“Mum”, Carissa suddenly called out to her mother, a few steps away from the door that led to the main entrance of the wedding location.
“Yes my dear”, Mrs. Williams replied as she stopped walking to peer into her daughter’s beautiful eyes.“Can we wait a little more? I guess I’m becoming so nervous that my stomach is beginning to ache”, Carissa said and chucked nervously, lowering her eyes to the floor to hide the tears that welled up in them.“Oh my dear!” Mrs. Williams chimed in and placed her hands on Carissa’s forehead; in a bid to check her temperature.“The guests are waiting already. Do you think you would be better in the next ten minutes?” Her mother asked while she nodded her head in affirmation.“The bride would be out in the next ten minutes”, Mrs. Williams informed the man who stood by the door to open it up for the bride.Retracing their steps back, they made their way to the room they had come out from.Once Carissa was back in the room, she let out a considerable sigh of relief and quickly walked to the window.She felt totally uneasy and nervous, that every bone in her felt frail.“Take in a deep breath, my dear”, Mrs. Williams said to Carissa, who obliged.“I’m sorry, mum. I’m just trying to get a hold of myself before heading out. I wouldn’t want to embarrass myself due to how nervous or anxious I feel”, Carissa explained while her mother chuckled and stared at her in admiration.That was far from the truth and Carissa knew it.Deep down her heart, she hoped that Stan would show up and tell her that he still loves her.She remembered the last time they had seen each other. It was on a rainy day in June.They had gone out to get some coffee. With an umbrella in their hands, they walked quietly on the street.It was a year already, but the memories of that day could never leave her heart.“You should go on and explore. I may not be the best for you”, Stan had told her as they stood side by side each other under the rain.She had thought that he was only being sarcastic. However, the reality dawned on her when she couldn’t get through him on calls and via text.“It’s a year already! What are you thinking?” She asked herself as goosebumps made its way to her skin.She usually felt a tingly and cold sensation whenever she thought of Stan, and this never stopped happening to her.“Ethan is a good guy. You would grow to love him”, Carissa said inwardly as she closed her eyes and took in another deep breath.She could hear the noise that came from the clock, and it only signified that the ten minutes would soon elapse.Mrs. Williams studied her daughter closely, wishing that she could have a glimpse of the series of thoughts that clouded her mind.She was a mother who loved her daughter and as such, it pierced her heart when she sees that something is wrong with her daughter; without an idea of what it is.“Carissa, you are not okay, you can’t hide that from me. Sit down, we still have about five minutes from the ten”, Mrs. Williams said to Carissa, who nodded her head calmly and walked over to the chair facing her mother.“How exactly do you feel?” Her mother inquired, peering piercingly into her eyes.“Nervous”, Carissa replied.“What else?”“Scared”, Carissa added.She was trying so hard to avoid spewing out the main word that encapsulated how she felt. She was exhausted and that was undoubtedly how she felt.“Is that all?” Her mother asked calmly, while she nodded in affirmation.“Then it’s normal, my dear”, she said as she walked towards the table and grabbed a bottled water.“Have some water, you would feel better”, she said and handed the water over to Carissa who gulped down a large quantity from it.“How do you feel?” Her mother asked as she held her hands and caressed them slightly.“I feel alive!” Carissa said and broke into a loud fabricated laughter.Her mother joined in soon and for the next seconds, they laughed so hard.“You will be fine. I know you will”, Mrs. Williams said as she smiled widely at Carissa.“I felt the exact way you feel now the day I was to get married. Your father was someone I barely knew and so, I was highly nervous on the day I was to tie the knot”, she started explaining to Carissa who was trying so hard to hide how bored she felt.This was probably the hundredth time she got to hear such a story from her mother and this time, she was truly exhausted.“Focus on building a sweet and admirable world with your husband and children. That’s the secret to happiness”, she assured Carissa, who nodded her head in affirmation.“Thank you mum”, Carissa said, smiling slightly as though she had listened to her mother’s utterances.Her mind was carried away all through the conversation because all she thought of was how she was about to tie the knot with someone she wasn’t in love with.“I guess that’s your reality, Carissa”, she said to herself as she braced up to face the reality that stood before her.“I guess the stomach ache and anxiety is gone already. I feel so alive and ready to take this huge step”, she said as she stood to her feet.Mrs. Williams slowly trudged towards her and pulled her into a warm hug.“You will be fine”, she said for the hundredth time, after which she held Carissa’s wrist and together, they walked towards the door that led to the entrance.“You look so beautiful”, everyone who caught a glimpse of Carissa gushed out in admiration while she smiled and mouthed a “thank you”.“What’s going on?” Stan asked Jay, who was pulling over aside the road.“We are probably out of gas”, Jay replied with a look of regret.“You’re joking”, Stan replied and broke into hysterical laughter.He returned his gaze to Jay, who stayed still and glared at him with a face that indicated that he was dead serious.“Where’s the nearest gas station?” Stan hurriedly asked as his heartbeat accelerated.“It’s quite far from here. I’m deeply sorry”, Jay apologized and got off the car.Stan stayed perplexed and dazed. He couldn’t ascertain the next thing to do because all his heart told him was how he was at the verge of losing Carissa forever.He jerked up and came off the car, rummaging his hand on his head and pacing around in utmost dilemma.Not only that, but he was unable to pinpoint why out of every other days, the gas chose to get exhausted on this day.“I would quickly send a message to one of your workers. Another car would be brought here”, Jay suggested, while Stan stared at
