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JULIA My eyes widens and I raise my arms to protect myself from him, but nothing happens. Silas steps between us, holding his brother back from hurting me. He snarls at me, “You need to pick your battles better.” Sebastian is panting, with his chest rising and falling. His brown eyes are almost glowing amber. I frown, blink, but it’s gone. I must have imagined the pure fury in his eyes. My heart is pounding hard. I crossed a line. That much is obvious and I shouldn’t feel guilty about it, considering how much of an asshole they’ve been. “You better watch your back!” He sneers, then storms out. Silas glares at me, then follows his brother, leaving me alone. My whole body is trembling and my eyes stings with tears. This isn’t how it was supposed to go. It was supposed to be better but now, I’m in hell. I lock my door, and sink into the tub. My head is still, but I ignore it. My chest aches painfully. Silas and Sebastian seem to be the bad boys in their school. A school I’m starting. I groan as I think of the inevitable bullying. Eventually, I step out of the tub and change into shorts and a tank top. Almost immediately, my mom knocks. I open the door with a smile that feels drawn on. “Hey, baby, you look good.” She smiles at me. She has changed out of her travel outfit and is now wearing a beautiful dress. “You look beautiful, too.” I smile as I pack my long ginger hair in a bun. She nods, looks around the room, and frowns when she sees the library on the ground. “I thought they helped you with it.” She asks. “They did. I knocked it down while taking out a book. You know how clumsy I usually am.” I lie effortlessly. She nods, “Can you wear a dress instead? We’re having dinner at a restaurant close by. Your surprise is ready, by the way.” “Really?” I smile, excited, and she nods. She leaves, and I change into a bodycon dress. I let my hair flow behind me and apply lipgloss. I wear my favourite sandals, grab my purse, and skip downstairs. I love surprises. Steve seems wonderful, but I can’t help but wonder why his boys are so scared of him. Sebastain didn’t seem scared. He seemed hurt. “Oh, there she is.” Steve smiles as I walk down the stairs. I smile at him. “Hi, Steve. Heard I have a surprise?” “You do. Come on.” He urges, and I nod. We stepped outside with my mom. There are two cars in the driveway. I frown when I see Sebastian and Silas. They’re dressed differently, and I have to admit, handsomely. Their gaze connects with mine. I don’t look away, though. I don’t back down. Silas smirks and drags his gaze down my body. Sebastian does the same, lingering on my hips and full breast. Heat flushes down my spine, and I look away. “Here you go.” Steve smiles and hands me a key. I frown, “What’s going on?” “It’s a car, Julia. Your car key.” Mom whispers. I freeze, “No!” “Yes. Consider it a welcome home gift.” Steve nods. I scream in shock and delight, “Oh my God!” I run to the car and open it. My car. Steve bought me a car. Oh, my! I run to him and hug him tightly, “Thank you!” Then, I turn to my mom, “I have a car!” “Yes, you do.” She giggles, hugging me. “You can drive it later. We have a reservation we don’t want to miss.” Steve says and I nod. I glance at the twins and find their faces in a tight mask of indifference, but Sebastian can’t hide his anger. We get in Steve’s car, and he drives us to the restaurant. I unfortunately have to sit beside Silas, but I do. They don’t say anything, but I notice Sebastian’s clenched fist and Silas’s placating hold on his arm. I look away from them and glance out the window. Soon, we’re at the restaurant, and are ushered in. Steve orders for us, much to my displeasure, but I say nothing and smile. He bought me a car. The least I can do is take whatever he gives me. Dinner is very tense and uncomfortable. Mom notices and tries to help. “So, boys, what can you tell me about school? Steve tells me you’re a genius with maths, Silas, and you, Sebastian, play like a guru.” She smiles. Of course, Sebastian plays. He needs somewhere to channel his stupid rage. “It’s fun., Silas responds calmly. “Oh, that’s nice. What of you, Seb? Can I call you, Seb?” She beams. He doesn’t respond. He stuffs so much bread in his mouth and eats it like a caveman. “She’s talking to you, Sebastian!” Steve orders, and Mom cuts in, “Oh, no, no, he doesn’t have to talk with his mouth full. They don’t have to talk, they just have to listen.” She smiles and begins. “I understand that you’re used to having your Dad all to yourselves, but we’re not here to cause any trouble. Your Dad and I are in love, and that’s the funny thing about love. It creeps in, slips through our defences, and before we know it, we’re head over heels in love. Love is perfect and beautiful. I love your Dad. I love my daughter, and I want to love you too. I know you probably have no room in your hearts for us, but please, try.” She articulates with a warm smile. “This is the beginning of a wonderful time. We are going to be very, very happy. I am certain. Julia, your sister, will start school in a few days, your school, and it will make us very happy if you can help her settle in. You helped her with the bookshelf, now, help her with this, let’s be a family.” Silas flashes a grin, and Sebastain follows suit, “We’ll take care of her.”CHAPTER 130JULIAThe new house smells like garlic and something burning.That's Sebastian's fault."It's not burning," he announces from the kitchen, to nobody who asked, in the specific tone of a man who knows it's burning and has committed to the position."It's burning," Silas says, from the living room, not looking up from his book."It's a little burning," I confirm, from the couch, also not looking up.The new house is on the east side of the city.We chose everything in this house.Every room, every piece of furniture, every decision made by people doing it freely, with no one managing the outcome. It still surprises me sometimes. The freedom of it.Steve has been dead for four months.He's gone. The things he built are being dismantled. The pack is restructuring around something that doesn't run on fear, which is taking time, which will keep taking time, which is work the twins are doing carefully and daily.It's not clean.It was never going to be clean, but it is, increment
