Z E K E B L A K E L YI didn't realize what I was doing for a time.30 days. This has been going on for a month.It has been a month since I last gave a blonde a sexual glance. Brown-haired women with brown eyes that have a tinge of black around the edges have been the norm. I've been trying to find her in others.However, it appears that she is unique among people. Nowhere near. I have been looking for her in empty eyes that I have peered into. They don't convey emotion the way she does. They might, but I fail to see it. Moreover, their hair has never been the ideal hue. Also, the shape of their lips has changed. Nevertheless, despite my urgent glances at them, they didn't make my heart race. They didn't even make my heart race when I only glanced at them in an effort to feel them on me.In an effort to feel something from it, I try to picture the female who is currently sitting on my lap and kissing my neck as being her. So that I may at least somewhat appreciate it. Yet it's ineff
"Marnie?" As Zoey and I make our way to math along the corridor, a random girl taps my shoulder. She escapes my recognition. She has lovely blue eyes and is a blonde girl."Yeah?"I'm Jennifer, hi," she says, waving."Hello," I laugh."Please ask Zeke to return my calls as you two are friends. It's been weeks, so he's probably been too busy to respond. "She giggles apprehensively.Stupid girl."Alright, but don't expect too much from him. You could find someone a lot better than him because he's a player."She looks up at me and says, "Wow.""What?"'Aubrey was correct,'Oh God."Regarding what?""You enjoy Zeke,"Alright, really? I tried to help her, so how come she got that?Zoey chuckles, "Don't be furious at Marnie simply because Zeke actually returns her calls. Chill down crazy."To be told, he doesn't. I choose not to tell her that, though.Jennifer lets out an exaggerated gasp before strutting down the hallway.Zoey rolls her eyes and says, "Someone forgot to take her medicine
I greet everyone as I take a seat on the couch next to Zeke's normal location."Um, hi," he says as he raises his head from his phone.Have you finished your chemistry homework? I try to start a conversation by asking.He stands up and says, "No, I'm going to go take a nap." He then clears his throat.I sigh as I stand up "Really, Zeke? Every time I've watched you this week, you've stated that."He shrugs, "I'm exhausted."He's back to doing what he does. the incident where he abruptly ends our conversation. avoiding me while I babysit him and ignoring me at school. Since the incident involving Isaac, he and Cole haven't even joined us for lunch because Cole and Zoey aren't talking and Zeke is upset with me for an unidentified reason. A week has passed. And I'm sick to my frickin' teeth of it.I demand, "Tell me what I've done.""What?""Explain your anger at me.""I'm not furious at you," he sighs."What is happening then? Why do you continue to avoid me?"He strokes his hair with hi
Z E K E B L A K E L YThe adorable young woman sprints out of the library doors. a girl who would never do anyone harm. the young lady who derives joy from others' joy. The selfless, obstinate, overly analytical, and damaged girl flees from the man she trusted."Marnie! Please halt!" A tiny brunette girl appears behind Mason as he chases after her.No.I find myself trailing after him as I watch him try to catch up to Marnie.I'll be fucking fucked if he touches her.She is turned around by his shoulder grasp.No.I grab the jerk and throw him against the wall while holding onto his neck.What the hell did you just do? I scream, and it's the loudest, most obnoxious voice I've ever heard.Mason pulls my hand, attempting to free himself from my hold as he gasps for air. Ze... Ke... I... Ca... Nt is all he can manage to utter. He should make more of an effort.Zeke, cut it out! I immediately release Mason when Marnie yells and turn to face her.I feel like a dog with her as my master, d
"Hello, my love! Did you enjoy your time in school today?" As she returns home from work, my mother queries.I tell a falsehood, "Yes, it was fine. It took a lot of effort for me to pretend that Mason cheating on me doesn't affect me."Well, get dressed in something nice. Charlie and I will be joining Evelyn for a supper to celebrate. Not bad, is it not?"Oh God."Yeah." The timing of everything at this point is terrible. I simply want some peace and quiet right now so I can eat some chocolate and reflect on how miserable life is.I search my closet upstairs for anything to wear. I don't feel like I have anything that my mother would find pleasant. I decide to wear a pair of shorts and a t-shirt my mother gave me for my birthday because I don't have anything good that I feel comfortable wearing.beckoned, "Come on in!" We are greeted by Evelyn at her front door. She's really upbeat. It is hurtful.My mother gives Evelyn a big embrace and says, "I really appreciate you having us here.
Cole scoffs, "I can do relationships.Zoey shakes her head and says, "No you can't."I can. Want put me to the test?"Sure. How?""Seduce me."She squints and says, "No."How come not?I don't believe in you."Then begin to believe in me.""No."All through lunch, this conversation has been going on. On our Friday night out as a group, Cole began returning to our table and resuming their conversation with Zoey.When eating, Zeke, Isaac, and I are silent, as are we. Ezekiel is on the verge of losing his patience, but we're simply letting this go on.How can I establish my credibility with you?"Cole, every night you sleep with a different person. Whatever you might believe, you couldn't maintain a relationship without cheating, and our friendship would collapse as a result."I can alter—"I wouldn't date you even if you climbed up on top of this table and declared your love for me, Zoey snaps, "No, you can't."What do you know? That's a wise decision. Cole rises from his chair and clam
How about that? A purple garment from my closet is raised by Zoey."No, I wore that to my cousin's birthday celebration who is eight years old."I got into Zoey's car yesterday after seeing Mason and told her I was going to the party. If Zoe isn't too preoccupied with Cole, I want to forget about him and have fun with her.How about that? She displays a silver one after that. While my mother gave it to me for my birthday one year, I have never worn it. It is held up by a few slender straps and has silver glitter all over it."I'm not sure,"We've been doing this for thirty minutes, she sighs. You have to select one. Silver or the black necklace you wore to Mason's birthday, in my opinion.Mason makes me frown. I want to forget about him. I want a peaceful, Mason-free night without any trouble.Zoey notices my discomfort and says, "Sorry.So I turn my focus back to the dresses and say, "It's fine." "I believe I will choose the silver.""Finally! Excellent decision. You're going to look
I would probably be the happiest person alive right now if she hadn't been using me to make Mason envious.Possibly, I still am.It's not at all like Hollie's kiss. I have a sensation. I am quite sensitive. I expected her lips to be soft on mine, and they are. I completely lose track of the flavor of the booze as my tongue gets entangled in hers and I concentrate on her. relating to the strong feeling she is giving me. Never before when kissing have I felt this strongly. Ever.I feel cold when we separate because the fire she sparked inside of me has been extinguished. All we do is share a brief moment of eye contact. I wonder if she experienced something similar to how I felt.She looks away and adds, "He's gone.I say in the most pitiful voice I've ever used, "You used me."Her hand rests on my lower arm as her eyes once more contact mine. "I apologize." I ought to tell her to fuck off and leave. I've previously allowed people to use me to annoy their ex-partners, and I did so becau