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Vanessa

Hindsight is a wonderful thing. Being able to look back on a situation with new knowledge that could have changed it all...

It allows you to say what if? What if I'd done that differently? What if if said something else?

In retrospect my life could have been so different. If I would have conformed to my mother's wishes who would I be? Would I be 'normal'? Would I be happy? Sad? Alone?

I wouldn't be here that's for sure... locked in this bare room waiting for what probably will be the day I finally die.

If I hadn't had gone into the club that day... would I still have met him? Was he written in my stars? Or was it just a matter of chance? Of consequence?

But looking back I don't regret a thing.

Yes I'm locked in a room holding onto my terrified daughter waiting for something... anything to happen. But I'd do it all over again to have the chance to love him... to marry him... to have our two beautiful children.

Looking back is great... we can ask what if? But why should w