Chapter 3

CHAPTER 3.

~~MADISON POINT OF VIEW~~

My wolf recoiled at once hearing what our mate had just said to us.

My lips parted, but no sound came out; only a loud snarl could be heard from my wolf, who was fighting to tear through my skin.

De-shawn dropped my phone and turned to me. “Look, baby…” he started in a soft voice. “We can't keep this now. Not now… maybe some other time, Maddy.”

My eyes swept over him for a few seconds as I tried to make sense of whether it was truly my husband speaking. I wanted to make sure it was still De-shawn Sinclair.

Did he just say he doesn't want the baby?

I gulped, the sting of tears gathering in my eyes as my gaze shifted to his face. “what do you mean by that?”

He ran his hand through his tousled hair, and a deep sigh escaped his lips. “Maddy, please don't take it too seriously. It's not that deep, I just need you to take it out. We can't be having a baby right now.”

Gasps escaped my lips, and my hands reflexively went to my stomach, cradling it gently.

I won't be aborting my pup, even if he has a gun to my head. No, I won't. I have always wanted one so badly, and now I finally have it, but he says I should take it out?

I shook my head and took a few steps back from him. He just said he doesn't want our pup,that has to be the most surprising thing I've heard in a long time. Just a year ago on our wedding night he had dismissed the idea of family planning. He said we don't need that, it's too human like. He said he wants a lot of kids so if we have sex and it results in a pup then we parent it.

He used to want kids. I wonder what changed in just a year that would shift his entire perspective.

My eyes swept over him again, and I prayed silently that he would change his mind. This baby is just a few weeks along, and in a few more months, it will be here. We bear our pups faster than humans; we don’t stay pregnant for more than six months according to what Mom told me.

Since I moved to Greece, I stopped working and became a stay-at-home wife.

It has been very boring; now a pup would keep me busy.

Mom always says that kids keep a woman on her toes. I want to be on my toes and stop being a boring housewife, but I’ll keep this baby even if Shawn doesn’t want to.

Still, I hope he changes his mind. I want a happy family for my child. I don’t want a broken home like mine, where Mom and Dad are always at loggerheads and draw their weapons at each other every night.

“Maddy please ... .A baby is a lot right now.” he stated.” C'mon babe, it's just a year, what's the rush in trying to have a kid now.”

“We can try for a baby later on and I don't have the resources for a pup in a foreign country right now”

“Look around you Maddy” his voice was soft and he stepped closer.” This isn't the place to raise a pup.”

“A pup needs a pack. It needs a community of its kind to grow. Please let's not bring in our kid to live in a boring human world”

My gaze narrowed to him, my expression hardening.

He wanted us to come to Greece to start up a new life and now he also doesn't want to have a pup here?

Silence settled between the tension only increasing.

Suddenly he scoffed, running his hand over his face.” Look baby….” he leaned in gently “ we can't have that baby now. I don't have the resources for raising a family now.”

“My personal projects are falling apart right now and the revenue there is strictly targeted towards my new inventories.”

“There's just too much happening around me right now for me to stupidly want to have a pup!” he concluded and I froze.

I blinked a few times, my eyes growing wide at how condescending and irritating his voice was as he spoke about our baby.

He seems to strongly hate the idea of it and I still ask,what changed in a year?

Another stretch of silence stretched with both of us saying nothing again until I finally broke it.

I'm sorry Shawn.” My voice shook as I spoke.” I'm keeping the baby I can't abort it”

My hands caressed my stomach lightly even if the bump is not visible yet.

“Oh shit!” He cursed under his breath clenching his fists tightly “ you need to listen to me maddy.i want a baby just as you want one also but at what cost?”

“Bringing in a pup and letting me suffer the same fate that I suffered?” His voice cracked.” No pack no community no nothing and he's just left to discover himself alone?”

“We are here for him or her when born. We are enough, “ I muttered.

“Fuck! Maddy, don't be dumb!” He scowled at me.” I want my child to have a fucking pack and not just a family!”

“Listen to me,” he said, cupping my face in his hands and forcing my gaze to meet his. “We need to abort it… you need to abort it. We can have more in the future….As many as we want”

“No.” I snarled together with my wolf,stepping away from him, my hand on my belly. “I can't, Shawn. I can't take this out.”

“I won't be taking it out,” I sobbed. “I will keep it. I can fund it”

Despite not looking at me I could feel his intense gaze on my body.

Tears blurred my vision. “I just want to keep my baby… that's all, Shawn. Please…”

The room went deathly quiet, and he didn’t say a word.

