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Chapter 33
We've remained in the same position for some time now. We've both calmed down now that's for sure.
" I'm a bad person." I sigh, pulling back from him.
I look up at him again. "Not once did I treat you right, from the moment you came. I never gave you a chance to speak, I was...." I sigh yet again, my head hanging low in shame. " They were right to think of me as someone who plays with peoples feelings, someone who won't leave things be."
" And this is why it was best you didn't know, because of this, you would start blaming yourself." He says to himself. " Hazel-," he tries take my hands but I snatch them out of reach.
" Why couldn't I see it, I mean Colt said it in my face that - ,"
" Excuse me, Colt said what?!" My head snaps up when he asks through gritted teeth.
I gulp when his eyes narrow.
"It's nothing." I shake my head, rising to my feet.
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