With a suppressed huff, I stare at the last of many messages I had sent since last night. A total of ten messages, all of them desperate, begging; just he way he liked it. And all of them went unanswered, he read all of them, pointedly ignoring them.
I barely slept last night, and this morning, I almost slept through my alarm. To say I am having a rough morning is a gross understatement. I got to the venue with just a minute to spare, Cait gave me a suspicious glance, with no time to reprimand me, she nods in my direction.
When they call my name, I steal a glance at the phone again, expecting and hoping for a response from him, but all I see is my last message,
“At least tell me where you are.”
He read it, to his credit, he read it few minutes after I sent it.
“Mr. Sanchez?” The lady calling the names called out impatiently, no time for one more text, I hurry inside the room. For the first time in a while, I was actually nervous about the interview, the fear of failing and then losing my chance to be close to Christopher was something I couldn’t afford.
I wipe my clammy hands on my pants before taking a seat in front of the panel of judges, Cait was one of the three. She smiled the brightest, for some reason, it calmed me down.
“Would it be okay with you if we taped this interview? We use it for future reference, nothing too dramatic.” Cait asked with a reassuring smile,
I didn’t know they did that, but I agree all the same, what else could it be used for?
And when the questions start coming, I answer them to the best of my ability, keeping my eyes on her the entire time.
“Thank you for your time Mr. Sanchez, someone from human resources will contact you soon.” Cait announced brightly when the scheduled five minutes were done.
Relief draped around my shoulders, making them slump physically, I was one step closer to being with him. Maybe I could get transferred to wherever it was he worked. I hurry out of the room, excited to share this news with him and then I bump into someone in my hurry.
Her bag falls, the contents spilling into the hallway. Apologizing, I help her scoop them back up, but she laughed breezily.
“It’s okay, I understand wanting to tell everyone the good news, I am assuming it is good news.” She says as we stand up together.
The sound of her care free laugh makes me look at her a little bit closer, she had her strawberry blond hair cascading down her back, and a light pink bow sitting on top of it. She looked to be around my age, and had a beautiful, inviting smile on her face. She is pretty.
“It is, and you, good news too?” I ask, noting the interviewer tag around her neck.
She laughs again,
“Is it that obvious?”
I laugh along because it is easy to laugh along with her,
“No, you are doing a really good job hiding it.”
She laughed again, “Gosh. After I graduated from college, everyone, including my professor’s said it was difficult for a woman to find job in this field. I almost believed them seeing Shepherd’s Construction was literally my last option.” she laughed again.
I understood that, other people telling you not to try was something I was well acquainted with. Alec, why not just find a job? What would you need a college degree for anyway? I agreed, and found part time jobs wherever I could.
“Well, let me be the first to say, congratulations on not listening to them, Miss…?”
She covered her mouth with the back of her hand, giggling,
“Harper, Miss Ashley Harper, but you should call me Ash. And thank you.” She rolled her eyes at the Miss, however, it doesn’t seem to stop her as she continued to smile.
“Congratulations Ash. You deserve it.”
“Congratulations Mr…?”
This time I am laughing, “Alec.”
“Well Mr. Alec no last name, would you care to join me for a celebratory drink? I have nobody else to celebrate with, and being alone on a day like this is very sad.”
I was alone too. Once I left this place, I had no where but the apartment to go to, and suddenly, I didn’t feel like being alone, so I shrug.
“Sure, why not.”
Ash ouu’s and ahhh’s at my truck, she says she was yet to get herself a car, so having one was more impressive to her.
“You aren’t from around here, are you?” she asked as I drove to the address she had inputted into the navigation system.
“What gave it away? My accent?” I say with a roll of eyes, I used to have an accent, but even that I was forced to lose. You have to learn to sound like you belong here. My grandmother used to tell me.
Ash chuckled,
“No, because everyone here is cut from the same cloth, and you my friend, are cut from a different cloth.”
I didn’t understand what that meant, but I didn’t want to seem slow to her by asking a question, she already thought I was different; if that was what she meant.