I stared at him, my breath hitching as I wondered if he was rethinking his decision.

After a while, he exhaled sharply through his nose, shaking his head. “You know what, Maddy?” He muttered, grabbing my attention. “Do whatever you want.”

My heart sank deep into my stomach.“Shawn…” I tried to grab his arm, but he dodged me and bolted outside with his suitcase.

Before I could race after him, he was already in his car, revving the engine to life, and I watched him drive away.

The sound of his engine faded into the night, and there was no sign of De-shawn again.

Slowly, I walked back inside, but my knees buckled before I even realized I was falling. I hit the floor hard, the cold tiles biting into my palms as a primal sob tore out from my chest.

My wolf howled inside me, a sharp, grieving sound that scraped my insides. I was sure she was as shocked as I was that our mate didn’t want our pup.

My hands curled into the fabric of my dress as my body folded in on itself. I couldn’t breathe. Each breath came out jagged while hot tears streamed down my face, dropping onto the floor and blurring everything until my vision went dark.

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The following day I woke up on the floor, expecting that Shawn might have come back last night but he didn't. I had ransacked the whole house to ensure he wasn't crumpled somewhere or maybe the guest room but everywhere was empty. I made sure to send him some text messages asking if he was alright and where he had slept but I didn't get any reply.

I tried calling countless times but no reply. Each call came back unanswered. Though I was still hopeful,I didn't stop calling. I called all through the day and even at night but he still didn't reply.

Minutes grew into hours and hours to days until it was Christmas but he still didn't show up.

Christmas was sad; I sat alone in the house praying he would return so we could sort this out, but there were no signs of him.

However, today was our wedding anniversary, and there were no preparations or celebrations of any kind around this block. How could I celebrate when my mate was nowhere to be found? He wouldn’t even talk to me or pick up my calls.

That night, at 8:23 PM, I sat alone on the couch when a knock snapped me out of my thoughts.

After a moment’s hesitation, I moved to get the door, but once I opened it, I froze.

It was De-shawn. He stood in front of me with a big bouquet of flowers and some other gifts I didn’t recognize since they were packaged.

I blinked rapidly to be sure I wasn't hallucinating. Finally he was back,the longest sigh of relief escaped my lips and I jumped into his arms.

I hugged him for a few seconds before he went in. I closed the door after he entered, pumping my fists in the air.

Shawn dropped the bouquet of roses on the table, placing it upright. Gosh, it was so beautiful. I knew it was for me.

“Happy anniversary, babe,” he announced, and without waiting for permission, I rushed into his arms, pulling him into a tight hug. “I thought I’d lost you…” I sobbed into his shoulder. “I thought you were never going to come back.”

“Please don’t do that again.”

“O-kkay…” He held me, but something felt off. His arms were firm around me, yet his body felt stiff, like he was bracing himself instead of sinking into the hug.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered into my hair. His fingers digging into my back, almost too tightly. “I shouldn’t have left like that. I am really sorry.”

I clung to him, breathing in his sweet scent.

“I was losing my mind. I thought you were gone.”

He pulled back just enough to cup my face. His eyes were glossy, lashes wet, but his gaze didn’t quite settle on me. It slid past my eyes and lingered on my cheek like he was scared to look me in the eyes.

“I’m sorry,” he said quickly. Too quickly. “Everything was crashing down on me at once. I didn’t think straight.”

I nodded, desperate to believe him.

“I was wrong about the pup,” he continued, his thumb brushing under my eye where tears still clung to.

My heart skipped painfully. “S-shawn…?”

“We’ll keep it,” he said. “We’ll keep our baby.”

My wolf purred.Relief rushing through me so fast that my knees nearly gave out again.

My arms flew around his shoulders, and I gave him another tight hug.

He leaned in, pressing a kiss to my forehead. “ Today's our anniversary, let's toast to some wine”

He headed for the kitchen, and in minutes, he was back with two glasses. Handing one over to me I declined.” No Shawn…..I can't be taking alcohol, it'll affect the baby”

Oh come….” He chuckled, rolling his eyes.” You think so little of me. I know you it'll. Yours have zero alcohol so our baby is safe”

I grinned ear to ear, my face lighting up in delight.” Thank you "I took the glass from him and gulped slowly on it until it's finished.. Once I was done I laid my head on his chest.I had a lot of things to talk to him about regarding the baby— what name would we give our pup.

However moments later after I laid my head on his chest my vision slowly started to blur.The room dimmed slowly, very slowly, and though I tried to fight it and focus on his face, it kept slipping out of view until both my eyes closed.