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“You should forgive yourself first…to begin with.”

Trisha said with a loving caress not just on his face but his heart.  Marsden didn’t meant to share with her the anguish of a lost child and of a regretful man.  He doesn’t wan’t her to be sad. 

But he felt light and relaxed with her as if she can heal him from the pain and hatred that keep on pulling him back.  Without planning it, he was talking and telling her everything.  From what happened before her mother died and what he’d became after.

How he had not talked to his grandparents for almost a year.  How he always had bruises on his face when he went home from school.  How he hated music instruments.  His grandparents knew how much he loved it.  In High School, when his grandparents were called upon by the principal after the big fight that happened inside the school gym against Max and his friends, they’ve decided to have an appointment with a psychologist fo