“You are right. I came here to follow my dreams.”
She nods like she gets me, maybe she does, but we weren’t talking about the same things, my dream was a person, hers was construction.
“I understand mine, but how come you have no one to celebrate with?”
She sighed, “My best friend and I moved here together, and when you study something as complicated as Architecture, you tend to not make other friends along the way. And she got married to a man who lives way over in Hattfield.” She sounds like she was still sulking about it. Which was understandable, Hattfield was three states away.
“Well, good thing we found each other. We would definitely need the company.” she says, snapping back into her excited mode. I didn’t want to ruin her mood by telling her I had someone else to keep me company, especially when she was clapping excitedly as the bar came into view.
It was no resort, but it was a sizeable bar, a few cars littered around. Neon lights strung around the name; Dive bar, blinked at us, welcoming us.
“First round is on me.” Ash clapped as she slipped out of the car.
I knew I wasn’t going to drink more than the supposed first round, since I would be driving. The roads here were busier than the ones back home, and I didn’t know it yet.
Plus, the last time I had a drink, I had it with him. At the thought of him, my chest constricted, I missed him. Ah. I hadn’t told him I got the job. Fishing out my phone, my heart slows, and my feet pauses at the entrance.
He had finally messaged me.
“You wouldn’t even tell me you got the job?”
My mouth dried, how did he know… Cait.. of course. Does that mean he was keeping tabs on me? Even worse, was he only going to send his own message and never respond to mine? He was expecting me to send a follow up text immediately, wanting me to beg…
I want to do it, my fingers itched to type, explain to him that I was going to tell him. But he had been ignoring me all day. Leaving me restless.
Shoving the phone back into my pocket, my heart raced. It was exciting as it was frightening. I find Ash easily, she was coming back to get me, and when she spots me, she smiles.
I smile back, ready to have a wonderful night out with my new friend, just like how he was having a day so wonderful, he ignored all of my texts.
Have a taste of your own medicine, Daddy.
Silence.It’s crazy how silence can mean so much and so little at the same time. My mind cannot stop interpreting the silence from his end; maybe he had gotten bored of me, or sick and tired, maybe he was mad at me, I had broken the first rule he gave me after all. The biggest contender of all the maybes, me ignoring him was a step too far. Cradling my phone against my chest, I grind the insides of my cheek to stop myself from chewing on my nails, I had already started to bite them, a bad habit of mine I thought I had long lost. He was bringing out parts of me that were long lost. Or didn’t exist before.“Seriously, you might wear me down with all of that sighing.” Ash whispers quickly, her eyes remain on the man giving the orientation lecture. Since we sat in the conference hall, those of us who succeeded in getting the job, Ash has been laser focused on the lecture, while I couldn’t hear a word being said. I refresh my messages, the last message was the same one he sent and I ign
TEAM FIVE-- ALEC SANCHEZ.The words don’t change no matter how many times I stare at them. Jayce(I heard Ash call him that), had smiled patiently at me when I asked him to cross check the list once more, it could have been a mix up, team five??? “Please check your emails, you must have gotten mails from your team, that should contain everything you need to know. Now, you may return to your teams.”That was at least ten minutes ago, the lucky ones that got picked by team one and two, had hurried in their direction, already looking down on the rest of us. Great. My eyes return to the mail I received, the header was right there, the only person from this batch assigned to the least team, me. I don’t suppress a scoff, this was all his ploy to send me back, but it only made me want to fight against him even more. “I thought I had it worse…” Ash murmurs beside me, she stared at the orange block like it were her nemesis, in a way it was, starting out your career in the almost bottom team
