The ringing wouldn’t stop. It buzzed against my nightstand like it was personally offended I hadn’t picked up fast enough.“Jesus Christ,” I muttered, snatching the phone up and squinting at the screen.The name flashing there made my stomach drop straight through the floor.Shit.It was him.The guy I owed money to.“Fuck,” I whispered to no one, wiping a clammy hand down my face. “Fuck, fuck, fuck!”I almost didn’t answer, like that would magically erase the debt, but the phone buzzed again and I knew if I ignored it, it’d just get worse. So I swiped to accept and pressed the phone to my ear with a shaky hand.“Hello?”“Where the fuck is my money?”My chest went tight. “I… listen, I know I’m behind, but…”“No buts, James,” the voice snapped. “You said you’d have it two weeks ago. Do you think I’m a fucking idiot? You think I’m running a goddamn charity out here?”“I don’t,” I said quickly. My mouth was dry, words scraping out like sandpaper. “I swear I don’t. I’m just—things have be
My sister left after apologizing. She stood there for a while like she was waiting for some invisible door to open up between us. Some miracle that would make me stand and hug her or say something cheesy like ‘I’m sorry too’. But it didn’t come. So she walked out with her paper bag of snacks, her vanilla perfume lingering in the air. The door clicked behind her, and I was alone again. Alone, but not surprised. She said sorry like it would scrub the years off my skin. Like it would unstitch all the bruises, all the nights I stayed up with Peter, all the times I sat outside the bathroom door while Dad screamed at Mom and she screamed back louder, just to feel like she wasn’t powerless. Of course I knew I should let it all go. Be the bigger person. Move forward. That’s what all those self-help books say, right? ‘Forgive to free yourself’. ‘Healing begins with letting go’. Bullshit. How do you let go of something that built your entire personality? I don’t know who I’d be
The silence between us stretched so long it started to feel like another punch. A quiet one. The kind that doesn’t bruise your skin but shatters everything inside. She exhaled slowly and slumped back into the chair like her legs gave up. “I thought you’d be angry,” she said. “I am.” “I thought you’d hate me.” “I do.” “But you still had my number saved.” I clenched my jaw. “Yeah, because I wanted to know which grave to piss on if you died.” She looked around the hospital room again—at the machines, the wires, the IV drip, the cheap tiled floors that had seen way too much blood. “What happened?” she asked quietly. “I don’t know.” It wasn’t her business. She’d forfeited that a long time ago. She didn’t get to walk back into my life and suddenly play big sister. She didn’t get to care. But then she did something that caught me off guard. She reached into the paper bag, pulled out a small, folded blanket, and tossed it on my lap. “You’re always cold when you’re stressed. Y
JAMES ~How do you know if someone grows up in an abusive household?I remember typing that exact question on my sister’s ancient, beat-up laptop when I was twelve. The screen had a crack through the bottom right corner, and half the keys were faded from years of rage-typing essays and yelling at friends online. I’d sat in her room—no, hid there—my knees pulled tight to my chest, blood slowly dripping from the corner of my lips onto her Hello Kitty bedsheet. My hands shook like hell from the impact of the hits, and my whole body trembled in that weird way when you're trying really hard not to cry but the pain keeps reminding you you’re not made of stone.Hits delivered straight from the hands of my father. The man with the strongest arms I’d ever known and the weakest sense of love.The question I typed stared back at me on Google like it had its own judgment to pass. ‘How do you know if someone grows up in an abusive household?’ I remember squinting through a swollen eye, trying to
The door swung open with a soft thud, letting in the faint hum of voices from the hallway outside. I barely had time to glance toward it before James’ sister walked in, a plastic bag of snacks hanging from her arm. For some reason, James’ smile vanished. It didn’t fade gradually; it was immediate, like someone had flipped a switch. The playful light in his eyes drained out, replaced with something harder… warier. I froze mid-step, sensing the sudden shift in the air. The hospital room, which just moments ago had been filled with easy banter and quiet warmth, now felt heavy. Like the air had thickened and I’d unknowingly stepped into something private. “Hey,” she said, her voice casual as she nudged the door closed behind her. “You really have a knack for giving someone a scare…” she trailed off, shaking her head as she dropped the bag onto the little counter beside James’ bed. James didn’t respond right away. He just stared at her, his jaw tightening, his fingers tightening subt
“Oh… yeah,” I said quickly, stepping aside awkwardly as if I’d been caught eavesdropping—which, okay, technically I had. “I’m his sister,” she informed me, nodding toward the bed where James was still chatting like he hadn’t just been hospitalized. “You a friend?” I blinked. “Uh… yeah. Sort of.” Sort of? God, what did that even mean? Her eyes narrowed, just a little. Not in a suspicious way—more like she was assessing me. Like she was used to reading people the same way James probably read plays on the ice. “You one of his teammates?” she asked. “No, I—” I rubbed the back of my neck. “I know… Captain. I’m here for him.” “Oh,” she said, her expression changing. “You’re that kind of friend.” I didn’t know how to respond to that. I felt my face go warm. “I brought coffee,” I mumbled, holding up the bag like it was proof of my intentions. “Figured… they’d need it.” She smiled. “That’s sweet.” “Yeah,” I breathed out, looking toward the door again. Captain hadn’t not