A week had passed since then, and I think Iโve made a progress, but I also feel not. Things had been blurry since then and I'm so close to getting into jail but Blake went on just for the perfect time to save me, and together they get me out of trouble. It definitely adds up to my long list of shame and embarrassing moments and I put myself in solitude for that. But Tyler has become ignorant day by day. "That's what she should do, she's just going to get in another trouble if she runs free again," Tyler replied when a worried Tiffany knocks on my door. I'm in the farmhouse again and don't worry I'm not using Neneuis and friends' things without permission, I'm telling some 'please, let me use this' spiel every time I'm using them. And if ever Neneuis and her friends come back, I'll make sure the door of this farmhouse welcomes them. Honestly, I feel like this was their home now more than I do, I don't like the farmhouse but I have no choice but to live here, I don't want to go to
I mustโve caught a fever again. I covered my eyes with my hand and splayed my fingers, giving me the awareness that I'm not hallucinating and that the letter was real. I sat back on the sofa with my hand still covering my eyes and felt a pang hit me like a stab wound, I desperately pressed pressure on the entire zone of my eye; my headache was only in my other eye. It was a cluster headache, my phone flashed at me, it's amazing how you get information in just a few clicks with my phone. I cleared the search bar but watched as my thumb go up and down, do the internet really give you the real information in the world? I thought of searching for werewolves and their mates, but I ended up not believing the results of my search. I don't have much idea about a werewolf's mate, he did so tell me quite about it, but the realization that he may be experienced what he said to me makes my stomach churn. Does he know that all along? And that he planned to gain my trust and mark me as his? W
I stared blankly at my bedroom ceiling , I was waiting for my whole body to start functioning in the morning, I just woke up and my body was like paralyzed from the bed. I made out a yawn and pulled my arm out of the comforter, hands raised and palms open as if reaching for the ceiling. It doesnโt help me one bit from getting out of the bed but it makes me realized every time that everything that Iโm going through shall pass and what I want would happened. Though it also means what I'm trying to reach was unreachable and that I should give up, it gives me anxiety and gratification at the same time.I stretched my hands and fingers and pulled my body to sit, sometimes the morning just donโt start the way I wanted it, so I railed my hands up and pretend Iโm reaching to the ceiling, but the reality was just Iโm reaching on nothing. Some say we create our own fate, and that our destiny was already destined to us even before weโre born and we have our lifetime to find and reach it, but I
โWonโt you take me to your house?โ Andrea repeated as if the first one wasnโt enough for me to hear. But I stayed in my place, my hands didnโt move either did my expression, I just glance at her to make sure she was deadly serious about what she wanted. Iโm not a bad person, I know how she feels living with Richard and his mistress, it mightโve taken a toll on her, but I did leave fast because Richard want me to leave that time, we have different reasons why we keep on leaving, but itโs not far away of a reason for us to live together, right? "How about Ashton?" She rolled her eyes and puckered her lips as if what I just asked was so absurd. "Don't care about him much, god knows where he is, last time I heard he was sent to a boarding school, but I don't know, maybe he dropped out and bang some girls at this point?" "Andrea, he's your twin, we're going to call her later." For all the years we spent, Andrea and Ashton became real siblings to me, we grew up together and I canโt h
That evening, I tried everything I could to not get affected by what Tiffany said, I bite a matchstick while cutting onions and mix it with eggs. Andrea was upstairs, unpacking from the huge room painted with a lot of colors, I know that she doesn't like it, I could give her my room instead but she insisted on taking it even though the colors was an eyesore. "It's okay, i'll take it, I'm just going to occupy some space, rent-free." I'm quite amazed by the growth she has, I almost saw her in a different light if only I didn't caught the same blinding lights that was in my front door, I noticed my balcony wall has the same.I wonder how much watts were there in those lights, they're so bright, I swore when they fade away I'd moths were gonna vanished. "Harriet I forgot my toothbrush there, you have a spare one?" She stormed to the stairs and sad that out in one breathing. Seems like Andrea forgot what she said to me that she's going to have a share with the expenses of the house.