Unique reason. Mr. Statham had a twinkle in his eyes that I could not decipher, when he said the words to me. His head cocked to the side as if sizing me up. I felt self conscious for a while right before I slipped out of the conference hall, embarrassment creeping up on me fast. “He said he had already gotten everyone he needed before it got to my turn.” Ash sighs, slinking beside me. Both of us crane our necks to look at the team one building. The answers to my question just beyond the doors.I knew his excuse, but i still wanted to know what he told Mr. Statham, I shiver just thinking about the way he stared at me. Did he know? I try to decipher what he was thinking when he stared at me. Finally, I shake my head, he couldn’t know. I was still Christopher’s secret. “I never expected his reason for rejecting you would be, not a team player.” Ash mutters, her voice thick with something I didn’t understand.He was right, I had never been a team player, I only knew how to do things my
Tense silence fill the room, everyone seem to be holding their breath, our eyes on this Shepherd that wasn’t mine. Sweat beads rolled down the sides of my head, his words replaying over and over in my head. He wants to kick me out, and he has the power to do so. Heels clicked their way into the room, breaking the silence, I still don’t look away from the Shepherd with hard eyes. “I am so sorry, Mr. Shepherd, he is one of us, and we haven’t had the chance to train him.”At the familiar, panicked voice of Caitlyn Holt, my eyes finally leave the man and find her, she looked distraught, her face pinched into one that was pleading with him. She grabs me by my wrist, pulling me to herself, now she was standing between Mr. Shepherd and myself, not much of shield as both of us tower over her, but the effect was amazing, I had been feeling very alone and very exposed, if she had come any later, I might have run away. Mr. Shepherd tilts his head in the air, Cait’s hold on my wrist tighten,
I press myself against him. The familiar sound of him sucking in through his teeth is sign that he feels me.I want to touch you. He had whispered in my ear at the resort, the first time I had pressed myself against him like this. He sucked in through his teeth then, so he must feel the same way now, I wanted him to say it again, the words drove me crazy. “Chris?”At the sound of Cait’s voice, he jumped away from me. The world spun in my vision, but I still had the wall behind me to support myself, my knees were buttery and my heart would not stop beating. There was a buzzing sound coming from somewhere around me, I didn’t know where. It took a while to realize the buzzing sound was my own whimpering, I work hard to shut myself up. I missed him the moment he withdrew himself away from me. I craved his touch, that much I knew, this was another level. Grinding my heels against the wooden floors was one thing, but I had to press myself against the wall to prevent launching myself to
I continue to stare at him. I watch as his mouth form words, he talks intently, explaining something I don’t hear. My mind churns with questions, reviewing everything I thought I knew about him, and what I knew now. He had looked like a man with a lot of burden when I first saw him, I assumed it was work related, but now I think-- my eyes drifting to Wes, who nods along to whatever it is Christopher is saying. What was it Cait said about him again? He was always working. It was starting to look like he put work before their relationship, maybe that was why he was at the resort. He was heart broken, and he used me to get him out of his system. I felt sick, physically sick. That was why he wanted me to leave so desperately, he didn’t want his boyfriend to know I existed. I press my lips together, tears burning the corner of my eyes. I force myself to stay in the present. I foolishly wanted to be by his side all these while. I had gone ahead of myself, thinking I meant something to hi
“Is it normal to kiss your ex?”Swallowing, I try to keep my face neutral, while my heart thudded forcefully inside my chest. I hope she doesn’t notice anything as her glassy eyes squint at me, trying to get a read on me or something. I clear my throat nosily and adjust my tie. I look away at other tables, the bar was crowded for a work day, I assume, that like Ash, most of them were here for what they called, a workday review. “If I saw any of my ex’s, there is no telling what I would do. Except the one back in high school, he moved away, I might kiss him.” She shrugged, the just refilled beer glass travelling back to her mouth, she sucked on the glass as the liquid poured into her mouth, a little bit of it trickling down the side of her face. “So it depends on what kind of relationship they had?” I ask handing her wet wipes, she takes it clumsily, I wince when she completely misses the mark.“Nope, the way they broke up. You can only kiss an ex if you never found them sucking fac
