"Woow.. This is beautiful and cosy." she said joining me in the living room, taking me away from my thoughts. I had so many questions in my head but no answers at all, my feelings were all over the place. "look, again I'm so sorry for budging in on you like this, I didn't plan this very well and I kinda wanted to just show up at work and all the plan didn't go well and now here I am feeling like an idiot."I stupidly turned around to look at her and I regretted it instantly. She was wearing shorts and a sports bra while searching for her shirt in her bag.For some reason I couldn't keep my eyes away. I just looked at her until she found it and put it on.She has never changed a bit. She was still fit and sexy.I bit the inside of my cheek and shook my head, "umh it's okay you know. I'm glad I'm here and can assist. If I wasn't...""I was going to sleep on the street trust me. I really am pissed at the hotel but I'll take it out on them on Monday or whenever they fix this.. So are yo
A part of me wanted Tawny to be happy, back then I wanted her to be happy with me but now that I saw that might be impossible with all the odds against us, I just wanted her happy.Having her here made me feel some type of way though, it kinda showed me how much we have separated since we parted ways. Cutting communication from each other has created this huge distance, I mean we talked but I felt like I was talking to someone I didn't know.She seemed happy on the other hand, very happy I couldn't ignore that. She texted Carrie here and there as we finished off the seventh season of Brooklyn and she would smile in between.At first I wanted to cry, at how she was freely loving someone knowing very well how I felt about her and what I had wanted.But then I noticed I was being very selfish. She was happy and I had to admit and fully let her go or make peace with it.I then remembered what Luna said about not finding love and me being the only person in her life. I smiled a bit and tho
*I did something very stupid... I allowed Tawny to bring her girlfriend over to my place coz they have trouble with their hotel. I don't know what I was thinking. Having her here alone pains me, now imagine her having her girlfriend. I don't know how I feel and I have no one to text right now, I can't even tell Liv because I don't want to hurt her feelings for feeling like this while we are trying something. I wish I could call you or just talk to you without any judgements, but I am scared you'll call me all the names in the book and leave me even more confused.*I contemplated for a good 20 minutes before finally sending that to Thalia, at least she was less judgy than Luna to Me.The waiting was killing me as she typed. I got up and went to get water in the kitchen. Tawny was out and she said she'll be back with them. I had no idea who them was but this told me that Carrie wasn't alone. I was just hoping it wasn't another couple.I looked around nervously, God what was she like? Pr
Are they in the kitchen right now? She probably takes her to that restaurant I always wanted to go to that she said we would one day go when we were officially in a relationship. Do they hold hands? Oh God yes they do that a lot I bet they are doing it right at this moment? I bet they’re kissing even more now. Maybe they are also having sex right this very second, on the kitchen counter? On the couch? Maybe on the floor?. They are probably using toys because Tawny loves them…In my mind, I stupidly played out scenes from our life together. Except now my role was being played by someone who might be sexier, more fun, and more interesting. I saw my Ex — the happy, sweet, amazing, funny, caring, fun one I first fell in love with — sharing the best parts of themselves with someone else who wasn't me.I hated my mind for taking me to that dark place.It was worse coz it was at night when there were no distractions whatsoever. The joy and passion I envisioned for them were suddenly made all
After the incident that happened between Tawny and Olivia, of which they probably didn't know I heard, they planned that we should all have lunch together and just have fun or whatever.I was a bit hesitant not knowing what the plan was but Olivia begged me and told me Tawny wantd to thank me for letting her stay at my place.So I put in my jeans and shirt then sneakers. Literally had zero interest but was doing it coz Liv asked me nicely."you look beautiful..." Liv said and I looked around only to see her looking at me. I furrowed my brows at her and was about to say what he fuck when Carrie chipped in, "she's telling the truth. You do look beautiful Mimi.."Why on earth did she call me that?80I smiled though and remembered what Luna was going to say, smile and say..."thank you guys...""and Amora I'm sorry for being a bit inappropriate you know. That's your place and we should have respected you and not just walk around naked and all that." Carrie continued.On the all that part I
"you know I can never get over coming back to this tiny flat to you... It just makes everything better no matter how shitty it was at work."She took my jacket and kissed my cheek, "Are you trying to tell me to actually move in with you? Coz if you're not, that was Hella smooth."I laughed, "stop being a cute idiot and take a compliment.""so I didn't cook.. I was thinking we should go out today, with me leaving and all.""do I can't trick you into staying longer?""oh princess trust me you have all the power to do that. But it will kill me."I smiled at her revealing that, "mhmm... I was looking forward to eating your nice homemade meal. But we can go out then."She shook her head a bit and gave me a box. I gave her a questioning look, "what's this?""open in and see.." she said and I opened to be met by black beautiful shorts and a white shirt and white heels.I furrowed my brows at her, "shoes? Are you sending me away?"She laughed, "to me. I'm sending you to me. Please change so w
Calls were happening everyday and I had no idea how we managed that with her crazy schedule and me with the work intensifying. But we did it.Tawny finally arrived at work and we were excited when my group won the advertisement slot on TV with the little project that we worked on. They said it was amazing that we didn't separate them but used our creativity to combine the perfume and the sneaker.. That was what made them pick it.I was so happy."guess I should never trust your girlfriend's face then because she looked like she hated that while she was loving it" I said and Thalia laughed, "I know right. She's horribly amazing."I rolled my eyes at her and she waved me off, "go to your desk dude. You have someone waiting for you there..."I lifted my head up and my eyes met with Tawny sitting on my desk.I swallowed a bit before walking to her, "hey..."She smiled, "look at you showing everyone what you're made off."I put my bag on the table and pulled my chair to sit, "it was a grou
That question stuck on my head three days later. Last time I couldn't answer it because Olivia got called and we had to cut our call short.Since then I was really wondering if I was okay with Tawny knowing about us. I mean what would happen? Would she cut us out? I mean she always screams that we are adults, so would she be an adult and let us be because we make each other happy?I had a lot on my mind, so much I was worrying about and I didn't even know how to address it to Olivia without sounding like I didn't want Tawny to know. Tawny was just a different case when it came to this, I had no idea how she'd react, and I know exactly that things affect her heart. "earth to you Amora.." Aiden said and I furrowed my brows at her, "Aiden.. What's up..?" "hey... How are you doing?" "dude... When you ask me that you literally follow up with the most weird questions.. So what's up?" She laughed, "well I'm just asking now. You have been standing there staring at that empty cup. I though