LOGINLILY-ROSE’S POV
DECEMBER 22nd, 2025 I sat in silence, and the house felt wrong, like it was watching me unravel. My TV was in splinters against the wall, and the radio had been beaten down to crumbs. The Italian chandelier that used to be the center of the room now littered the floor in tiny crystal pieces, sparkling like it was mocking me for ever believing in anything beautiful. Jimmy finally pushed me over the edge, and the terrifying part was that I felt myself go. He did exactly what he promised he would never do when he asked me to marry him, and I remembered the look in his eyes when he swore he would never hurt me like that. What made it worse, what made my hands shake, was knowing he hadn’t just done it once. He had been doing it for months, coming home to me like nothing was wrong, kissing my forehead, sleeping in my bed, and lying straight to my face. It had been two weeks since Jimmy moved into the guest room, and those two weeks felt like a punishment I never agreed to. I spent every one of those days calling divorce lawyers, repeating my story over and over until my voice went hoarse, but the second they heard the name James Fowler, the tone changed. Then came the apologies. The excuses. The declined calls. No one wanted to take my case. Jimmy kept coming home with lipstick stains on his shirts, like he wanted me to see them, and when I finally snapped and confronted him, he smirked and called me bipolar and a selfish diva. He told me I had no evidence, and he said it so calmly it made me feel like I was losing my mind. But I wasn’t crazy. So I took it upon myself to hire a private investigator, and the verdict was in. I lay on the battered leather couch with a baseball bat heavy in my hand, and I realized I had used it to redecorate the house because breaking things hurt less than breaking down. Every damn thing reminded me of him, and it made my chest burn. The couch where we used to N*****x and chill. The glass table where we had sex last Valentine’s Day. The kitchen counter where he took me after I told him I was pregnant with our first child, and he whispered that he loved me like it was a vow. Tick-tock. Tick-tock. The clock on the wall mocked me, and each second felt like a nail being driven deeper into my skull. It had been nine hours and twenty-two minutes since I saw the photos. Clear, cruel proof of the man I loved wrapped around another woman like I meant nothing. I couldn’t unsee it. I couldn’t unfeel it. And I knew something inside me had cracked. He was probably in New York City by now, drinking expensive whiskey and pretending he wasn’t destroying me. He left me alone in this massive house in Alabama like I was already erased. His mother had the kids for Christmas break, but they were supposed to be home tomorrow, and the thought made my stomach twist because I didn’t know how I was supposed to smile for them when my soul felt hollowed out. Jimmy left a neat little note saying he was working out of town, but I knew the truth. He was with Trudy Whitfield. His twenty-one-year-old secretary. Tick-tock. “Shut up!” I screamed, clutching my chest as my heart slammed so hard it felt violent. I couldn’t stand the pain anymore, and it felt like it was crawling under my skin, begging to be let out. I jumped up, and using the baseball bat, I smashed the clock to smithereens, watching it explode against the wall. Good. Time deserved to die too. Lightning split the sky, and thunder followed like the universe was agreeing with me. I pulled back the blinds and watched the rain slam against the window. A single tear slid down my cheek and landed in my palm, and I stared at it like it offended me. “Why did I marry him?” I sobbed, but even as the words left my mouth, something darker stirred beneath the grief. I stood there for minutes, staring at the rain, and I hated that I used to love it. I hated that it reminded me of the day we met at the bus stand on Duke Street, when I collided into his muscular frame and his smile hooked into me instantly. He offered me his umbrella and walked me to my stop like he was a gentleman out of a romance novel, and I was stupid enough to fall for it. I was shocked to learn later that he was the new attorney at my firm, and I took it as fate, even though I made him work for it. Now I knew better. There was no fate. There were only choices. And Jimmy made his. The rain blurred the world outside until nothing made sense anymore. I slowly laid down on the floor right where I was, surrounded by broken glass and shattered memories, letting sleep drag me under.Ryder stood outside Bethany's bedroom for several moments after closing the door behind him.He could still hear her moving around inside, opening drawers and speaking to someone on the phone. She was getting ready for their wedding, and he was supposed to be doing the same.Instead, he stood with one hand pressed against the hallway wall, wondering how a man could make a decision he believed was right and feel so utterly destroyed by it.He closed his eyes, but all he could think about was Ruth-Ann.He had promised her the wedding wouldn't happen. He had held her in his arms and told her he would find a way to make things right. Yet he had just instructed Rachel to reinstate every arrangement he'd fought so desperately to cancel.Ruth-Ann deserved more than an explanation. She deserved to hear the truth from his own lips, however much it hurt them both.He pushed himself away from the wall and made his way toward her bedroom.As he approached her door, he heard movement inside. He ra