My tongue darts out nervously and wets my lips, my eyes pinned to his mouth, the way my heart jack hammered made me worry. He takes his time, his slender fingers curls around the stem of the glass as he brought it to his lips, he takes a deliberate slow sip that makes me gulp. “You still have a problem with patience.” He nods in the direction of my feet as they tapped impatiently at the floor. Conscious of the action, my leg stops the taps, but it feels like holding back a sneeze, it tickles the back of throat until I let it out. The corner of his lips lift in a small smirk that grates on my nerves. “Not that you’d know.” I snap.He quirks a brow at my outburst, he didn’t expect the hostility, but all I could think about was the kiss, what it could mean, and the way he was avoiding my question. I gave up everything, it wasn’t much, but it was all I had, and he couldn’t care less, kissing his ex. “There’s a meeting tomorrow with the board of directors, don’t be late.” He says, risin
Our kisses are hurried. Breaths mixed, we cannot get enough of each other. His hands slip under my shirt, roaming until they get frustrated enough to peel off the entire thing with a groan. I throw my head back in pleasure when his eyes roam my exposed skin, I expect to feel some sort of way about being seen almost naked, but there’s nothing but the intense need for him. “You are so fucking hot, little Alec.” he groans, his hands returning to my chest. The muscles underneath his fingers tense, I shiver against him.He pulls me into my bedroom, and for a second I think the bed is too small, but my thoughts are thrown out of the window when he takes his own shirt off. I take him in, in all his wide chest, toned glory. “I would say you need to be a model, but I am not sure I want anybody else to see you like this.” I tell him, unable to take my eyes off his waistline, his pants hung low and I could see an outline of his cock, I imagine how it looks underneath, the length, thickness,
“Thank you for helping with Ash, you didn’t have to.” I say when the silence gets too loud and thick. Both of our nervousness, or maybe just mine was enough to make it awkward. I rub both hands together after gesturing to Ash’s locked door, she was safely tucked in bed and hopefully snoring away. He had walked up to both of us soon after Ash pointed him out. She passed out mid giggling as he came. My heart had been in my throat the entire time, I watched him nervously as he walked up to us-- well me, since Ash was snoring softly by then. He wordlessly got in, and drove me to Ash’s house, the only thing he asked of was her address, which was already in the navigation system, he drove in silence, and when i tried to bring her inside by myself, he gently swooped her off her feet and carried her instead. I swallowed, even mad at him, I couldn’t think pry my eyes off his muscles. Together, we put her to bed gently, she only stirred in her sleep, but her eyes remained shut. I knew she w
I may have broken every traffic law in a bid to get to Ash on time, she had already started to drink when I met her, still in her work clothes, except, one of her stilettos are off her feet and laid on it’s side under her stool. “Look who it is, the sugar baby of Shepherd Construction!” she giggles as I slide next to her, my eyes widen and I look around us, hoping that nobody heard, and if they did, I would hope they would think it was the alcohol talking. Thankfully, no one cared enough to listen, maybe except the bartender that looked like she wasn’t interested but may be listening. “Ash, mind if you keep your voice down?” I whisper, in hopes that she would copy, like a child would.She pressed her forefinger against her lips, a droopy smile on her flushed face.“I forgot, it is a secret and I am not supposed to know.” she whispered back with a giggle.I am still uneasy, so when the bartender looks at me, I shake my head, she scowls at me, and it makes me feel bad, however, if
“What was that for?” I hiss once we are outside, I stumble a few steps from how roughly I separated myself from him.“That is exactly what I would like to ask you. I heard from Lady Rockbell that you had gone to see Gunther, when you had work to do.” I stare at him open mouthed, he heard from lady Rockbell? Was he keeping tabs on me? And he came all the way out here to do what?“I was going to come when we were done, what I was doing with Mr. Shepherd was briefing. I can’t believe you drove all this way for this.” To say I was seething was a grave understatement. He was treating me like a child incapable of making their own decisions. “I specifically told you to stay away from him, didn’t I tell you!” His voice raises at the end of the sentence.I could hardly believe my own ears, was he angry at me for hanging out with his brother? “He is made from the same cloth as my father, they are both homophobic, and the touching thing you did, what do you think he thinks about it?” I
