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(Dean)My stomach is in tight knots as I sit down in the empty restaurant, one I had booked out for the time we'd be spending here.I glance at my watch as I prayed she doesn't change her mind.Bnd then I turned, meeting the most gorgeous eyes I've ever seen, for a fleeting seconds I stared, clearly blown away.Bella looks breathtakingly gorgeous in a simple gown that's just a little below her knees, she has a knack for making even the simplest clothes look elegant.She's easily the most beautiful woman in the world, and if she ever gives us a chance, I'll never let her slip out of my fingers again, never.My dick stirred in my pants as I took in her features a little more, I quickly force a breath down my lungs, blocking out my lewd thoughts and just then a smile creeps up my face."Bella," I mutter, standing up to welcome her but then her face went dead cold in an instant, disregarding me with just a glance.She walked straight to our table and my eyes strayed to the bag she was hol
(Bella)I finally stepped out of the door, and I had never felt so relieved walking out of a restaurant.I just can't get over the sadness I saw in Dean's eyes as I declared there was no us. There had to be something wrong with me for feeling bad about nothing.I shouldn't, he made me feel worthless, he humiliated me and shattered my heart into a thousand pieces, I can't forget that.I shake off that weird feeling, reminding myself that what I had with Dean, needed to be over.I don't want to hurt myself more by giving in to what I feel for him. I had to literally force myself to sound mean, act like it or risk letting my real emotions show.Do I love Dean? I'd probably scream yes.But is love truly enough to sustain a marriage, a union?This isn't just about love, I can't trust Dean, and trust is everything.And as for him? He has no trust in me either, no faith.His mother knew to go after his insecurities, a few photos was all it took and he easily folded, he didn't even try to dis
(Ashley)I grip my glass tighter, the amber liquid does nothing to calm me down, alongside Kendra's words.Judy must think I'm stupid, pretending to be shocked and angry about me sleeping with Raymond. She doesn't fool me, she can't pretend to be holier than thou when she's been manipulating and lying to Dean all this time.She has no right to blame this on me, she's a terrible mother.I thought she'd suck it up and get her head back in the game but clearly she isn't.She has been ridiculous about this whole thing, overreacting and refusing to see me, but I don't care. She's just as stupid, underestimating me.One thing is certain, with or without her help, Dean will be mine.He said he doesn't want me, that he'll never love me. I'm sure he doesn't mean that, his head is messed up right now, that bitch must've got him all confused again.But does it even matter?He'll be with me, he'll learn to love and accept me whether he likes it or not.I take a long sip from my glass, my mind rac
(Bella)I regretted my scathing words as soon as I entered my office.I still can't wrap my head around why I flared up, was it because he said I belonged to him?But he was only trying to helpâŚUgh!"That was totally uncalled for, Bella." My conscience pricked me, sometimes I just let my emotions have their way with me.I should've probably said thank you and walk away. Now, I feel like a piece of shit, the guilt was wrapped around me like a scratchy blanket, it has my heart in a fierce grip.I have to apologize for being a complete ingrate.I let out a deep sigh, and reached out to my laptop, wanting to get the guilt out of my system but it isn't working out so well.That's it.I sigh again, resting my back on my chair, my mind a whirlwind.I realize now that I've been pretty hard on Dean, I'm slowing turning into a woman I cannot recognize anymore.I've become this insensitive and unhappy woman, who always act without thinking, and that's not me!I'm still angry at Dean, but that d
(Dean)I look at Ethan and shrug. "No matter what, I love her Ethan, that hasn't changed," I say and sigh. "But every time I try to get close, she shuts me out, like she's already made up her mind." I say, downing the entire glass.Ethan gives me a sympathetic look and then runs a hand through his hair. "I think she's hurting, scared even. People build walls for a reason, it might just be her way of protecting herself," he straightens up and holds my gaze. "But she's letting you close to the twins, that's something. I suggest you give her more time, try to be friends again,"I bring down my glass, and tilt my head. "How is it that my friend, a veritable lecher, who knows little or nothing regarding women is suddenly a guru? Is there something I'm missing?" I joked, and raised my eyebrows playfully.Ethan flips me a bird. "I just did my research the best way I can, just in case someone I know needs it," he says. "So, no, thank you." He rolls his eyes and brings his glass to his mouth.
