It started with a laugh.
Not recent. Not even real. Just something caught between a dream and a memory. But it echoed in Elias’s ears like it had just happened. He jerked upright in bed, breath shaky, shirt damp with sweat. The room was still, too still. No one else there. No voices. Just that cold, quiet emptiness of a penthouse that didn’t feel anything like home. His pulse wasn’t racing, but something felt… off. Like his body remembered something his mind couldn’t. He didn’t even know when he’d fallen asleep. Couldn’t say what day it was. But that laugh low, warm, easy it lingered. It had been a man’s voice. Somehow, he just knew. Lucas. He didn’t know how or why, but the name sat in his chest like something that used to belong there. Down the hall, Lucas lay awake, staring at the ceiling like it had answers. Neither of them had really slept. Six months. That was the deal. Public affection. Smiles that didn’t mean anything. No shared bed. No messy feelings. All of it laid out like a business contract. But over dinner, Elias had looked at him differently. Like he was trying to reach for something blurry in the dark. Like part of him wanted to remember or maybe didn’t know if he could handle what he’d find. And it killed Lucas that he noticed. It killed him even more that he still cared. His phone buzzed beside him. Jesse: How’s married life with your sexy zombie? Lucas huffed. Shook his head and typed back. The next morning was gray. Sky heavy. Air thick with silence. Lucas stepped into the living room and found Elias already dressed, holding two mugs. “I figured you still take it black,” Elias said, offering one. Lucas blinked, a little thrown. “Yeah. I do.” Elias smiled small, careful. “One thing I didn’t screw up, I guess.” They sat across from each other, not touching, both gripping their mugs like they needed something to hold onto. “I had a dream,” Elias said after a pause. “Think it was about you.” Lucas didn’t say anything, just raised an eyebrow. “You laughed,” Elias went on. “Called me El. And I felt... safe.” Lucas’s hands tensed around the cup. “You used to call me that,” Elias said, like he was testing the words. Lucas nodded slowly. “You hated when anyone else did. But when I said it… you said it made you feel like yourself.” Elias stared into his coffee. “I don’t feel like myself now. I feel like I stepped into someone else’s story halfway through, and no one left the script.” Lucas’s voice was low. “You mean the part where you disappeared?” “I didn’t choose that,” Elias said, not looking at him. “I know,” Lucas replied. “But you being gone... it still tore everything apart.” Elias nodded, jaw tight. “I want to remember.” Lucas sighed. “You don’t get to force it. If it comes back, it comes. If it doesn’t... we deal.” “And what if I remember something I wish I didn’t?” Lucas looked right at him. “Then at least we’ll both know if what we had was real or just something we made ourselves believe.” That afternoon, they headed to a charity luncheon at the Ward estate. Lucas had only been there once. It hadn’t changed. Too polished. Too perfect. It didn’t feel like anyone actually lived there just walked around pretending. The second they stepped out of the car, cameras went wild. Flashes. Questions. Chaos. Lucas slid his hand into Elias’s without thinking. Fingers curled together like they used to. Granger had said, “Smile like you’re still in love.” Lucas didn’t have to fake it. That was the worst part. Inside, Dorian waited same sharp grin, same polished cruelty. “Well, well,” he said, pulling Elias into a stiff hug. “The lost Ward boy and his devoted little husband.” Lucas forced a smile. “Pleasure’s all mine.” Dorian turned, smirking. “Memory still Swiss cheese, brother?” “Still a work in progress,” Elias said. “Lucas has been helping.” “I’m sure he has,” Dorian replied, eyes slicing toward Lucas like knives. Lucas leaned close, voice low. “Why do I get the feeling your brother wants me dead?” “Because,” Elias said softly, “he probably does.” The rest of the event blurred. Handshakes, fake laughs, wine neither of them touched. Eventually, Lucas slipped away. He found the study by accident. Dark, tucked behind a hall no one was using. Quiet. Books everywhere. A piano in the corner. Dust floating in the light like it belonged there. Lucas stepped inside and shut the door behind him. His hand skimmed the top of the piano smooth, cool. He remembered Elias once played for him here, tipsy and off-key at two in the morning. Lucas had laughed so hard he’d cried. “You always were sentimental.” The voice made him turn. Dorian stood in the doorway, glass of scotch in one hand, eyes unreadable. “I was just” “Reliving the good ol’ days?” Dorian stepped in. “Charming.” Lucas straightened. “This isn’t some fantasy. I didn’t come back here for a storybook ending.” “Oh, please,” Dorian scoffed. “You think I believe this whole miracle reunion act? He doesn’t even remember your birthday.” “I’m not doing this for you,” Lucas snapped. “I never stopped loving him. That’s not your business.” “Then you’re either brave or stupid,” Dorian said coolly. “Maybe both. But trust me, when his memory returns and it will you won’t like what comes with it.” Lucas stared him down. “Maybe. But I’d rather fight for what we had than walk away wondering.” Dorian’s gaze sharpened. “You don’t get to win. Not in this house. Not in this family.” Lucas didn’t blink. “We’ll see.” That night, back at the penthouse, Lucas sat at the counter, stirring his tea. The world felt too loud, even in the quiet. Elias walked in, moving slow, cautious. “Something happened today?” Lucas didn’t look up. “Lucas?” Finally, he spoke. “Your brother made it clear I’m not part of this world.” Elias sighed. “That’s how he is.” Lucas gave a tired smile. “I noticed.” There was a pause. “Can I ask something?” Elias said. Lucas gave a nod. “Why’d we get married in secret?” Lucas looked away. “Because your dad had just died. Your family would’ve cut you off. And you were scared. But I loved you. So I said yes anyway.” “Would I have chosen them over you?” Lucas hesitated. “You almost did.” Elias didn’t respond right away. “Do you regret it?” Lucas shook his head. “No. I regret a lot of things. But not that.” Elias stepped a little closer. “Then maybe this is a second