LOGINIsabelle
I stood in front of the mirror and all I could do was smile. This was new. My father instructing me to get dressed, with even a new dress he had bought? “If you don't like it,” I heard his loud voice from my room. “You don't have to wear it, okay.” I beamed, tugging nervously at the hem of the silk burgundy gown, smoothing invisible wrinkles while my fingers trembled slightly. “Isabelle,” I heard his voice again, echoing up the stairs in excitement. “Come down for a moment.” My face lit up. He only sounded like that when something big was about to happen or was coming. I took one last look at myself, brushed my hair over my shoulders, and stepped out of the room. When I reached the living room, my father stood near the couch, his hands clasped behind his back like he was hiding something. He looked ...nervous. Nervous but at the same time, happy. I tilted my head, my eyebrows knitting together, silently asking “What is it?” He laughed softly, rubbing the back of his neck. “I was going to wait until dinner,” he said, “but I don't think I can.” I swallowed. “I…” he exhaled, then straightened, clearing his throat. “I proposed today.’” I stood still and the world seemed to stop as I heard those words. Proposed? To whom? How? When did the relationship begin? I had so many questions running in my head. My hands lifted instinctively, my fingers moving in quick, frantic gestures as I asked him to explain. He smiled wider, mistaking my shock for excitement. Maybe, I was. “She said yes,” he continued. “I wanted it to be a surprise.” I stared down at my clothes and as if he understood the gesture, he quickly nodded. “Yes. That was the reason for the new dress.” He mumbled. I didn't know why I felt that way. Confused, sad, nervous. I didn't expect a new wife from my father, or maybe I once did. I once did because I hated how he wasn't social to anyone. He wouldn't go to work, just living on the savings. He would just sit at home, sleep, wake-up and buy takeout food. I noticed the difference five months ago. I noticed that he started going out more, but I didn't think it was going to be a woman's cause. Before I could process it, the doorbell rang and I quickly looked at the door. My father’s face lit up. “That must be them.” ‘Them?’ My heart was pounding so hard I could hear it in my ears. I shook my head, my hands moving faster now, panic settling in me. But he was already heading toward the door. “I’ll get it,” he said cheerfully. I moved on instinct, stepping in front of him. I didn’t know why, only that something felt horribly wrong. He paused, surprised. “Isabelle?” Another ring of the doorbell. I turned and walked toward it myself with my heavy legs. I inhaled and exhaled before opening the door and as I peeped outside to check who they were— my breath caught. Because the face staring back at me was the last one I ever wanted to see. Lucas Graham. He stood there in his usual careless slouch, tall, broad-shouldered, dark hair falling messily into his eyes. His mouth was twisted into a lazy smirk, one I had seen far too many times in school hallways with mockery. The boy who made my life hell, who mimicked my inability to speak and made sure everyone knew me.. And he was standing at my front door. Before I could react, my voice gave way out of anger. “What the fuck are you doing here?” I shouted. The words came out of my mouth, forced and loud. The world seemed to freeze. Lucas’s eyes widened, his smirk vanishing instantly. He stared at me like he was seeing a ghost. “Isabelle? What the—” he started, then stopped. “You… you just….” That was the moment I realized what I had done. I had spoken! My hands flew to my mouth, my breath coming in short, erratic gasps. I tried to speak again, to say anything, but there was nothing. No sound coming out of my mouth. Lucas stared at me, confusion etched into his face. “You're…you're mute,”. He said slowly. “Everyone knows that.” My chest burned. Before humiliation could swallow me whole, my father appeared behind me. “Isabelle, what’s going on?” he asked. Lucas turned, “Remind me why I am here again ?” He asked, a smirk returning at his lips. My father's expression held nothing but shock and a little warmth, trying to disregard his manner of approach. “Lucas, right?” Lucas nodded stiffly. “Come in,” my father said, stepping aside. “You must be tired from the drive.” Drive? I turned my head toward my father, my hands shaking as I demanded answers, but he didn’t notice, or chose not to. A woman stepped forward then, elegant and unfamiliar, her smile warm. “This must be Isabelle,” she said softly. “I’m Lily.” My vision blurred. What the hell is going on here? Lucas glanced between me and my father, his jaw tightening. “Mom, what is going on?” My father placed a hand on Lily’s back. “I was just about to explain,” he said gently. “We are getting married.” My eyes widened in shock. Married? To her? My hands flew up, gestures frantic as my face burned with disbelief and rage. I shook my head violently, stepping backward as if distance alone could undo what I’d just heard. Lucas let out a harsh laugh. “You’ve got to be kidding me.” My father frowned. “Lucas…” “No,” Lucas snapped. “No way. A marriage cannot hold. I will not allow that.” He barked, ignoring his mother's tap. You can’t seriously expect me to live with her.” He pointed at me, disgust dripping from his voice. “The freak who doesn’t talk.” Something inside me shattered and I tried to scream, but my voice betrayed me again, silence wrapping tightly around my throat. Tears gathered in my eyes, blurring everything. I shook my head, hands trembling as I tried to tell my father the truth. He didn't see it. He was too busy trying to keep the peace. “Lucas,” Lily warned softly. Lucas scoffed. “What? You expect me to pretend this is normal?” That was it. I couldn't breathe, couldn't think, couldn't stay. So, I turned and ran. I bolted past them, up the stairs, my vision clouded with tears. I grabbed my jacket from the banister and fled out the back door, cold air slamming into my face as I sprinted down the street. Not until my body gave out. I collapsed near the old oak tree at the end of the block, sobs ripping through me silently. My hands shook violently as I pressed them against my mouth, trying to contain the