I started on myself in the mirror, I forgot how much I skipped meals to be able to lose weight like this, my uniform was terrible, I wore a tight-fitting skirt and I have to tuck in my black blouse with yellow lining because thatโs the requirement. I donโt have a choice but to follow if I wanted a job that canโt recognize me because people couldnโt care less about who their waitresses were, then I have no choice but to accept the farthest job from town possible. โI wouldโve let you borrow my make-ups if you and your friend didnโt make me cry the other night.โ Andrea sauntered toward me with her arms crossed and looking glumly at me as always. I straightened my skirt with my palms, still my eyes on the mirror, inspecting and criticizing every inch of my uniform. It's fortunate for Andrea that hers was just black pants and a checkered blouse with puff sleeves, sheโs working at a carnival, I should've applied there first before her. But just like she said, I made her cry the other nig
My shift ended when George closed the restaurant and I cleaned the last dirt off my assigned table at exactly ten p.m on the dot.I put my coat on and change into my comfortable slippers, we said goodbye to one another and we head out, my coworkers and I parted ways, each having their night appointments to do, some were going to a bar, partying, drinking, or just visiting the night market, while some were going home. Iโm one of the few that would go straight home. Because the restaurant was too far from where I lived, I need to catch the last bus for the night, Iโm about to sprint off when suddenly, a hooded man in a maroon sweater showed up in front of me. โHarriet, I thought you forgot about me.โ I scowled when Arnoldโs face got brightened by the street lights and I recognized him. โArenโt you going to sleep on your uncleโs place tonight?โ I mean, this was a long ride to the town.โOf course not, Iโm going to ride the bus with you.โ He pulled me closer and put his hand over
โYou two seem close.โ I hugged myself and sniffed hard, I have a runny nose and I keep on sneezing, so I have to close the balcony and have a hard time locating tissue paper in the living room. Andrea was laying on the sofa with her pajamas and a banana. "Who, we?โ I sank onto the one-sitter sofa and glumly stared at her, I know she knew who Iโm talking about. โTyler and I just met, I donโt think we can be that close.โ Andrea peeled the banana and took a slow painful bite while looking at me as if implying what she said was the opposite. โTylerโs so kind, he showed me his wolf form and it added more to his coolness.โ I remember hiding a tissue roll below the coffee table, but I couldnโt get myself to have it because I was too stunned by what she said. What? It took me months before I saw his bestial form, then I found out that the moment they first met, he transformed. why did he show it so quickly on Andrea?Andrea jumped and sit on the sofa, obvious that she was enjoying more
AhhhโฆI should just choose to stay in the town where I was raised, in the house of my father, and watched Priti grow, I want to say to everyone that Iโm honored to have her as a sister. I should just forget about the wolves and didnโt force to see the ending, who was my real parents, and why Artha steal me from my birth mother. I shouldnโt stay curious, I should just stay silent and uphold my peace. Then, I wouldnโt have to witness a fire, and blood spilled in the air, if only I didnโt get angry and pursued revenge on my father, I wouldnโt have had to meet the legendary wolf. Maybe thatโs his reason all along. He wanted me to stay by his side until he found my birth mother. He had to lie about his love story and keep secrets from me, and on the paper, I saw his name signed aside from the blank that I needed to sign. It just meant that he now let me become his neighbor. That was ironic. The house burned down, and I almost lived in his mansion for how long, itโs a pity that it was b
Just like any other movie or story โ it must end. The bad guy finally sprouted like a mushroom, I conversed with him, he plotted murder, and he was so ugly. Because of my coercion, he took me on his journey, with the help of others of course, Lea was pushing my wheelchair while Azi and Neneuis were on my side, and Blake and Tyler lead the way. โItโs not like Iโm doing this for you. That idiot brother of Tyler killed someone close to me too.โ Neneuis made clear while they were walking to enter the forest, Iโm wheelchair-bound for the rest of my life, so Lea just wheeled me. โYouโre pertaining to Lukas, right?โ I replied, confident that she was talking about him because thereโs only him, right?Neneuis smirked. โNot entirely, Iโm doing this for myself also,โ she said, then walked past us. Her outfit was back to the emo girl that I first met, she was wearing a black square-neck sleeveless blouse tucked in a brown wrap-around skirt and a black belt hugging her legs, because of her sh
They knewโฆ I returned to the room acting so scared and so cold, I fear for my future all of a sudden. They need to have a valuable reason why they didnโt tell me about my mother or elseโฆ Or else Iโll be seriously mad. I came back to bed with so many thoughts in my head and a heavy heart. Itโs not that I donโt know theyโve been hiding secrets, I know, itโs not like a person can live without hiding secrets from anyone, I believed we have three faces, and that also comes with secrets, we have private secrets, secrets we only knew, like for example in our body, I have three moles in my back, and I can be naughty at home, and be friendly and shy at school. There were secrets we could not tell everyone, thatโs just part of life and I respect that. But I didnโt know the secrets they hold were deeper than a well on a hot spring. I didnโt know it held the truth in me. They know who my birth parents were. Iโm anticipating to know, yet I also donโt want to know. My other problem, on Phi
