Luna to come out, I visualise the awards and accolades I will get as a reward for delivering the
*** Helen *** I am terrified. I am travelling in a vehicle with a sack over my head and my hands and feet are bound. I can hear voices but I do not recognise them. My head hurts where they banged it, although I think this was done by accident. I heard one of them remind the others that I was to be delivered alive and well and unharmed. Delivered where? And where was Summer? Who was looking after my little girl? Am I about to meet my maker? If it was just me in this world, I could cope with dying, that would be okay. But I am all Summer has, I have to look after my little girl, I need to get free and get back to being her mummy. Nothing else matters. After what feels like hours, the vehicle comes to a stop and my capturer starts to lift me again. I can hear voices whispering. “Are you sure this is the right one, Aivi? She is so small, how can she be his match?” “Shush, you big idiot, you just said my name. and yes, this is definitely the right woman, I saw her myself.” I start t
*** Alan ***Helen is taking the piss big time. After I finish fucking Mel, I head for a shower and start to change into my shirt and suit. Now I know Halle Morales has some goons looking out for me in town, I am having to go out of town to go to the casino.Mel brings me the shirt she had ironed for me and as I put my arms into the sleeves, my phone starts to ring. It is an unknown number.“Hello, is that Mr Jefferson? This is Sunny Days Daycare. Helen hasn’t come to collect Summer and she is not answering her calls, could you please come and collect her? We closed over an hour ago and it’s not like Helen to be late.”Am I hearing right? “Erm, no, I can’t. Why are you calling me?” I ask incredulously.The line goes quiet. “I am sorry, Mr Jefferson, this is Summer's father, right?”“No. No it's not, so I suggest you call Helen back and tell her she looks after her kid or she can go to child services. Do not phone this number again. That kid has nothing to do with me.” I cut the call
*** Summer *** Oooo, it smells good, like strawberries and pancakes. But the lady keeps looking at me and smiling and I do not want to smile yet. I miss my mummy; my mummy smiles a lot and sings songs, and we have fun. I miss my dollies and my teddy bears but mostly I miss mummy. My jammies are all wrong and my bed was too big and there is no light. Mummy always leaves a light for me so the monsters cannot get me, but the lady says, “Shush and time for sleeps.” She didn’t do story time either. The lady puts the pancake in front of me, but she doesn't cut it like mummy does. “Don’t cry sweetheart, we are going to take good care of you.” “I want my mummy”. *** Manzitti *** As I try to approach Helen, she backs up away from me as much as the cuffs allow her. She looks badly beaten and my heart feels hollow at the sight of her injuries. How will I ever get her to agree to be mine now? She will never want to see me again after this and I do not blame her. "I just want to release yo
*** Ivan ***Alpha orders us all out of the cells and I feel so bad for him. His mate will never trust any of us now. I know Manzitti, this will be fucking killing him. He would have tried to be patient with his tiny mate and, as much as it would have tormented him, he would have taken it slow for her. Now he has met her and felt the bond, like I have, he would have done whatever it took to win her over.He would have wanted to get to know Helen and allow her time to get to know him but Gamma Aivi has fucked that up royally. And the sacred trust and relationship between Luna and Gamma will never be there now; well, not while he is still Gamma. Both myself and Manzitti told the elders Aivi was not ready but because his father had been the Gamma and had died in service, they had been insistent that he take his father’s place. Now look at what that sentimentality has caused.“Slayne, I am just going to change my clothes so I am ready if Manzitti needs me.” She smiles at me, and my heartb
*** Helen ***I am kind of hurt that Manzitti did not at least attempt to peek at me while I was in the shower. I faced him the entire time just in case he did, and he never once moved and as time went by, I started to feel more and more self-conscious. Maybe the mate thing doesn’t necessarily mean he is attracted to me sexually? I was sure I had seen desire in his eyes, and yet it’s been so long that I doubt myself now, I have obviously got it wrong. He doesn’t fancy me.I was scared of him leaving in case another wolf-man came in. They are so big and strong, yet they look completely human. My options were pretty clear to me. I could get showered and dressed alone and in fear, or I could ask Manzitti to stand guard with his back to me and not be afraid.I suppose I have to be honest and admit… I did want him to want to look at me. I feel the connection between us, and I can’t explain it, it's unlike anything I have ever experienced before. My body is by no means anything to write hom
“Hey, don’t cry. Shortie, I promise I will help you find your daughter.” Manzitti’s voice brings me out of my tormented reminiscing. I have wasted so much time trying to change Alan, trying to be something I am not to make him happy. I am done.Before I realise it, Manzitti’s big, strong arms are around me, and the physical contact brings more tears to my eyes. My little Summer, my little ray of sunshine, I hope she is safe wherever she is. I need her back with me, I cannot bear not knowing where she is and if she is safe and cared for.It feels so good to be in Manzitti’s arms, to be held like I mean something to him. I have so many questions about who he is, what he is and what I am to him. I will be completely transparent and honest: I do feel a connection to him, and if I am going to end my marriage properly maybe this is something I would be willing to consider in the future. Although the thought of being intimate with another man and him judging my performance too scares the liv