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Julia “Do you think there’s anything off about Steve?” I ask Mom as we walk down the clothing aisle. “Wrong? What do you mean?” She frowns. “I don’t know. He has a unique relationship with the boys, doesn’t he? They’re so afraid of him.” I point out. “I don’t know, Julia. I don’t think so. Maybe he’s a bit stern with the boys, but so what? Those boys are very stubborn. Why do you even care? Don’t tell me you like them now.” She accuses, and my eyes widen. “What?” I flush hard. “No, no, no, absolutely not. I don’t. I don’t like them. Fuck – no, why would you even ask a question like that!” “Julia!” She gasps, stunned. “You like your brothers! That is wonderful.” I don’t respond. I think I might like my brothers too much. I’ve been here for four days now, and for the past three days, they’ve not spoken to me or even looked at me. I was polite. I was nice, but they ignored me, so I stopped trying, only for me to start dreaming about them. Dreaming about them! The dirtiest, filthiest dreams. Oh God. Thankfully, Mom drops it, and we get everything I need for school. We are at the counter, when I remember something, so I run back to the shoes aisle, and thankfully find the pair I need. I turn around, only to bump into a woman. “Easy there, sweet.” She smiles, steadying before I fall. “Thank you.” I smile at her, then look at her hair. She has hair like mine, almost the same shade, which is weird, but I brush it off. I nod at her and turn to leave when she stops me. “I’m sorry, but are you new here?” She frowns, and I nod, “Yeah, my mom and I moved here less than a week ago. Why?” She shakes her head, “Nothing, you just look like someone I know.” Weird, but I offer my hand, “I’m Julia. What’s your name?” She grasps my hand, gasps in shock, and throws her head backwards. Her whole body starts convulsing and she starts to chant loudly. Wind howls and blows things off the hanger. She holds me tightly. Ye who is chosen has crossed the divide, To a land not hers, where the dead gods hide. The world has shifted, the seals undone, From ash and flame, let Hell be born. Seek the Father, the soil, the thread, What binds the living to what is dead? For evil stirs where the sun won’t rise, And shadow sharpens behind your eyes. The weight of ages bends your spine, This war is yours, but not by design. You will not stand, nor fall, alone, Blood will answer blood unknown. This battle grants what your heart demands, Yet takes far more than it ever plans. The Father lives; remember this truth, But fear the one who claims you as proof. Child of power, of ancient breath, Born from lineage, married to death. They will hunt you. The hour ignites. Stand, Julia. Fight. Fight. I gasp in terror and jerk backwards. She falls to the ground, and her eyes are bloodshot. I look around, but nothing is amiss. There’s no wind. No clothes all around, nothing out of the ordinary. I turn back to her, but she is gone, taking with her all the answers I need. My whole body is trembling. Maybe she was drunk or high, because nothing she said made any sense. I couldn’t have imagined all that, could I? With trembling legs, I walk back to the counter and find my mom waiting. “Oh, that’s quick,” She smiles, and I’m so confused. Quick? What the hell is going on? What has happened to me? Did I lose time, too? “Are you okay, honey?” She asks, and I nod, impatient to get home, and try to write down anything I can. “I’m good.” I lie. We get in my car, and I drive us home. I run up the stairs and lock my door, pretending to be tired. Then, I get a book, pen, and try to write down the woman’s prophecy. After that, I sit on the be, and try to understand it line by line. Maybe it means nothing, but maybe it does. Ye who is chosen has crossed the divide – What does this mean? Crossed the divide? To a land not hers, where the dead gods hide. – To a land not mine, well, this is a new city, but it means nothing, right? The dead gods don’t hide here. This doesn’t even seem like a religious place. The world has shifted, the seals undone – I have no idea. From ash and flame, let Hell be born – Hopefully, hell won’t be reborn. Exhausted and confused, I fall asleep, but I don’t find the comfort I need. Instead, I wake up in a field of roses. I look around, trying to understand, but I’m all alone. “Come to me.” I hear, turn around and see a figure moving closer, a man. My heart pounds as he closes the gap between us, moving closer and closer. I scream and fall. I should be awake, but I’m not. I’m in a different dream, or should I say nightmare. Silas and Sebastain are standing before me, and naked. My lower belly tightens in pleasure as I reach for them. Sebastian wraps his hand around my throat and smashes his mouth on mine. Silas fall to his knees before me. He places on leg on his shoulder and slowly run his tongue over my core, licking away the wetness. “Oh, fuck, Silas, Sebastian.” I don’t even know what to say as they mess with my head. My whole body writhes in pleasure as Silas slides in two fingers. I arch my back and wake up immediately. My forehead is beaded in sweet. My panties are slick. My heart is pounding and I am not alone. Silas and Sebastian are in my room. Sebastian is holding the book with the prophecy. “What the fuck is this!” He demands.CHAPTER 130JULIAThe new house smells like garlic and something burning.That's Sebastian's fault."It's not burning," he announces from the kitchen, to nobody who asked, in the specific tone of a man who knows it's burning and has committed to the position."It's burning," Silas says, from the living room, not looking up from his book."It's a little burning," I confirm, from the couch, also not looking up.The new house is on the east side of the city.We chose everything in this house.Every room, every piece of furniture, every decision made by people doing it freely, with no one managing the outcome. It still surprises me sometimes. The freedom of it.Steve has been dead for four months.He's gone. The things he built are being dismantled. The pack is restructuring around something that doesn't run on fear, which is taking time, which will keep taking time, which is work the twins are doing carefully and daily.It's not clean.It was never going to be clean, but it is, increment