Stan smirked as he observed how emotional the guests had turned as a result of the sweet words Ethan had just uttered.He clenched his fists in fury and took a step closer, trying so hard to get the attention of Carissa, whose eyes were lowered to the floor.Carissa pondered over what Ethan had said to her. Her heart sank when she noted that she wasn’t moved by his utterance.“You would grow to love him”, she assured herself, even though the reality of that happening remained blurry.“Are you ready to say your vows?” The priest asked Carissa, causing her to jolt off her thoughts.She smiled calmly and nodded her head in affirmation.Taking a closer look at Ethan, she could see how much he anticipated the words that would come off her mouth.This was a beautiful moment. She could tell it was, with the look of admiration on the faces of the guests, along with the way everywhere remained dead silent.She shifted her gaze to the crowd once again, with a fabricated smile on her lips.“This
Stan got back to his apartment, where he threw his coat to the floor. He couldn’t ascertain the exact way he felt currently, but he was certain he felt a considerable chunk of relief.He gulped down hard as he walked to his wardrobe where a small box laid.He picked it up and stared at the ring intently, recalling how he had gotten her the ring with all his savings, about a year ago.“Is everything okay?” He had asked Carissa, who appeared to be gloomy and lost in thoughts.“I’m not certain that I’m okay!” Carissa had replied, causing him to take his hands off the box that laid in his pocket.“What’s wrong, my love?” He had asked a worried looking Carissa.“My mother, she cried all through yesterday”, Carissa had said to Stan, who gulped down hard and lowered his eyes to the floor.“Her debts are due soon, and she has no idea of how to pay them off”, Carissa had said to Stan, who was blank on what to utter.Back to the present, Stan held the ring and let out loud laughter which transi
Carissa finally decided to put an end to her drama. After what ensued during the wedding, she was rushed to the hospital.All those while, she left her eyes closed, totally aware of everything that was taking place around her.She heard Ethan’s worried voice and then that of her mother, who was sobbing quietly.At several points, she made to jerk up and tell her mother that everything was fake and made up.However, she was certain that would only trigger trouble, which she wasn’t ready for.Finally, she heard a doctor entering the room and running some tests on her.After about two hours, she finally opened her eyes, giving them the intuition that she had just gained consciousness.“Mum, what happened?” She asked pretentiously, peering into the worried eyes of her mother.“You passed out earlier”, Mrs. Williams explained as Carissa lowered her head to see that she was still clad in her wedding dress.“Oh my God! During the wedding?” Carissa asked aloud as she looked at her mother, who
Ethan knew that something was wrong with her. She appeared extremely disturbed and avoided his gaze at intervals. “Look at me”, Ethan said, as he cupped her cheeks into his hands, trying to ascertain what was going through her mind.“I’m fine”, Carissa said immediately, moving backwards until his hands dropped from her face.“I would take you home”, Ethan announced as he stood up and strolled to the door, gesturing for Carissa to come over.Carissa was about to jerk off the bed, but remembered that she should still show a glimpse of weakness.At this, she let out a groan as though she struggled to get off the bed.Mrs. Williams rushed towards her and led her to meet Ethan, who stood by the door.“I will handle her from here”, Ethan said to Mrs. Williams, smiling widely at her.He led Carissa out of the hospital room, with his hands wrapped around her waist and her head bent down to his shoulder.They got to the car and settled in, smiling at each other calmly and running out of words
It was almost an accident…Carissa heaved a massive sigh of relief, not only because they’ve just escaped an accident that would have claimed their lives, but because she didn’t get to reply to him with those words.“Are you okay?” Ethan asked Carissa the moment he recovered from the shock.Carissa nodded her head, not having any words to utter.Ethan heaved a considerable sigh of relief as he continued driving, darting his eyes to Carissa, who was clearly lost in thoughts.“We are here!” Ethan announced as he brought the car to a stop. He quickly got off and rushed to open the door for Carissa.“I can carry you if you don’t mind”, Ethan said in a voice that caused Carissa to blush in embarrassment.“No, thank you”, Carissa said as she smiled and placed her hands into his that was stretched out to her.Holding hands together, they made their way into the house.They got to the living room, where they sat down and glared at each other.Ethan had countless things to say, but currently,
“Oh my God!” Stan groaned as he landed with a thud.He remained still, hoping that the sound he had created didn’t distort the sleep of anyone in the house.After some minutes, he stood up and dusted his trousers, looking around and ensuring that he wasn’t being watched.A massive sigh of relief escaped his lips as he silently trudged towards the window.He glanced around at intervals, trying so hard to remain discreet in other to avoid getting discovered.It was 2:am, some hours after the failed wedding of Carissa and some hours after her return from the hospital.Stan had asked Jay to keep an eye on Carissa and from the information he received from him, there was no space for him to come in at that point.He needed no one to notify him that sneaking in at midnight might be the perfect way to meet with Carissa.At this, he had waited in his car for over three hours, watching the house from a distance and trying to ascertain when they would have retired to bed.At about 12:am, he obse
Carissa’s face was red and her eyes blurry as a result of the tears that had welled up in them.She kept writing, pouring out her heart and narrating her desires.For a while, her journal became her place of rest and peace. She had no one to talk to about her pains and wants because none of them would understand from her perspective.However, her journal was one thing that wouldn’t judge her or debunk her thoughts and opinions.As such, she derived great joy in writing whenever she felt so overwhelmed and deserted.Carissa couldn’t get enough sleep all through the night. She kept tossing on her bed, thinking of Stan and wondering what her life would be like.This caused her to become restless and when she was unable to take it anymore, she picked up her journal and decided to write.“Hey journal, all I want is peace and despite how much I crave it, I can’t seem to find it anywhere. Maybe, I would find peace if I set my eyes on Stan again”, she wrote down on the journal as more tears