This must be a nightmare, right?
That was the first thing that came to mind when I opened my eyes. But no, it wasn't. I woke up in a hospital bed, my whole body aching and sore. I looked down and saw bandages wrapped around my chest and arm.
The memory of Sara hit me like a truck.
Sara's face—blank, lifeless—covered in blood.
No, no, no! This can't be real. This isn't real!
"Sara...! Sara...!"
I tried to sit up and saw Mom sitting by the window, looking at her phone. Her head snapped up the moment she realized I was awake. She tossed her phone aside and rushed to my bedside.
Tears welled up in her eyes, and that's when I knew this wasn't a dream.
Even though I desperately wanted it to be.
"Bern, you're awake! Thank God!" she sobbed, her face a mixture of sadness and relief.
"Mom...! Sara...!" My voice came out choked, choked with fear and pain.
"You just woke up. It's okay now, sweetheart. Everything will be fine. Don't worry about anything."
But seeing Mom didn't make me feel safe. In fact, it made my fear worse. I was afraid for Sara.
"Where is Sara?! Mom, where is she?" I begged.
I kept hoping she was okay, maybe in the next room recovering.
"Sweetheart..." Mom took a deep breath. "She's gone."
Reality hit me like a smack in the face.
There was no way she could have survived that brutal attack, but Sara was strong. She should have made it. She should be alive.
I should've listened to her. We never should've taken that shortcut through the woods. I lost my best friend forever because of Maggie's stupid request.
Why? Why was I so stupid?!
"No... no..." I shook my head in disbelief. "It's my fault...! It's all my fault...!"
God, forgive me! Forgive me, Sara!
"Bern, please calm down. You're safe now. I promise you nothing will happen to you. Try to rest, okay?"
If I could go back in time, I would. Sara would still be here.
All I could do now was cry and drown in the regret that filled every inch of my chest.
The next day, the police visited the hospital to take my statement. I told them everything I remembered about the creature that attacked us. Me and Sara.
It wasn't a bear. I didn't know what it was. But it was huge, covered in fur, with sharp teeth and claws, and it moved insanely fast.
After that, what happened to us became the biggest story in our small town.
Reporters wanted my side of the story, but Mom wouldn't let them near me.
And the rumors got out of control. People said it wasn't a wild animal. Some even said Sara and I were drunk party girls who had illegally bought beer at the prom.
Total lies. Baseless rumors.
"Come on, Bern." Mom helped me out of the car and into the house.
The house was cold and empty. It was just me and Mom now.
Dad had moved away with his new family. Yeah, the woman who ruined our home and her newborn baby.
It crushed me when Dad betrayed us like that. But I got through it - because of Sara. Now Sara was gone. I even missed her funeral.
I wasn't a good friend to her, was I?
I'm just a cursed soul, no good to anyone.
"I made some soup before I picked you up," Mom said quietly, giving me a sympathetic look. Do you want me to heat it up?"
I shook my head weakly. "Maybe later."
"The doctor said your bandages need to be changed. I'll help you with it."
"Okay, Mom. I just want to rest first."
"All right, sweetheart."
I dragged myself upstairs and went straight to my room. A strange rotten smell hit me as soon as I opened the door.
"What is that smell?"
Then I saw it, my fish tank. The water was murky and disgusting. And swimming in it...
"Oh... God! Maxwell! Oh... God!"
Tears fell fast. Everything was crumbling.
It was as if God had decided that I didn't deserve a happy life. That I was put on this earth only to suffer.
*
Later that night, my body felt hot. It was itchy. Really itchy.
This wasn't a fever—no doctor ever said anything about this. I was sweating like crazy, especially on my back where the deep wounds had been.
"It's so itchy...oh God..." I groaned.
I thought it was the scabs healing. But wasn't it too soon for that? The wounds were deep. Yet I couldn't feel the pain anymore. That was… weird.
I reached for the bandage on my chest and slowly peeled it off.
Gone. The wounds were gone. Completely.
The claw marks were gone. Just a faint pink trace, like a shadow. That was it.
"What the...?"