CHAPTER 129SEBASTIANHe's gone.I stand over him, and I wait for something to arrive. Some feeling, some signal, some internal shift that marks the before and after of a thing this large. I've been living in the past my entire life. Twenty years of his house, his voice, his hand on every lever that mattered. Twenty years of the specific survival of being his son.The after should feel like something.It doesn't feel like anything yet.Just cold air. Just the street. Just the specific silence of an ending.Silas is beside me.Neither of us speaks.Julia makes a sound. I turn.She's still upright. Barely. Her shoulder was wrong, her face showing everything the night cost her, blood dried at her temple and her lip, her good arm wrapped around her ribs like she's holding herself in place.She's looking at me.I let her see me, all of it.She doesn't try to fix me.She just stays.Our mother is behind me.She's here.She's actually here.Her hand finds my arm.I look down at it. Her hand
CHAPTER 128SILASI smell her blood from the end of the street.She's on the ground.His knee on her back.Her cheek on the street and her hand flat against the concrete still pushing, still pushing, blood on her face and her shoulder wrong in the specific way I recognise from the first attack, and she is hurt, she is badly hurt, and the thing that moves through me in that moment is not rage.He dies tonight.Sebastian is already moving.He hits my father like a verdict.My father releases Julia.I go to my father's right.He's fast.I know how fast he is. I've known since I was fourteen, and I learned the specific futility of fighting him in his full strength, the ceiling of what I was and the gap between that ceiling and what he was. He used to demonstrate it deliberately. The specific cruelty of showing us our own limits while we were still growing into them.I'm not fourteen.I'm not at my ceiling."Silas." His voice. The warmth is completely absent now, stripped down to the real
CHAPTER 127JULIAThe moment arrives quietly.One second, Steve is turning toward the window, and his attention moves off me by three degrees, and something in my blood says:Now.I move.My elbow finds the side of his head before he's finished turning.The impact runs up my arm. He's solid, denser than he looks, the specific density of an alpha who has been what he is for twenty years, but the surprise of it, the fact that I moved first, that he was not positioned for me to move first, buys me the half second I need.I'm out of the car before he recovers.The street is empty.Of course it is.He chose this location. He chose this street. The deliberate emptiness of it is its own kind of message; we are somewhere he controls, somewhere he prepared, and for a half second I feel the shape of that close around me.Then he's out of the car.And I feel something else.He's fast.Faster than I expected, and I expected fast. He crosses the distance between us in a barely human movement, the
CHAPTER 126JULIAI don't look back.The car is black. He opens the door. I get in.The door closes. The distance opens.It's physical.That's the thing nobody could have told me, the thing I couldn't have understood before the bond, before whatever woke up in my blood and rewired the way I experience proximity and absence. The distance is physical. As the car pulls away from the house, I feel it the way you feel a temperature drop, immediate, total, the specific cold of moving away from the two people my body has learned to orient toward.I breathe through it.I catalogue it and set it aside.I will feel this later.Right now, I need every available resource directed outward.Steve sits beside me.I give him nothing.He smiles anyway, which means he expected nothing and is comfortable with it, which means he's done this before, which means I am not the first person he has sat beside in the back of this car and calculated.I think about his sons.I think about what twenty years of
CHAPTER 125SEBASTIANMy father knocks on the door of his own house like a visitor, like a man making a social call, like someone who has decided that the performance of civility is its own kind of power. Which is it? Which he knows it is. I stand in the hallway, and I hear the knock, and something in my chest goes cold and specific.Silas is beside me.Julia is behind us.Rowan and Bree are in position.I open the door.He looks the same.He's smiling.I want to put my hand through it.I hold.She's beside him and small.She looks at me, and her eyes are the same.Dark and direct and seeing everything.She's older. She's thinner. She's here. My mother is here.My heart bursts alive."Boys," my father says warmly.Like a reunion, a family occasion.I don't look at him.I can't look at him right now because if I look at him right now, the hold will break and everything we've planned, everything Julia laid out in the garden with her jaw set and her voice certain, will come apart before
CHAPTER SIXTEENSILAS “I didn’t do anything. I was coming to you, and he fucking attacked me.” Sebastian rages defensively.I nod, “I know. Get your stuff, and let’s go.” I can feel waves and waves of his pain and anger flooding into him. I try to anchor him with my calmness, but since my calmnes
CHAPTER FIFTEENSEBASTIANI watch her leave with a deranged sense of satisfaction. She ran like she had a tail between her legs.“That was close.” Silas glares at me.I scoff, “It doesn’t matter. Her stupid human brain cannot comprehend what we are, so calm down, brother.” “That’s not what I’m tal
CHAPTER FOURTEENJULIA “I’m so sorry, Steve.” Mom reaches for him.“I’m sorry,” I whisper and get up immediately.“You should leave the twins,” Steve calls after me, but I don’t stop.They hadn’t gone upstairs. They had walked through the door, so I headed outside, looking for them. I don’t find t
CHAPTER THIRTEENJULIAI spend the rest of the day in my bedroom. My whole body still aches, so I am unable to work out even though I want to more than anything. I have decided not to fight with Alicia. Whatever we have between us is over. I’ll be polite to her or just ignore her plainly. My mom k







