“I’m not ready for that,” I muttered, almost ashamed.
She let out a quiet breath.
“It’s not about being ready, Lena. You have to take the first step. Please. For yourself.”
She left without another word, the door closing softly behind her.
I was left alone again, the phantom’s touch still lingering in the back of my mind, its warmth and weight still pressing on me.
I sat there for a long time, staring into the dark, my mind racing.
Had it been a dream?
Or was it something else?
Something more?
I didn’t know what was real anymore.
But I was certain of one thing—whatever it was that had touched me, it wasn’t done yet.
And neither was I.
11
CASSIAN
I watched her from the shadows, hidden just out of her sight, as she fidgeted in bed.
Her body, curled beneath the thin sheets, trembled ever so slightly.
I could feel her heart beating faster, faster, as she lay there, aware—somewhat aware—that I was close.
It wasn’t the first time.
She’d felt me before, even when she tried to convince herself it was just a dream.
But dreams don’t feel like this.
Her skin, so soft, so fragile...
I longed to touch it, to trace every curve with my fingertips.
The warmth of her breath, the pulse of her veins beneath the delicate surface of her neck...
I could taste it.
Could taste her.
She didn’t know how much I hungered for her, for the way she trembled, for the way her mind unraveled in small, quiet moments like this.
She didn’t know that every little sound she made, every soft sigh, every whispered breath, called to me in ways that no one else ever could.
I watched her shift beneath the covers, her fingers brushing against her skin in a way that was far too delicate to be accidental.
She felt it—just as I knew she would.
Touch me, I whispered in the dark, though I knew she couldn’t hear me.
She moaned in her sleep, a soft, almost inaudible sound, like she was giving in to the sensation.
Her body responding to my presence, just as it always did.
She didn’t need to say it.
I could feel it in the air, thick with need, heavy with confusion.
I had waited for this, waited for her to reach the breaking point.
For her mind to start doubting itself.
For her to start unraveling, piece by piece.
And when she finally did, when she finally let me in...
I would have her.
Slowly.
Reluctantly.
But I would have her.
She sat up abruptly, her breathing ragged, heart pounding as if she’d run a marathon.
She wasn’t used to me being this close, so close that she could taste the warmth of my presence, feel the pulse of my energy against her skin.
I almost laughed, the sound trapped in my chest.
She was always so afraid of me, even when she was drawn to me.
But fear was an intoxicating thing.
Fear was a bridge.
And I had learned long ago how to make people cross it willingly.
She gasped, sitting up fully now, eyes wide as she scanned the room, trying—no, hoping—that it was just her mind playing tricks on her.
But it wasn’t.
It never was.
I moved closer, just beyond the range of her vision.
I could almost feel her pulse racing, her body on the edge of flight, her mind on the edge of breaking.
She was so close to understanding, so close to feeling the truth: that I was always there, always near, just out of reach.
She could never escape me.
Not this time.
Not ever.
And then, as if she was slowly piecing it together, her gaze drifted to the space just beyond the bed.
Her eyes flickered to the door, to the open window.
She searched, desperate, hoping to see something—anything—that would reassure her.
But I was already gone.
Not truly gone, though.
She couldn’t see me, but I was still there, lingering.
Watching.
Waiting.
Her heart rate slowed, her breathing steadying, but the tremor in her body wouldn’t leave.
It would stay with her.
Always.
Her best friend came then.