I panicked, jumping out of bed, turning on the light, and running to the mirror.
I touched the skin—it was smooth.
"I have to tell Mom," I muttered.
But as I reached for the doorknob... I stopped.
This wound—this very deep wound—needed surgery to close. The doctors said it would take weeks to heal.
How could I explain this to my mother? She'd freak out.
"Oh my God... Mom can't know about this."
If she found out, I'd never get any peace. I needed answers, not more questions.
*
A knock at the door made me jump.
I quickly pulled on a hoodie and grabbed my backpack. When I opened the door, Mom was standing there.
"You're dressed already?" she asked in surprise. "Did you change your bandages?"
"Just now," I nodded, pointing to the trash can. "I can do it myself now."
I quickly led her out of my room, avoiding eye contact. I couldn't let Mom see my skin, not anymore.
I rushed to the kitchen, poured cereal into a bowl, added milk, and sat down to eat.
I planned to take the bus so I wouldn't have to talk too much.
The doctor actually gave me permission to rest at home for another two weeks. But what should I do at home when I already feel fine?
"Bern?"
Mom's voice snapped me out of my thoughts. I looked up, trying to act casual.
"Yeah, Mom?"
"Are you sure you want to go to school? You're still recovering. Your wounds aren't completely healed."
I held my spoon nervously and nodded quickly. "I'm fine. Really! No worries, Mom."
She stared at me as if trying to see through me and sighed.
"The school gave you more time off for a reason," she said. "You're lucky to be alive with everything you've been through. I don't want you to push yourself too hard."
But staying home felt like dying slowly.
I had no one here.
Even if I didn't have Sara at school... at least there were people around. Life.
"Mom, I have to go. There's only a few months left. I have to prepare for college. If I even get in."
I gripped my spoon tighter. I didn't know why I was so nervous.
No, wait. I did know. I could feel something of Mom. Like... her aura. Wait, wait, wait. Wait, what? An aura?
But it was real. I could feel something about Mom. Something I'd never felt before.
"You'll get in, Bern. Don't worry," she said.
"Maybe I will. But Sara won't." My voice trembled again.
I shouldn't have mentioned Sara. She was gone. She was with God. But the regret in my chest was unbearable.
Sara and I should have gone to college together, maybe even joined the same sorority. Now, all that is gone.
"Bernice, don't say that. If Sara were alive, I know she'd want you to be calm. She wouldn't want you to worry," Mom said.
"Well, she's not alive."
"Sweetie pie… what happened to Sara was fate. No one could have stopped it. You can't fight fate."
I knew that. But the fact that I lived and she didn't, it didn't seem fair. She didn't even make it to 18.
"I'll drive you to school."
"I want to take the bus today."
I stood up and went to put my spoon on the table, but I gasped. The spoon was broken in half. I had no idea how it had happened.
I stuffed the broken spoon into my jacket pocket and grabbed my bag.
Once outside, I threw the spoon in the trash. I wasn't afraid of losing a spoon. I was afraid of why it broke.
What was happening to me?
"Skipping dinner, Bern? Don't do that, you'll get sick," Paige advised. “Come on, let’s go the cafetaria!”But I shook my head even faster. My heart was a wreck. After being dumped by Zach, cornered by Shirley, and anxiously waiting to see if Jasher would reject me...Who could even think about eating under those circumstances?"Bern, are you sick? Is it because you fell into the pool? Maybe we should go to the infirmary," Aggy said, sounding worried. "I'm scared something might happen to you.""I'm just tired, that's all. I don't feel like eating either. I'm sorry, but I don't want to go anywhere," I said."I'll get you something," Piper offered. "And don't say no!"I had no choice but to nod despite having no appetite. I sank back into the couch as I heard the dorm door open."Bern!!" Aggy called out. "Genesis wants to see you!"I had no energy left to deal with Genesis and whatever questions he had. But I couldn't tell Aggy
"After Jasher and Zach, who will you flirt with next?"Suddenly, Shirley blocked my path.I just stared at her, eyes narrowed. God, why do these trials keep piling up on me? I didn't want any trouble with Shirley or anyone else at this academy."I don't want to fight, please," I said weakly."You think acting all pathetic is going to make me feel sorry for you, bitch?"Her words came while she pushed me hard into the pool.I couldn't steady myself. My body tipped over and crashed into the water.No...! No...!!I struggled, reaching for the surface and trying to swim up, but my body kept sinking deeper. Water rushed into my lungs, and my nose burned. It hurt.Please, help me! Please!Suddenly, someone picked me up and pushed me to the surface. I clung to the edge of the pool, shaking and coughing violently.When I turned my head, Zach was beside me, his eyes wide with shock."Are you okay?" he asked.