sounds I couldn’t make. Footsteps approached. “Isabelle!” my father called, breathless. “Isabelle, wait!” He reached me moments later, kneeling in front of me, concern etched deep into his face. “What’s going on?” he asked softly. “Why did you run?” I looked at him, tears streaming freely now. I grabbed my notepad, tears blurring the page as I wrote. “He’s my bully…the one from college.”ISABELLEFriday came with great anticipation, I mean I had been thinking about it too much.I got dressed without overthinking it. Dark dress, hair down, the small gold earrings that had been my mother's and lived in the corner of my jewelry box where I could see them without having to decide anything about them.I looked at myself in the mirror for exactly long enough to confirm I was ready and then picked up my bag.This was kind of Tyler and I’s first date and it was to a popular place, Corner of Birch and Maine.Lucas was in the hallway, he was just coming out of his room at the same moment I came out of mine, with his hair pushed back like he had gotten ready for something.We both stopped walking when our eyes met."You look…beautiful, I—" he started.I walked past him toward the stairs, he didn't finish the sentence.Tyler was at the corner of Birch and Maine a few minutes early, dressed properly in a dark jacket with his hands in his pockets. He saw me coming and smiled back
ISABELLETyler's text came at eight fifteen.*Seven fifteen Friday, at Corner of Birch and Maine, I found a good place for after if you're up for it.*I typed back yes and put my phone face down.Then I picked it up again and stared at the yes for a moment like it was a word I needed to verify I had actually sent.This time when I woke up, Lucas was already in front of my door. Which had become a pattern I had stopped pretending to be surprised by.I ignored him and went to the kitchen to grab a cereal. He waited at the counter with a different posture.I went to the refrigerator to grab some milk when he cleared his throat."Tyler texted me," he said.I stopped with my hand on the refrigerator door."Last night from your contact I assume since I don't have his number."I turned around slowly to face Lucas."He said she deserves someone who shows up." Lucas looked at his coffee. "He meant it as a dig, I told him to stay away from you."*What the hell, Lucas?*"I know how that sounds.
LUCASI couldn't stop hearing her voice. I lay on my back in the ceiling of my room at the lake house and stared at the ceiling and told myself I was not the kind of person this happened to.It wasn't working because I knew I wouldn't be able to hide it.The next morning I was downstairs before anyone else.I sat at the counter with coffee I wasn't drinking and listened to the house wake up around me and thought about the fact that in approximately twenty minutes Isabelle would come down those stairs and I would have to be a normal person about it.She came down at soon after, she saw me, paused for half a second, then went to the refrigerator."Morning, Isabelle, I'm not going to make it weird," I said.She turned around and held up her notepad.*You already made it weird by announcing you won't make it weird.*I looked at that for a second. "That's fair."She poured her juice and we stood in the kitchen in silence. My mom came in and the moment closed.The library at lunch was my id
ISABELLE The game night table was set like Lily had been planning it for days. Which she had, there was a candle in the center, actual cards with questions printed on them stacked beside it, and a look on her face that said this was happening whether anyone in the room wanted it to or not. My father sat at the head of the table, which made me very certain he had been briefed in advance and was prepared to be enthusiastic. Lucas sat across from me, chair pushed back slightly like he was maintaining the option to leave. I sat with my notepad in my lap and looked at the candle. "Alright then," Lily said, settling into her chair with a brightness that filled the room. "The rules are simple, I pull a card, I read the question, everyone answers. No phones, no deflecting, no one word answers." Lucas looked at the card stack. "Who made these?" "I did," Lily said pleasantly. "Of course you did." "Lucas, you better behave." "I'm just asking." She picked up the first card. "We'll go
ISABELLE I stared at the message for a long time. There was no follow up, only the message sitting on my screen at nine forty three like the person had typed it and put his phone down before the person would take it back. I typed back.*Give me one reason.* Three minutes of nothing. Then, *I'll tell you at the lake house.* I put my phone face down and went to sleep. Dinner that night had the tension of a room where two people were performing normalcy for the benefit of two others who hadn't noticed it had become a performance. My father asked Lily about her day and Lily told him in the detailed and enthusiastic way she reserved for his full attention. I didn't bother to pay attention to whatever they were saying. "Spring Formal is coming up," Lily said, at some point between the main and clearing the plates. She looked at me with bright eyes. "Are you going, Isabelle?" I reached for my notepad. *Yes, I will be going with a friend.* "That new kid?" my father asked. I nodded
ISABELLEI pushed the previous day’s conversation at the back of my head, I felt if I didn't give any time of day, it wouldn't be stuck in my brain."She's going to do something."Tyler said it the next morning before I had even put my bag down, I looked at him."Sienna, cornered me yesterday after you left because she waited by the parking lot."I pulled out my notepad immediately.*What does she want from me for goodness sake?*"She told me you were using me." He said it without any heat on it, just laid it flat. "That the whole thing, the studying, the formal, the sign language, that it was all to get Lucas's attention. That you've been running this since the video" he gestured between us.I stared at him, not knowing how to answer that."Don't worry, I said thanks for the concern, then I left." He picked up his coffee. *Is that it? Do you believe what she said?*"That's it, I didn't believe her. I don't need to perform not believing her." He looked at me directly. "I just though