chance.” Lucas looked at him, heart in pieces. “Or maybe this whole thing is built on lies. And we’re just waiting for it all to crack.” Elias didn’t say a word. But that night, he dreamed again. The same laugh. Same voice. Same warm feeling in his chest. Only this time, it ended with a kiss. And when he woke up, he could still feel it soft, familiar, just enough to make him believe it might’ve been real.Lucas didn’t sleep much that night. Not because of worry but because the quiet was too peaceful to waste. For the first time in years, his apartment didn’t feel like a museum of what used to be. It felt like now. He stood by the window in a loose T-shirt, holding a mug of lukewarm tea. Streetlights glowed below. The city breathed in slow, tired rhythm. Elias had kissed him. And it didn’t feel like a promise. It didn’t feel like regret either. It felt like a beginning. A careful one. In the morning, Elias was already awake, sitting cross-legged on the floor with his old journals spread around him. He looked up when Lucas entered, eyes softer than they’d been in days. “I think I used to be angry a lot,” Elias said. Lucas poured himself water. “You held things in. That’s what made you angry.” “I still feel it,” Elias admitted. “The part of me that doesn’t know how to deal with being seen.” “You’re being seen now.” “I know. And I think I want it.” Lucas leaned against the co
Elias stood in the bathroom, alone, staring at his reflection. The mirror didn’t lie. But it didn’t offer any answers either. He touched his jawline, then his cheek, like he was trying to feel something real. The face was his. But the man? Still a stranger. He turned the tap on, splashed cold water on his face, and leaned into the sink. The silence in the apartment was loud again Lucas still asleep, the early morning sun just starting to paint the walls gold. His eyes met his own again in the mirror. “Who the hell are you?” he whispered. No answer. Just a quiet room and a face filled with things he couldn’t name. Lucas woke to the sound of the kettle boiling. He dragged himself out of bed, pulling on a hoodie. When he walked into the kitchen, Elias was already pouring tea, one mug in front of him, another in front of the empty chair. “You didn’t sleep?” Lucas asked. Elias shook his head. “Barely.” “You okay?” “I don’t know,” Elias said. “I feel… haunted. Like I’m walking
The next morning was heavy with clouds. Not the kind that promised rain just the kind that made the world quieter than it should be. Lucas sat at the edge of his bed, still in yesterday’s shirt. His phone buzzed on the nightstand. Jesse had sent one word: “Okay.” No punctuation. No anger. Just... okay. Lucas stared at it for a long time before putting the phone down again. From the kitchen, he heard the soft clink of dishes. Elias had woken first this time. That hadn’t happened before. Lucas stood slowly, stretched, and walked barefoot to the sound. Elias was rinsing two bowls in the sink. The window beside him let in soft gray light. His back looked tired, like something in him was still adjusting to the weight of this version of life. “You cooked?” Lucas asked gently. Elias turned with a small smile. “Oatmeal. Don’t get excited. I followed a packet.” Lucas chuckled. “Still counts.” Elias poured it into two bowls, handed one over. Lucas noticed the spoon trembled slightly
Lucas woke before the sun, eyes open to a soft gray ceiling. He didn’t know why maybe a dream, maybe just Elias’s presence in the next room pulling at something old in his chest. He turned his head toward the hallway. Elias hadn’t made a sound all night. No footsteps. No doors. Still, Lucas felt him there. The way you feel someone you once loved even in silence. He sat up, rubbed his face, and went to the kitchen. The floor was cold under his bare feet. He started the kettle without thinking. One mug. No sugar. He paused then pulled out a second cup. Old habits die hard. A soft sound broke the quiet. Elias appeared in the doorway, hair messy, eyes heavy with sleep. He wore a plain T-shirt and the same sweatpants Lucas had folded for him the night before. “You’re up early,” he said, voice rough. “So are you.” “I heard you moving around. Thought maybe you needed company.” Lucas poured hot water into both mugs. “Or maybe you didn’t want to be alone.” Elias shrugged, sitting
Lucas opened the window just a little. The morning air carried that soft, gray scent. wet leaves, dust, the world just waking up. Elias stood behind him, arms folded like he was holding himself together. “You always liked quiet mornings,” Lucas said without turning. “I think I still do,” Elias replied. Lucas leaned on the windowsill. “You used to write on days like this. Bad poems. Good coffee.” “I wrote?” “You did. You never let me read them. Said they were just for you.” Elias smiled a little. “Then they must’ve been sad.” Lucas laughed under his breath. “They were. All broken lines and no punctuation. Like you were trying to make pain pretty.” Elias walked to the couch and sat down slowly, as if testing his own weight. “Maybe I was.” Lucas closed the window and turned to face him. The apartment felt too quiet now. Even the fridge hum seemed loud. “What do I do now?” Elias asked suddenly. “I’m here. With no memory. No plan. A brother who wants to control me and a lawyer w
Lucas poured the tea like it was a ritual he’d practiced for a lifetime, even though the chipped green mug hadn’t been touched in years. His hands moved with muscle memory teabag steeping, spoon clinking against porcelain, steam rising in small swirls that curled toward the ceiling. Across from him, Elias sat at the small round kitchen table, watching. That table had been with Lucas through everything arguments that ended in slammed doors, laughter loud enough to draw complaints from neighbors, midnight takeout spread across its surface, promises whispered like secrets, and silences that had spoken louder than any words. Today, it carried something heavier than all of that: the weight of memory, or rather, the absence of it. “I think you always took the green one,” Lucas said, sliding the mug across. Elias’s fingers wrapped around it, tentative, like he was holding something fragile. His brow furrowed as if the mug might unlock a door in his head if he stared long enough. His lips