Next morning i didn’t even try to fake small talk. what was the point? i saw his truck rolling in and it was like my body moved before my brain did, weaving through stacks of lumber, the noise of nail guns pounding in my ears. he climbs out, sunglasses hiding everything, coffee like it’s the only thing he needs, clipboard like armor.
“morning,” he says like i’m one of them, like i’m no one. “we need to talk,” i throw at him. he keeps moving. doesn’t even flinch. i catch up, three steps, plant myself in his way. “about the guy with the camera.”His jaw, i see it, tight, but he barely shows it. “we’re not doing this here.”
“yes we are. who was he?” “i don’t know.” “you’re lying.”that stops him. finally. lowers the clipboard, tips his glasses just enough and there it is, that look, the warning like i’ve just stepped onto a landmine. “careful, izzy.”
“careful?” i laugh, but it’s not a laugh, it’s air slicing out of me. “some stranger’s aiming a lens at me and you want me to be careful?” he says it low, restrained, like he’s holding himself back. “i’m telling you to stop making a scene. crews are here, vendors, your father—” “this isn’t about my father,” i spit, too loud maybe. “this is about you knowing more than you say.”and then he studies me—long enough to make me burn—and just walks around me, into the trailer. “inside.”
i follow. pulse like thunder in my ears. door shuts. suddenly the air is too small, too tight, pressing down.
“you want the truth?” he drops the clipboard on the desk. “there are eyes on this site all the time. competitors, reporters, union guys sniffing around. a guy with a camera isn’t new.”
“this one was different,” i push back hard. “he wasn’t after blueprints or cement trucks or whatever—he was looking at me.”his eyes flicker, tiny shift, shadow over a wall, and i catch it. he shakes his head fast. “you’re seeing patterns that aren’t there.”
i step closer, words hot. “tell me i’m wrong. look me in the eye and tell me i imagined it.” he does. locks his gaze on me, so steady i almost fall into believing. then: “drop it, izzy. whatever you think you saw, it’s not your fight.”“not my fight?” my voice cracks upward, sharp. “he was photographing me like i’m some target and you’re saying it’s not my fight?”
he exhales hard, shoulders pressed back into the desk, like the desk’s the only thing holding him up. “if you knew what was at stake, you’d stay out of it.” “what’s at stake?” softer now, because the way he said it—there’s weight in it.he looks at the blinds like they’ve got answers. “your father’s working a partnership deal. big one. money. politics. not all clean.”
my stomach pulls tight. “what kind of deal?” “not your business.” “he’s my father.” “it’s his business,” dom fires back, sharp enough to sting. “and you sticking your nose in? that’s worse than any guy with a camera.”i take a step back because that hurts, more than i expected. “so you’re protecting him? or yourself?”
and for one second, something dangerous flickers in his face—anger or grief or both—and then he says it like he’s slamming a door: “i’m protecting you, izzy.”the silence after that nearly breaks me. i want to believe it, want to grab onto it like it’s enough. but he won’t meet my eyes, and that ruins it. i walk out. don’t look back.
the day drags like tar. conversation sits in my chest like a splinter. i watch him from across the site—phone out between calls, eyes scanning the street like he’s waiting for the camera man to reappear.
lunch. i sit in dad’s office with a sandwich that tastes like cardboard. he’s laughing on the phone, fake laugh that doesn’t touch his eyes. he keeps glancing at the blinds. blinds closed tight. does he know? did dom tell him? is that why dom shut me down so fast?
by midafternoon i crack. find dom at the shed, bent over blueprints with some crew guy.
“we’re not done,” i snap. step up beside him. his sigh—long, tired, exaggerated, like he’s been rehearsing it. “izzy—” “no. don’t ‘izzy’ me. you’re going to tell me what this deal is, and why some creep is taking pictures of me over it.”the crew guy bails. mutters about the north wall. gone.
dom folds his arms, blocking me out. “you’re not letting this go.” “not till you give me a real answer.”for a second i see it—he almost talks. his mouth opens, jaw tight, shuts again. then: “it’s a construction contract. multi-year, multi-million. your dad’s got investors sniffing around who don’t like sharing. that’s all you need to know.”
“that’s not an answer.” “it’s the only one you’re getting.”the heat in my throat bursts out. “you act like i’m some fragile kid who can’t handle the truth. newsflash—I’ve handled worse.”
he steps closer. so close i tilt my chin up just to keep the eye contact. “and maybe that’s the problem. you’ve already been dragged through hell once. i’m not letting you walk into another fire.”my breath stutters—not because of the words but the way he says them, low, fierce, promise and threat at once.
and then his phone buzzes. harsh. breaks everything. he looks at it, curses, pulls back. “we’ll talk later.”
but i know that means never.
home. kitchen. dad at the table with his papers, pen scratching, head barely lifting when i walk in.