CHAPTER 129SEBASTIANHe's gone.I stand over him, and I wait for something to arrive. Some feeling, some signal, some internal shift that marks the before and after of a thing this large. I've been living in the past my entire life. Twenty years of his house, his voice, his hand on every lever that mattered. Twenty years of the specific survival of being his son.The after should feel like something.It doesn't feel like anything yet.Just cold air. Just the street. Just the specific silence of an ending.Silas is beside me.Neither of us speaks.Julia makes a sound. I turn.She's still upright. Barely. Her shoulder was wrong, her face showing everything the night cost her, blood dried at her temple and her lip, her good arm wrapped around her ribs like she's holding herself in place.She's looking at me.I let her see me, all of it.She doesn't try to fix me.She just stays.Our mother is behind me.She's here.She's actually here.Her hand finds my arm.I look down at it. Her hand
CHAPTER 128SILASI smell her blood from the end of the street.She's on the ground.His knee on her back.Her cheek on the street and her hand flat against the concrete still pushing, still pushing, blood on her face and her shoulder wrong in the specific way I recognise from the first attack, and she is hurt, she is badly hurt, and the thing that moves through me in that moment is not rage.He dies tonight.Sebastian is already moving.He hits my father like a verdict.My father releases Julia.I go to my father's right.He's fast.I know how fast he is. I've known since I was fourteen, and I learned the specific futility of fighting him in his full strength, the ceiling of what I was and the gap between that ceiling and what he was. He used to demonstrate it deliberately. The specific cruelty of showing us our own limits while we were still growing into them.I'm not fourteen.I'm not at my ceiling."Silas." His voice. The warmth is completely absent now, stripped down to the real
CHAPTER 127JULIAThe moment arrives quietly.One second, Steve is turning toward the window, and his attention moves off me by three degrees, and something in my blood says:Now.I move.My elbow finds the side of his head before he's finished turning.The impact runs up my arm. He's solid, denser than he looks, the specific density of an alpha who has been what he is for twenty years, but the surprise of it, the fact that I moved first, that he was not positioned for me to move first, buys me the half second I need.I'm out of the car before he recovers.The street is empty.Of course it is.He chose this location. He chose this street. The deliberate emptiness of it is its own kind of message; we are somewhere he controls, somewhere he prepared, and for a half second I feel the shape of that close around me.Then he's out of the car.And I feel something else.He's fast.Faster than I expected, and I expected fast. He crosses the distance between us in a barely human movement, the
CHAPTER 126JULIAI don't look back.The car is black. He opens the door. I get in.The door closes. The distance opens.It's physical.That's the thing nobody could have told me, the thing I couldn't have understood before the bond, before whatever woke up in my blood and rewired the way I experience proximity and absence. The distance is physical. As the car pulls away from the house, I feel it the way you feel a temperature drop, immediate, total, the specific cold of moving away from the two people my body has learned to orient toward.I breathe through it.I catalogue it and set it aside.I will feel this later.Right now, I need every available resource directed outward.Steve sits beside me.I give him nothing.He smiles anyway, which means he expected nothing and is comfortable with it, which means he's done this before, which means I am not the first person he has sat beside in the back of this car and calculated.I think about his sons.I think about what twenty years of
CHAPTER 125SEBASTIANMy father knocks on the door of his own house like a visitor, like a man making a social call, like someone who has decided that the performance of civility is its own kind of power. Which is it? Which he knows it is. I stand in the hallway, and I hear the knock, and something in my chest goes cold and specific.Silas is beside me.Julia is behind us.Rowan and Bree are in position.I open the door.He looks the same.He's smiling.I want to put my hand through it.I hold.She's beside him and small.She looks at me, and her eyes are the same.Dark and direct and seeing everything.She's older. She's thinner. She's here. My mother is here.My heart bursts alive."Boys," my father says warmly.Like a reunion, a family occasion.I don't look at him.I can't look at him right now because if I look at him right now, the hold will break and everything we've planned, everything Julia laid out in the garden with her jaw set and her voice certain, will come apart before
CHAPTER 52SILASThe smoke burns my lungs and I welcome the burn.I am not my father’s son.“That’s the only reason I … I touched her. Men … boys like you … like you are … nothing but scum, and you do not deserve beauty like her.”I should have taken my time with him. I should have broken him into
CHAPTER 50SILASRowan looks at us, “Bree and Julia are there. Bree’s mom is with Franco, the drug lord. He’s going to hurt them.”Before he’s done speaking, we’re out of the house. I grab the motorcycle from the garage, start it, and race towards the edge of town. What the fuck was she thinking? W
CHAPTER 49JULIABree and I go shopping for dresses and shoes immediately after school.“So, when are you going to make it official?” I ask her as we walk into the store.I have Steve’s credit card, but I also have my mom’s. I prefer to use my mom’s.“I don’t know, Julia. I don’t think we’re making
CHAPTER 48JULIAI watch Alicia, amused.She has to be insane. There’s no way she thinks Werewolves are real, right? Werewolves are not real. This is not a supernatural movie.“Do you have something to say, Julia?” She glares at me, folding her arms, looking smug.“Nothing. I only worry for your he