I hadn't seen Zach in class for several days, and yes, of course, we hadn't met outside of class either. I didn't dare ask Genesis; doubt and fear were eating away at me.I didn't want Genesis to become suspicious. Honestly, it wouldn't have been a big deal to ask, but I felt like I had to protect Genesis' feelings, and that felt weird, even to me.Ever since Genesis found out that Jasher and Shirley had broken up, plus the fact that Jasher said I was his mate... Genesis had become overprotective.Genesis always waited for me outside the classroom and followed me wherever I went. It was kind of annoying, to be honest. I could feel the tension between the other girls getting sharper, angrier every time.But I couldn't bring myself to tell Genesis that I was annoyed. It wasn't like he was doing anything wrong; he was showering me with kindness and attention.What excuse could I possibly use?So in the end, I just had to get used to Genesis alw
Why did Zach leave?My eyes followed Zach as he turned and walked quickly out of the cafeteria. I was sure he saw me. Was he avoiding me? Or was he upset because Genesis had his arm around me?"Let go of me, Genesis," I hissed in irritation.Genesis chuckled, which only made me more annoyed. Casually, he half-dragged me into the cafeteria and got in line for food."Oh, here's a journal for you," Genesis said, handing me a new notebook. "You have to sign it on the front."I raised an eyebrow. "This isn't kindergarten, Genesis.""Well, I don't want them mixed up with the other 90 students, Bernice."I remembered the incident at the stationery store yesterday. Had Genesis really bought all the journals? Oh my God!"Why did you buy them all? You could've just canceled the order!" I became increasingly annoyed when I heard how casually he treated the situation."It's okay. Zach didn't mind either."Ugh. I thought Zach
I watched as Genesis wrapped his arms around Bernice with way too much affection, and it hit me like a punch in the gut.Genesis had liked Bernice from the moment they met. When Bernice lived with me before the Academy, Genesis kept begging me to introduce him to her.It was love at first sight for Genesis, and I knew he was serious about it. Genesis had never fallen for a she-wolf before. That's why I stopped him from making a move. There were... many reasons.But I couldn't stop Genesis' feelings. He was honest and obviously not playing games. He just hadn't the right moment to realize that Bernice was his mate.But what if I had felt that bond first?My eyes met Bernice's, and suddenly, I felt a wave of guilt toward Genesis. Instinctively, I stepped back and turned away.I didn't know what was going through Bernice's head, but I knew I had to control my emotions.Damn it. How could I forget that my cousin liked Bernice? What the he
A journal suddenly landed on my desk. I looked to the side and saw Genesis already standing there."Write a journal," he said casually."For what?" I frowned. "I don't need it.""But you told Bernice to write a journal. You won't do it yourself, but you'll get another wolf to do it? What's that called again—hypocrisy?"I turned my chair and crossed my arms. "Inconsistency?""Whatever." Genesis shrugged. "If you expect her to write one, you should."I gave him a quick nod. "Okay. Anything else?""You took Bernice back to the dorm?" Genesis stared at me intently. "I heard from other students. We almost lost our minds when she disappeared.""Sorry..."Suddenly, the memory of me kissing Bernice popped into my head. Crap! What the hell was I thinking? Why did this come up now and make my chest pound?"I was too focused on catching King Max," I said, trying to distract myself.Well, it wasn't exactly a lie. I had been in the woods trying to hunt him down again. My encounter with Bernice was