I was blind. I knew there was something behind his force smile, and his gestures, and all. But who am I not to pull on security when I donโt know what to believe. Am I going to trust him or his brother? Whoโs telling the truth? Of course, the rational sense to believe on someone was with Tyler, I shouldโve believed in him and maybe the night wonโt end so bland, I enjoyed the longest time with him, and Iโm happy and at peace compared to his brother who I just met, he said he lurks in the shadows and have a creepy conversation with me at one moment, it sure gives me a warning sign and I almost believed in him. But who am I to believe Tyler was the one killing my friends? He clearly denied it and I wanted to believe him so bad but I couldnโt agree with him at that night, thereโs a voice saying I should not, obviously part of that was the last words of Lukas. โHarriet, whatever his brother said to you, believe him.โ What kind of sentence was that? Why does it have a double meaning
I tried to asked him what he meant but he closes his eyes and I froze, thatโs it? I leaned down to his chest but I didnโt feel a heartbeat, I wiped the tears from the back of my hand, Iโm not disappointed, I just realized that this was more painful than learning your mother had died. In this, I witnessed him catch his last breath, he told me his last word, I was with him just a moment ago, why did it have to happen like this? Then I remember, the headlights that focused on us, my tears-stricken face turned around, the smoke and mist lights up from the headlights, dusts and particles made me realize that it was cold and it was night, no oneโs supposed to be roaming around, but me, and the one who killed Lukas. I narrowed my eyes and focused onto the man who was on the car, like me, he was also frozen on his seat, I stood up and step forward, trying to recognize who was he. The road ends up at the beginning of the alleyway, it was a dead end here, if he did not purposedly drive on
My unexpected visit to my stepfather ended. The sky was getting dark when we reached outside. Now for the problemโฆ โWe donโt have a place to stay.โ I sighed, feeling the warmth the air has blown opposite us. โWe can go our separate ways and find a place,โ Lukas suggested. I stared at him long enough to think that Iโm positive he wouldnโt get killed, because Tylerโs brother was wrong, Lukas lost his memories, and Tyler wouldnโt kill someone with the same breed as his. No oneโs getting killed, why am I so convinced and calm at the fact that Tyler was killing my friends? No oneโs getting killed, I repeated. Tylerโs brother was wrong. I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply. โOkay,โ I agreed to what Lukas suggested, so he flew away while I watched his back disappear, I was about to walk on to the opposite direction too, but someone called my name again. My father has three footsteps now, but that made him more of a slow-walkerโsign of aging. โHarriet, I forgot to give you this,โ my stepfa
The man has a wooden crane with a gold head of an eagle that speaks of how he became rich after he banished all his children. Was this really what itโs like to be a grown-up? Youโre just suddenly tired from all the drama because it seems that it only repeats; itโs a life cycle, after the happiness, comes sadness, then happiness again then sadness, over and over, until youโre worn out until you question everything if itโs worth it until you couldnโt care less if someone leaves or dies. Lifeโs becoming dreadful for me, but to the man in front of me, it was the opposite, I can say that he doesnโt miss his children one bit. Iโm not jealous of Priti and Genevieve. As much as I donโt like it, he married her and has a baby. Priti deserves the thing that we, his children, didnโt taste. At least give Priti a father that wonโt leave when the mother dies, give her all that you can, and never lie to her. โHey, you looked pale.โ Lukas nudged me,
My plan was after Lukas and I left the place of the wolves and came back to the town where I really belong was to hunt down for a place to stay. But Iโm with someone who has lost his memory, and the gazes of people as they passed by us irks me. It was still fresh on them, that I lost my mom and rebel and came to the woods and I met the legendary wolf. I was fiddling with the online cash I had with my phone when Lukas tugged the hem of my sleeves. โLetโs eat something.โ I stared at Lukas. It was on cue that his stomach grumbled, so I gave in. I fished my wallet and was about to head to a cafรฉ, but then I remembered, theyโre the type of wolves that eat fresh meat. โWhat? Why? Arenโt we eating?โ โYes,โ I faced the direction of the supermarket instead, โletโs go buy some fresh meat,โ I declared and started walking, but the guy with me didnโt even take a step. โIโm okay with just waffles, what you eat.โ But the guilt in me resided, I turned to face him again and remembered that h
โHarriet, weโre sorry weโve done something bad to you.โ It was late in the afternoon, and we have just returned from the psychiatric hospital, I was about to swerve and go to Joshuaโs place when I reached the house of Neneuis and others, his house was just behind them but Azi and Lea showed up in the front porch and approached me. I was with Joshua all day, so I turned to him with utmost confusion. He just shrugged and motioned Blake and Tyler to emerge from the door. โHarriet, are you okay?โ Blake sounded so worried, he was in his guy form, I guess his feeling guilty because earlier, at dawn, when I met him with his second form โ Tiffany, she was so elegant like she just went to a party with the elites, turned out it was true, I learned that because her tongue slipped when she saw me with Joshua at breakfast, she was with Tyler, and they attend a charity ball along with other businessmen, and she tagged along as his date. Iโm not mad or jealous, in fact, Iโm relieved that the gir