Lady Rockbell’s driver had offered to take me directly to the high end restaurant Gunther asked me to meet him at, but I declined, I want to leave there by myself if I had to, and going without my car would defeat that. The restaurant screamed luxury and high end, I suspect Gunther invited me here on purpose, to intimidate me or something, however, I used to work at a place as high end as this, I only had to pretend. “You certainly took your time.” he says when I spot his table, there is an irritated look on his face. He is dressed like a businessman in every sense of the word. He looked like Christopher, and looked nothing like him at the same time. They sounded so different too, where Christopher had a smooth, deep voice that felt like it washed over you, Gunther’s rough voice demanded you stood still and listened to him. “I had to finish with Lady Rockbell.” I take a seat opposite him.His brows straightened at the mention of our client, he regained his composure, I could almos
The taste is still at the back of my throat as I walked, or danced, I have no idea, but I know I am humming, into Lady Rockbell’s garden. I do a small spin before I sit, it is all I can do to stop myself from giggling and sighing wistfully. “No extra large coffee, sullen expression or a sigh in sight today.” Lady Rockbell says making me jump, she had been in her corner working on the fruits she only saw an hour a day. I would have seen her if my head was on my neck instead of in the clouds. “I would like to think that’s a good thing.” I say as I settle myself, she startled me real good.“Your work would tell me if it is.” she murmurs.I shake my head with a chuckle, I don’t care what image she had outside, Lady Rockbell was like any other old woman, with the snark and attitude, the only thing she has that they are missing would be the Botox. I work fast today, maybe because every time I swallowed there was a reminder in my throat that he was just there this morning. Maybe becaus
My grandma absolved my mother of all her crimes against me, for one simple reason, she hadn’t committed mother, that’s why you’re here, she would tell me, she wanted me to be grateful to her daughter. It made her the best mother in the world, even a better mother than grandma herself. “Lately, I find myself wanting good things, craving the best, and that’s all you, Alec.” His voice is small when he says this, almost defeated.“You can have it.”“I can’t, not when I don’t deserve it. People’s lives were snatched because of me.” he says quickly stopping my words on my tongue.Grandma would have ran away from him, she would have thought him even more vile than my mother who dumped me in grandma’s arms a few days after I was born, with the words, ‘Sell it or whatever.’ I know these from one of their rare calls, I had been severely ill, and grandma with no health insurance called her daughter for some money, and she reaffirmed her statement from when I was dumped. ‘I told you to sell it
Everything is going so fast and so slow at the same time, my breath hitched in impatience, skin burning with longing, I bite into my lips as his hands shook, needing to touch me the way I needed to be touched. All of a sudden his movement seizes. He stills as if in shock, his brows furrow, I watch him closely, my own confusion apparent. What was going on? He pushed himself of me, and turns around, I have a view of his wide, muscled back, I am slightly distracted by it. “I’m sorry.” he mumbles before walking away, speed walking as if I were some sort of disease he was terrified of.I jump down from where he had placed me on top of the table, I stare at his back wondering what the hell that was, and how I was supposed to react. He doesn’t turn back once and as usual, I follow him, he doesn’t acknowledge that I am following behind him. Just as I reach a huge oak door, it slams in my face, I hear the turn of his lock from the other side. I know he has always shut me out, but doing i
Turns out the movies were right, dashing brooding men in suits always had baggage holding them back, with walls as high as Everest. It would take a patient person to pull these walls down. Luckily for me, I am poster person for patient, I did search for him with only his fake name, and traced him all the way down here. “What was the name of your firm?”He stills from confusion, we were laid side by side, almost naked, he dropped a bombshell on me, he might have been thinking I would take it hard. But I was taking it hard but I couldn’t back down. “The Nest.” He answers quietly,“Nest?” I snicker at his choice of name.I don’t see him but I could tell he was rolling his eyes, he had said before that he was terrible with names. “What name would you rather it had?”I hum, adjusting myself in his arms and the small space, his hold around me squeezes, I fight the smile on my face and it wins anyway, he can’t see me in the dark anyway. “What were the core values?”He takes a deep brea