“good day?” he asks, smile faint, already gone. i think of the camera. dom’s dodging. the word partnership like smoke in the air. “busy,” i mutter.he nods, back down. pen, signature, done.
i stand there, watching, wondering how much he knows, how much dom’s protecting him, how much dom’s protecting himself.upstairs, i slam the blinds shut, sit on the edge of the bed. outside it’s quiet, peaceful even, but i can’t shake it—like eyes are still on me, camera lens stretched between me and the night.
and dom—dom thinks warning me off is enough. that i’ll back down.
but he doesn’t know me half as well as he thinks he does.Coffee was too strong, or maybe it was just me, everything feels too strong lately, smells too sharp, light too bright, voices too loud, like my nerves don’t have skin anymore. i sat there with the mug in my hands, steam rising in my face, supposed to feel warm and safe or whatever but it didn’t, it felt like my heart was thumping so loud it drowned out the taste. i didn’t sleep. obviously i didn’t. every time i closed my eyes i was right back there, Dom’s hands on me, Dom’s voice low, rough, the way he said he couldn’t stay like it mattered to him, like it hurt him but not enough to stay. i kept waking up sweaty, covers twisted, head full of him. i hate it. i hate that i let it happen and i hate that i can’t stop replaying it.Dad walked in like nothing, like he always does, crisp shirt tucked in, tie already perfect like he doesn’t even breathe, like he’s made of something harder than the rest of us. he looked at me once, then again, too long, too sharp, and i swear my blood froze.
The rain was stupid loud by the time i made it up the steps, like not just wet, it felt personal, like it wanted me drowned before i even got the damn key in the lock. my coat weighed twice as much as it should, sticking to my arms like punishment, boots squelching, i could feel water in my socks and i hate that more than anything. my fingers were slipping on the keys, stupid yellow light buzzing over my head, and i swear i could hear my own breath louder than the rain. then—footsteps.I froze because of course i did, i’m always freezing when i should move. slow at first but then quicker, like an echo that didn’t belong to me. i whipped around, keys jammed between my fingers like that would do anything, and there he was. dom. just standing there at the bottom like some scene out of a bad movie. rain in his hair, dripping down his jaw, shirt plastered to him like skin. and his eyes, they always find me no matter what light, no matter where.“what are you doing here?” it came out sharpe
The stupid buzzing sign outside joe’s tap was the first thing, like it was already needling me before i even touched the door, it makes that low hum that gets in your teeth and the pavement was slick and the colors were bleeding like the whole street couldn’t hold itself together. i don’t even know why i stopped there. i should’ve gone home. dad wasn’t there, late meeting, said he’d be late and i knew the apartment would feel like walking into a dead space, no sound, no warmth, just the walls. i couldn’t. i told myself just a drink, just noise to drown out the silence.And then the heat hits me, that clinging smoky greasy bar heat, and for a second it’s better, like a blanket. smells like fries, beer, something sweet—whiskey maybe—something sticky. those dumb fairy lights draped uneven across the ceiling making everyone look softer than they were, shadows over wood, the bar gleaming like it’s too polished for this dump. wednesday and still packed, wings everywhere, pool balls clacking
I waited till everybody left, i mean i literally sat there like an idiot watching the second hand drag across that clock, tick tick tick, louder than it should be, like it was mocking me or warning me, i don’t even know. the office was so quiet by then, just the buzzing from the overhead lights and the click of my stupid pen i kept clicking open and shut because i couldn’t sit still, and i knew dad wasn’t gonna come back until late, he never comes back before seven when he’s got those meetings uptown, but still i kept waiting, what if this is the one day he changes, what if this is the one time i get caught.My legs felt wooden when i finally stood up, like they didn’t want to move. it’s so dumb, it’s just an office, just a door, and i know i’m not a thief but it felt exactly like that. the handle was so cold, i noticed that, colder than it should’ve been, metal biting into my palm like the room already knew i had no right being in there. i slipped in slow, not even breathing.the air
The rain finally stopped sometime in the night, i heard it dripping in the alley when i couldn’t sleep and thought maybe the world was being scrubbed clean or whatever but it didn’t feel clean this morning, it just felt… sticky. heavy. i got to the office too early, earlier than anyone should, heels sounding too loud on the tiles, like the place was empty enough to swallow the sound and echo it back at me. i hate when it’s that quiet, the fan humming and that stupid drip in the back alley like someone counting down time i don’t want to spend.Vincent’s door was cracked open. i don’t even know why i stopped. no, that’s a lie, i do know, i’ve been thinking about it for weeks, that itch in my brain like he’s hiding something, more than he ever says, more than he lets me see. he was at some meeting uptown, smiling and shaking hands, leaving me behind to keep everything neat. i told myself i was just looking for invoices because that’s believable, invoices don’t ask questions. but my hand
the morning wasn’t even supposed to feel weird. like it started… normal. sunlight doing that stupid stripe thing across the floor in the office, coffee machine already rumbling, printer smell (which i hate but it’s like stuck in my head now), and i walked in early—heels clicking too loud cause i was nervous for no reason, i don’t even know why, maybe cause of him, dom, i don’t know.and yeah he was already there. of course he was. always early. sleeves rolled up like he’s some cliché, pencil behind his ear like he’s the only one working. didn’t even look at me at first, then finally did, that half-second eye contact, quick little nod, nothing else. like the almost-kiss the other night didn’t happen. except it did. i feel it every time. it’s like this humming wire between us that neither of us wants to touch cause we’d burn. he acts like it’s not there but it is. i know it is.then vincent barges in, all wind and cologne like the outside world just follows him, and suddenly the whole r