And he was there.Sitting in the chair beside my hospital bed like he belonged there.Dressed in black, the collar of his shirt loose, his sleeves rolled up, exposing the veins that ran up his forearms.His eyes—They weren’t just looking at me.They were inside me.Sinking into my thoughts.Curling into the cracks of my mind.The room felt smaller.Tighter.The walls weren’t white anymore.The lights overhead buzzed, flickering between shadows, casting shapes that moved.Cassian tilted his head.The slow, indulgent movement of a predator who already knew how this would end.“I can hear your thoughts.”His voice was a silk-drenched whisper, threading into my bones.“All that fear. That doubt.”I forced my mouth open, my throat raw, words rotting on my tongue.“This—this isn’t real.”Cassian sighed, running a hand through his dark hair.“Still clinging to that, are we?”He leaned forward, elbows resting on his knees.Then—His fingers ghosted over my wrist.Every muscle in my body lock
I knew that voice.Mira.Her name hit me like a slap, sending a pulse of heat surging through my body.17LENAMira.She was gone.Cassian had taken her, hadn’t he?I remembered the way she screamed when the mirror swallowed her, the way her body twisted as she was dragged into the abyss.No.I wouldn’t let that be the end.I wouldn’t let him win.With a choked gasp, I forced my hands to move, clawing at the suffocating dark around me.It clung to my skin, thick and wet like tar, resisting, trying to pull me deeper.But I kept climbing, pushing through the weight of it, fighting against Cassian’s grip.His voice sharpened, a sliver of irritation curling beneath the warmth."Why do you always make this so difficult?"He hissed the words against my ear, and for the first time—he sounded angry.Good.I reached deeper, grasping at that crack in the darkness, pulling at it with everything I had.Something gave.The blackness shattered.Light—blinding, searing light—tore through the void, a
Warm.Slow.Too close."You’re mine, Lena."Something touched my wrist.Cold.Gentle.Just a fingertip tracing my veins.I snapped.I stumbled forward, scrambling for the door—But the ground wasn’t there anymore.The floor tilted, shifting beneath my feet like the whole world had turned upside down.My stomach flipped.The hospital walls melted into something else—something wet, pulsating, dripping with a darkness that stretched on forever.The mirror was gone.The sink was gone.Everything was gone.Except for him.Cassian stood in front of me, smiling.Not the kind of smile people gave when they were happy.The kind of smile people gave before they tore you apart."You ran, little dragon."His voice was silk and razors, curling around me like smoke."But I always catch what’s mine."I shook my head.“No.”My voice came out hoarse, strangled.“I beat you. I—”"You think breaking the bond was enough?"He tilted his head, his black eyes drinking me in."You think you were ever strong
Why did my body still expect to feel Cassian’s fingers around my throat, still expect to see the dark claw marks down my arms?Why did the shadows in the corners of the room seem too dark, stretching toward me whenever I blinked?I turned my head to the small bathroom across the room.The door was open just enough to see inside.And there it was.The mirror.My stomach twisted.I hadn’t looked at a mirror since I woke up.I couldn’t.Because I knew.I knew.If I looked, if I really looked—I wouldn’t be alone.13LENAThe air in the hospital room felt thick.Stale.Like it had been sitting untouched for centuries.I couldn’t move.I couldn’t breathe.The mirror in the bathroom loomed in my peripheral vision.I tried not to look at it.I knew what would happen if I did.But I had to.Slowly, I sat up, every muscle screaming in protest.The sheets tangled around my legs, cold and damp with sweat.The heart monitor beeped steadily beside me, the only sound in the room.I swallowed.The m
My head throbbed with every beat of my heart.My skin felt wrong—too smooth, too untouched.I forced my eyes open.White ceiling.White walls.The steady beep-beep-beep of a heart monitor to my right.An IV needle pressed into the soft skin of my hand.A thin hospital blanket covered my body, but beneath it, I felt the stiff fabric of a gown against my skin.I was alive.But something was missing.My arms shot up, my hands running over my forearms, my shoulders, my chest.My breath hitched.The scratches.The marks.The scars Cassian had left on me—Gone.I yanked back the blanket, my hospital gown riding up as I twisted my body, searching every inch of myself for proof.Nothing.No jagged claw marks down my spine.No dark sigils carved into my ribs.My skin was untouched.As if none of it had ever happened.A sharp panic surged through my chest.I shoved the blanket aside, ripping the IV out of my hand as I swung my legs over the edge of the bed.The second my feet hit the cold tile,
It melted and reformed in waves, swallowing my feet, releasing me, pulling me back down.The glass had turned to liquid, thick and cold as blood.Then the first hand burst from the floor.Fingers—long, sharpened, black as tar—clawed their way up from the depths.The surface of the mirror rippled like water, spilling bodies into the collapsing world.I choked back a scream.There were so many of them.People.Or what used to be people.Their skin was stretched too tight over their skulls, their eyes hollow pits of flickering red.Their mouths gaped open in eternal screams, jagged teeth stained black.Some were missing pieces—limbs twisted in the wrong direction, faces slashed apart like shattered porcelain.They were his.The ones Cassian had taken before me.They crawled from the abyss, their broken fingers leaving trails of wet, inky smears across the fractured mirror floor.Some of them barely held together, their bodies split open like rotting fruit, organs sliding out in slow, wet