"Ryder?" Bethany touched his arm.He finally opened his eyes."Please don't leave me," she whispered. "Not now. Not when we're going to have a baby."He looked at her.Her makeup had begun to smudge beneath her eyes, and her carefully arranged curls were coming loose around her face. She looked nothing like the excited bride he'd found when he arrived.For a moment, all he could see was a woman who believed she was about to lose the man she loved while carrying his child.He could survive the congregation's disappointment. He could survive his sisters' anger. Perhaps, with time, he could even learn to survive without Ruth-Ann, although the thought of never holding her again made his chest ache.But what if his child grew up believing that its father had walked away before it was even born?What if, years from now, that child asked him why he hadn't married their mother when he'd already promised to do so?What would he say?That he had fallen in love with someone else? Someone else wh
On the other side of the door, Ruth-Ann felt the blood drain from her face.Pregnant?Her knees buckled beneath her. She reached for the wall, but her fingers slipped against the smooth surface, and she sank to the floor, her phone falling from her hand onto the hallway carpet.Inside the bedroom, Ryder stared at Bethany."What?""You heard me.""Bethany, what are you talking about?""I'm pregnant, Ryder."He shook his head in disbelief. "No."Her eyes narrowed. "What do you mean, no?""I mean..." He dragged a trembling hand over his mouth, struggling to collect his thoughts. "Are you sure?""Of course I'm sure!""But we've always used protection."Bethany's expression tightened. "And?""And you told me you were on the pill.""I am! The condom must have broken or something!"Ryder stared at her, unable to comprehend what he was hearing.He had never been careless about contraception. Not with Bethany, not with anyone. He had never knowingly had unprotected sex with a woman, and he'd b
Ryder Blackthorn had never been a superstitious man.He believed in God, in the sanctity of marriage, and in the importance of keeping one's promises. But he had never believed that seeing a bride before her wedding could bring bad luck.And even if he had, he couldn't imagine anything more unfortunate than marrying a woman while being hopelessly in love with her daughter."No, you can't go in there!"Felicity hurried after him as he made his way down the hallway of the house, with one of Bethany's bridesmaids following close behind."Sir, please!" the bridesmaid exclaimed, stepping in front of the bedroom door. "You know it's bad luck for the groom to see the bride before the ceremony.""Then I suppose it's a good thing I'm not particularly concerned about luck."The woman blinked. "But it's tradition!""Move aside, please.""You really shouldn't—""I said move aside."His voice wasn't particularly loud, but there was enough authority behind it to make the woman take an uncertain ste
Another message followed, this time accompanied by a second photograph.Ruth-Ann's stomach twisted.Unlike the first, this picture showed Ryder's face clearly as he held her in his arms. There was no mistaking his identity, no possibility of convincing anyone that the man in the photograph was someone else.Then another message appeared.~Your mother can't marry this man. You have to stop this wedding. If you don't, I'll send these photos to everyone, including the dean of your university.~Ruth-Ann shot out of the chair."Ruth-Ann!" the hairstylist cried, nearly dropping her curling iron. "What's wrong?""I... I need some air."She hurried from the room before anyone could stop her, her heart pounding so violently that she could barely breathe.It wasn't merely the thought of the photographs being circulated that terrified her. Ruth-Ann attended St. Catherine's Christian University, a prestigious private institution where students were expected to uphold a strict biblical code of con
Across town, Ryder was having an equally miserable morning."Absolutely fucking not."He stood in the middle of his father's old study at Blackthorn Manor, his phone pressed against his ear.On the other end, Rachel was practically shrieking."Ryder, have you lost your mind? The wedding is in a few hours! And don't use such language with me. You're supposed to be a man of God.""I know when the damn wedding is, Rachel.""Then start behaving like the priest you are! Daddy didn't spend his entire life building this family's reputation for you to throw it away."Ryder's jaw tightened. "Don't bring Dad into this.""Someone has to remind you of your responsibilities. You're the sixth generation of Blackthorn priests, Ryder. People look up to you. You can't just do whatever you please.""I'm well aware of my responsibilities, Rachel. And I'm not abandoning the priesthood, if that's what you're worried about.""Then what exactly are you doing?""Trying to prevent myself from making another m







