Aaron
This by far has been the longest month and emotionally I am trying to cope but truth be told I can't. I pretend to be okay for David but as soon as the lights go off . I cry. I blame myself for Lexi bein in hospital . I can work from anywhere ; so for the past four weeks I've been working from the private room Alexis was in. Carlo Pirelli who happened to be involved in the accident too was also a regular visitor. He lost control of his car and the weather was also to blame. My routine had changed but as long as I could be here when Lexi wakes up I will have no regrets .
I wake up; get ready for work and make breakfast for David that's if Mary isn't up before me we eat together as a family, Mary leaves for work before I do, I drop Dave at his new school , and make my way to the hospital. Mary picks Dave up and I go home for dinner later. Carlo Pirelli who happened to be involved in the accident too was also a regular visitor
AlexisThere is a moment between sleeping and waking up ... the moment you take a deep breath ;come out of your REM state of mind , and open your eyes . I call that moment ; the breath of life. It is a pivotal moment when you realize that, you've made it through the night and you have lived to see another day... And then you breathe out. I call that a moment of thankfulness. Then there is a moment when all your switches jack up , and after being out of it for a while even if it was a couple of hours you consider yourself lucky .If you wake up next to someone you love to Pluto and back; when you wake up knowing that you have someone out there who cares that you are alive , or wake up knowing you will overcome whatever obstacles you face because you believe that everything is working for you and not against you... you are blessed.I have always had the fear of waking up and no one being there. I've lived alone for a while now so
AaronI miss her. I miss Lexi so much. I was told by Brent that ;she woke up the day I went back to the office. I tried to call her but her phone was disconnected. I hadn't been to my penthouse loft for the whole week . I wanted to stay at the estate because it was closer to work. I was going back to the loft this evening. It was our usual family dinner night. I wanted to go out for a change with both Mary and Dave, so I made a reservation for us at an Italian restaurant by the hill. When I arrived at the loft I touched base with Dave, got cleaned up and Mary drove us to the restaurant. Once we were seated we ordered our food, and started to talk ."So Dave how was your week?"" Dad it was fine. ""Okay. ""Aunty Mary tell dad what you did ... or I will."Something was up. Mary looked guilty. Something in me wondered what did she do. I loo
Alexis#song Max -Lights lowAlexisDreaming is good . What's even better is remembering what you dreamt during the night in the morning. .. However there comes a time when you need to wake up and stop dreaming. The question I always ask is; Why should we stop dreaming ? I have a tendency to answer my own questions while I talk and try and make sense of whatever the hell got me curious . You see dreams in a way are like reality .What you do consciously affects you at a subconscious level. As much as dreams are your brains way of escaping reality ...dreaming is your subconscious's way of making sense of your true nature ; about how you feel, what you really think of someone , and what scares you. You'd be surprised as to the levels you can ascend to when your mind is quiet. Dreaming in any form is important. It helps you unlock your imagination , and reconnect with the kid inside of you. The kid that believed that t
#Song- Miguel ft Janelle Monae - Prime time* smut content ahead.*🚨AaronLast night was the best night of my life. I love Lexi so much. At a point where I thought Mary had messed things up for me by telling her that I didn't love her, Alexis told me; she wanted me to explain myself, and it was unlike me to just send someone to tell her how I felt. We had a really amazing make up and catch up session, that lasted till this morning .I am a heavy sleeper and last night after Dave called me to say ;goodnight , I forgot to switch my alarm on . I wasn't going into work today in fact I was due back on Monday but I didn't tell Lexi. I was slowly coming around and my baby love wasn't in my arms but I could feel a weird sensation which felt familiar down south.The last time I felt that was on my wedding night and none of the women I was with dared to go down, because I had a nasty scar from the day I
#Song - Leela James - fall for youAlexisAaron looked at me with a sad face and a flash of sadness passed through his eyes. He let go of me and ran upstairs" Wow ... I cannot believe you ."I run after him and he was looking for something in his jacket." Aaron what are you looking for ?""The box. "" which one.""You only want me for sex . That's it.""You are over reacting and no I don't. "" I want to make you mine but you don't want us to have kids."" I didn't say that . What's gotten into you?"Aaron started breathing rapidly and it was a clear indication I triggered something." You are already planning on leaving me. Everyone I've loved just walks out on me or gets taken away . I'm already losing you."Aaron sat on the bed and started taking deep breaths. He also covered his face ." Aaron you didn't let me finish downsta
#song Craig Lucas - Hearts ExposedAaronI haven't felt like this in a long time. I had lost all hope in love; the kind of life that ignites your soul with passion , fire, and flame . Being together with Lexi without any interruptions, has been like heaven . Strangely enough it feels so totally new. I am falling in love again and this time it's different. We both speak the same love language; she is responsive, doesn't bite my head off and we are both very giving.I paid her back in full for waking me up with awesome head this morning.It was already twelve thirty in the afternoon and she was still knocked out cold. I am addicted to Alexis and I am not getting off her anytime soon... except for when I also need my morning dose of her. She looks so peaceful like an angel. I didn't want the moment I was in to end, I wanted to bottle it up and keep it forever. I leaned down to kiss her foreh
#Song - Halsey Without meAlexisFriends ... A very complicated but given what I had heard and what just happened . I think its apt .My evening and early morning were quiet eventful. Tina unfriended me in real life which was a surprise because we were good friends until she called me this morning telling me that we are no longer friends she was unfriending me in real life. On top of that her new friend Mary just told Aaron I have no friends .I've dealt with fraudulent friends before; I guess you can say that I've had experience. It starts with you wishing them happy birthday ; but when it's their turn to wish you happy birthday , you either get nothing in the form of a wish, or present.You kind of let it slide ;because you honestly want to believe that there is a reasonable explanation as to why absolutely no one in your circle of so called friends ,
AaronA wise woman once told me that; there is no such thing as coincidence, you're either meant to cross paths again or meet at a later stage. I am messing up what she said and she would correct me if she could. My day was eventful and I hadn't anticipated it to end the way it did after what happened. When I called Lexi she picked up and didn't hang up on me . I told her that I wanted to really see her and I was invited to a dinner I almost forgot about but Amy called me and I said yes. It turns out we were invited to the same dinner and I was seated next her. She looked amazing with the pink top and her hair tied up in a pony tail .Her eyes looked a bit swollen but she looked beautiful. I hated myself for what happened but as long as my sister is in good hands and my son is okay ... I am fine ... well half fine because I missed my girlfriend. When I made it to the restaurant with Amy; Tina , and Gavin on time and we were seated after getting Amy