chapter 005

Noah's pov

Sitting in my office, I can't help but think about those Hazel eyes which have been haunting me in the past five years. 

Five years of separation and every blood moon, I have to fight against my beast from taking over. 

My beast, Ryker has been losing his sanity with each passing day. 

There are a few things I regret in life and my biggest regret is hurting her and kicking her in the curb. 

She was destined to be mine but because I thought she wasn't good for me, I treated her as shit and chose another as my mate. 

Serena was everything I needed in a woman. Smart, beautiful and powerful. She was a whole package but Ryker thought otherwise or should I say, she proved me otherwise. 

Two years into our marriage, I found out that she was cheating on me and that's not even the worst part, she was here on a plan with her mate, Alpha Drake of Redmoon pack. 

The plan was simple: poison me and take over my pack. 

Luckily, her plan was discovered and you have to ask about her tragic end. 

I run my pack with one slogan, snitches get stitches and end up in ditches and that's where she ended up, in a ditch. 

Lost in thought, I did not realise when my Beta,Alex, walked in. 

“ Thinking about her again?” He asked and I looked away, shaking my head

“ You know you don't have to lie to me. I know you all too well.” Alex declared. 

He was right, he was the only person who knew about my longing for that woman and how I was slowly losing my mind. 

I hated that he knew me that well. 

“ Why don't you look for her? She can't have vanished in thin air. I know she is somewhere.” Alex proposed for the humpteenth time. 

Recently, he has been insisting on the matter and it's starting to get under my skin. 

I admit that I long for her but looking for her is out of the question. 

“ Let's assume I find her, then what, Alex? What should I do? Go on my knees and beg for her forgiveness? You know even if I do that, she might not want to see my face. I hurt her deeply.” I replied in frustration. 

I can't go looking for her and get bitter words shoved on my face. Call me selfish but I can't handle rejection coming from my mate.

In my current situation, I am afraid my beast can't handle it. I am scared we might end up hurting her for the second time. 

Also, with the danger looming over the pack, I can't have her life endangered. 

“ Is your pride and ego too important than your life and the hundreds of lives in this pack? With everything happening and that man back for revenge, do you think you can handle him in your current situation?” Alex asked. I could feel the bitterness and disappointment in his voice, making me shut my eyes momentarily. 

“ You don't have to keep reminding me about my situation. It's my body, I know myself. Besides, I have made plans to settle the feud between Drake and I. If I can't defeat him, you will take charge of the pack.” I announced. 

This is a decision I made after much thought. 

Alpha Drake seeks revenge for the death of his mate, Serena Williams. The grudge is personal, it doesn't have to involve the pack. 

I will challenge him personally to settle the debts between us. 

“ But Alpha…”

“ Say no more, accompany me somewhere.” I cut Alex off before he could start persuading me. 

My decision was final and I wasn't about to change it.

Leaving the pack, I allowed Alex to drive us to our destination. 

Two hours later, the car parked outside the famous V-spot club. 

“ What are we doing here?” Alex asked and I grinned at him. 

“ To meet someone and have fun.” I answered mysteriously, stepping down the car. 

“What are you up to Noah? I don't have a good feeling about this.” Alex whined and I fought the urge to roll my eyes. 

“ Relax, nobody is going to die tonight. Or at least I don't plan to kill someone tonight.” I answered, shrugging my shoulders and making my way to the entrance. 

Stepping inside the club, the blaring music and neon lights dancing around the room made the mood lively. 

Following behind me was Alex who was murmuring to himself. 

My eyes scanned the room, searching for a certain someone. 

I didn't need to search for long before I spotted him. Being an alpha, he was bound to stand out. 

Grinning, I made my way to his table. 

On his lap sat a blonde who seemed to be doing her best to please him. 

“ You are late.” he spat immediately I settled down. 

Alex stood besides me, his stance telling me that he was ready for action if need be. 

“ I said we will meet at eight. I didn't state the exact minutes and as you can see, it's still eight.” I replied, popping some nuts into my mouth. 

“ Ain't you worried I'll poison you to death?” Drake sneered, making me chuckle. 

“ You wouldn't dare. Besides, I know you are looking forward to the proposal I have.” I declared. I knew the guy well enough to know that he wouldn't show his face here if he was not the least interested in my proposal. 

“Then get down with it and don't waste my time.” He snarled at me just in time for the bartender to arrive on our table. 

“ Excuse me gentlemen, can I get something for you to drink?”

I froze. 

That voice! 

It sounded so familiar yet unfamiliar. 

Slowly, I turned around and my eyes widened at the face that stood before me. 

She was still the same, only more mature, adding more to her beauty. 

And those eyes. 

They were the same that haunted me every night. 

“ Hazel.” The name left my mouth before I could control myself. 

With a clank, the tray she held kissed the floor. 

And then… 

She fled.