(Bella)I stood there, looking at Dean, who looked like he fell out of a freaking magazine.A little overdressed, yeah. But he's such an awesome sight to behold.And then, it hits me that I was visibly checking him out. I shouldn't.Christ, Bella, get a goddamn grip!I quickly pulled my gaze away, a little mortified that he caught me staring, and then I invited him in. I have never felt this awkward in my entire life.I walk him to the living room, and before he could sit, Javier and Jasmine came running up to him.Dean dropped the bag he was holding and crouched down, enveloping them in a warm hug.After a while, I figured I should get on it, before they bring up him being their stand in dad.My heart began to race, my insides kept twisting into a thousand little knots, my hands clammy as I think my words through.I forced a breath into my lungs and glanced at Dean, who in return gives me a reassuring nod."Hey, sweety." I began, stretching my lips into a trained smile as I waved them
(Bella)Air escaped me as if someone had stabbed my lungs with fork.Did I just ask Dean for friendship?I take a deep breath that seems to barely reach my lungs, but it doesn't stop my racing heart.I couldn't believe I said that aloud, but Dean's reaction seem to make it less nerve-wracking.I could see the excitement in his face, he was pretty much stoked, and barely a second away from wrapping me in his arms.A few days back, I was so sure that I wanted nothing to do with him, uhmm, I still don't anyways, it's just a sacrifice I'm willing to make for my kids.But one thing is sure, being friends with Dean screams potential danger, I couldn't be more wrong and I would be lying if I say it doesn't scare me, it does.And I'm not so sure how I'd cope with it, but I'll have to try.I truly hope I will.I forced more air into my lungs, tonight's going to be one hell of a long one.I walk into my room, hoping to soak away all these emotions and weird thoughts roaming in my head but just
(Bella)I never would have thought for a mere second that co-parenting with Dean would be this easy, he makes it seem so easy.We both shuffle between taking the kids and picking them up from school. At first, I tense a little at this, I knew it'd be a normal every day thing, and I trust Dean with the kids, I really do. Well, after a heartbeat later, I agreed.It's going to take a lot of getting used to but the excitement I saw on Javier and Jasmine's face the first day Dean came to take them to school warms my heart, it was worth it.It's been less than three weeks, and Dean has been super sweet, to the kids and he extends that to me as well, a painful reminder of what we once had.And whenever I watch him switch into his dad role effortlessly, I can't help but think about how our lives could've turned out, if any of these didn't happen. I'm not sure I talk about how good of a husband he was to me, he was an incredible husband and now he's turned out to be an amazing father.But now
(Dean)The smile on her face makes my stomach clench with happiness and every ounce of jealousy I had felt suddenly ebbs away.I don't reply, my words failed me, all I did was stare at her, my desire laid bare.My eyes darken and the next thing I knew, I leaned over and claimed her lips, kissing her so hard. I need to get lost in her so bad, I want to eat her out for hours.She moans into my mouth and my dick throbs in my pants. I whirled her around, resting her back on the couch, towering over her, and claiming her lips once more."What are you doing?" She asks, out of breath, while I gently nibble on the nape of her neck. "DeanâŚAnne couldâŚ,""She's out to get groceries. It's just the two of us, baby." I murmur against her skin, running my hand over her hard, sensitive nipples through her silky top."She'll be backâ in no time," she croaked out, causing me to pause and look at her.Fine, I picked her up and maneuvered us to her room, I gently put her down and pulled off her silky top
(Dean)I have called Arthur and asked him to urgently look into how those pictures got to the press and I know I'll have my answer in less than a day.I stood in front of Bella's front door and exhaled deeply, ready to face this strange lady but this time I won't be leaving if I don't see my woman.I press the doorbell and waited and after a while the door creaks open and this lady stood before me yet again, bearing an unreadable expression.But instead of telling me off, she shifts to let me in, and I see a smirk creeping up her face.Is she messing with me?"Come in," she says, giving me quite the look.I step in, still as confused as hell."Didn't you say you just â," I tried to voice out but the approaching footsteps cuts me off.I turn to see Bella, and she paused as soon as she sees me, staring into my eyes.The warmth in her eyes somehow takes all my worries and fears away."Babe," I call out softly and rushed to her, pulling her close and wrapping my arms around her, I hold he
(Bella)"Why didn't you say so sooner?" I smack her arms and she giggles slightly."Well, that's part of the surprise, telling you would have ruined the fun, don't you think?" she says, lifting her eyebrows.I shake my head, and walk over to her car to meet a beaming Aria, I pause.She's gorgeous, pretty eyes and a cute smile like her momma."Hi," I say, flashing her a smile.Her grin grows bigger and she throws herself into my arms. "Aunt Bella!" She squealed.I ruffle her hair and when I look back to where Ivy was standing, she isn't there anymore, she has opened the door of my car, leaning over and talking with the twins, I could literally hear their soft giggles.I snap my eyes back to Aria and kiss her forehead. "What's her name?" I pointed to her big doll behind her."Star," she says, her smile growing even wider."Such a cute name," I retort, ruffling her hair gently, my smile still in place. I just love her, I've loved her long before now.After we had our moment, I step aside
(Bella)Whoever was behind this aimed to ruin me, hence the reason my social handles were all over the media, notifications were pouring in, tons of hateful words, dirty comments and some even tagged me a whore and a golddigger.The blogs didn't relent, they're clearly milking this for all it's worth.Tired of reading through all the nonsense about me, I drop my phone and exhaled deeply.I'm handling this a lot better than my emotional self would, it baffles me but well, I'll have to do me, the world will be just fine.But thenâŚ.. I pause, a thought comes to mind. If this lingers on, it won't be long before they drag my kids into this drama.I sigh, running a hand through my hair. Soon enough, it'll be the gold-digging wife and her secret babies.My kid's faces will be all over the media, I wouldn't put that past the person behind this chaos.God, I don't want them to drag my innocent kids into this and I definitely do not want this kind of ridiculous attention for them.I sucked in
(Dean)Unease, worry, a surge of helplessness, all of it scratch it's way through my skin, seeping through every pore.It's been over five seconds since this strange lady shut the door in my face, and here I am, glued to a spot.That isn't even the disturbing part, but wheels are already turning in my head at her response. She moved in?If that's not strange, then I don't know what is. A pang of uneasiness, fear, and a little bit of anger settles over me.Maybe if I hadn't freaking silenced my phones, I would have been here in time.But moving out? Did Bella really do that?I'm not believing any damn thing till I hear from her, and there's only one way to find out, actually two ways.Shit⌠I pause.I can't contact Derrick, I had angrily deleted his number when I thought Bella left me and I still don't have it now.Ugh. I run my hand through my hair, and then I lift my eyes and slowly walk over to meet the building's concierge.He bowed down to greet on seeing me.I give him a curt n
(Dean)Full tilt into my meetings and I've barely come up for air. It's been a busy day, even so more than usual.And I can't wait to get done with it and head back home to my woman and kids. I couldn't wait until I could hold Bella in my arms again.But then, I had an odd feeling when I called Bella before getting on with these meetings and she didn't answer, I texted her and waited for a while but got no response.Humphrey came to inform me that it was time for the meeting, my eyes had flickered on the phone before I put it on silence and handed it over to Humphrey, alongside my other phone.I do that whenever I have important meetings to avoid distractions, and this one is with international investors, so yeah."We're looking forward to working with you, Mr. Brennan." One of the men says with a grin as he extends his hand toward me.A smile sits on my lips as I take the hand he's offering. "It's a pleasure, Mr. Duke."Once done, I head out to where Humphrey is seated, waiting.He g
(Bella)I got home in time before Javier and Jasmine woke up, I had to, Anne isn't too strong to get them ready for school on her own, and I needed her to get all the rest she can.I didn't get Ivy's call nor text, she usually calls every morning or leaves a text. I had called but she didn't answer and hasn't returned the calls.I pocket my phone and help get the twins ready for school before heading to make us breakfast.As I move around the kitchen, plating the food, I couldn't help but reminisce about last night, it was beyond what I could put into coherent words, it was beautiful, it was passionate and it felt right, more right than anything has in a long time.I had a corking good time.We made love till we were both tired out, we talked about a lot, from how I felt when I realized Ashley and his mother had set me up down to how challenging being pregnant and alone was, how helpful Calvin has been.My stomach twisted when I mentioned Calvin, a subtle reminder of our unresolved is
(Bella)Those words were all it took, and Dean's lips are on mine again, devouring every inch of my mouth, I could barely catch my breath as the kiss grows more intense with every second.It feels like we're both starving, the passion is still there, as fiery as ever.Dean lifts me up against the wall, his lips still on mine, while I wrap my legs around his waist.After a few minutes of kissing me none stop, he gently brings me down, and striped me bare, discarding my dress and I watch his eyes darken as he stares at my body, eyes filled with admiration."You're so beautiful," his voice is hoarse and soaked in desire, he undid his button, shrugging out of his shirt, revealing a well-defined chest and sculpted abs.My eyes roams his body, exploring every fascinating inch of his chest and abdomen and then my face flushed as my eyes drifted to a certain bulge in his boxers briefs. When I look up to meet his gaze, he has a smirk.He took a single step forward and that was it, he whirls me
(Bella)The awkward silence lasted till Calvin was out of sight. I turn to look at Rihanna and she looks a little sad, her eyes pinned in the direction Calvin had taken.I clear my throat, snapping Rihanna back to reality. "Is everything okay?" I say, my eyebrows lifting in question.She forced a smile. "Oh, it's nothing," she waves it off. "How have you been, Bella. It's been such a long time," she says, her eyes lightening up again.There, she's being too obvious about changing gears but that's okay. I understand awkward moments better than most.I exhaled, offering a smile as warm as hers. "I've been great actually. It's so nice to see you," I say earnestly."Yeah," she mutters, her gaze softening. "We should catch up sometime," she says and I nod."Yeah, we should,"We talked a little more before she excused herself to join her date.As I watch her leave, I couldn't help but think about earlier, what was that?There's definitely something, it can't be nothing.Calvin looks like he