Chapter 7

Waking up to the sound of Neveah crying. Getting out of bed, I made my way towards her crib, leaning over to pick her up. Realising she only had half a bottle left when I reached out to grab it to feed her. I forgot to make her bottle’s last night because a certain someone I just wanted to get in my room away from him.

Cradling Neveah in my arm, I fed her with the other one and sat down in the rocking chair. It didn’t take long for the bottle to be empty. Neveah’s little eyes were open staring at me, and didn't look like she was going to sleep any time soon. Might as well go make her 2 more bottles for when she wakes up again in the middle of the night because it was only 2 o’clock in the morning. Throwing a nappy over my shoulder in incase a little milk comes out when she burps.

Laying Neveah down on the bed for a moment to do the kriss kross baby wrap, to keep her close to me while I am busy. I love this method because it is more convenient for me when I'm at home, then I don’t have to put on the baby carrier but only when we go out to go shopping. Elena showed me how to do it and never stopped using it. What I love about it most is that Neveah falls asleep while I walk around the house with her just laying on my breast quietly.

Picking up Neveah, I placed her inside making sure that she was secure and wasn’t going to fall out. Walking out of my room going towards the living room I stopped in my tracks realising Dominic was sleeping in the living room. He should be asleep but I doubt it because that couch is too small for him. Walking past the living room to the kitchen not looking his way but it did look like he was asleep. Looked like he was, from the angle of my eye when I walked past. I couldn’t see in the kitchen but I could put on the kitchen lights since it is my place. Neveah let out a sound almost as if she knew what I wanted to do.

“Fine, mamma won’t put on the lights but how is mamma supposed to see now.” I said looking down at Neveah who was chewing on her index finger.

Going back to my room to grab my phone on the nightstand, so I could use the flashlight instead. Placing my phone against something so it could stand up right and make light where I’m currently busy. Turning on the kettle I sat down on a bar stool behind the island waiting for the water to finish boiling.

“You know baby girl, you're the best thing that has happened to me and I would never regret taking you home with me that day. I could have never left you in that hospital knowing what the world is like out there. I may not know what I’m doing but I’m still learning everyday just for you my little flower.To give you the best life possible.” I said looking down at Neveah stroking her baby hair.

“My baby is getting big, growing up so fast and is going to be 5 months in two weeks. For why are you growing up so fast, little one. You're still going to be my baby girl even when you're a teenager. No boy will get near you without going through me first. You know….. you're going to have a really hard time having a boyfriend one day because I will drive every one of them away. And if one day you find the right one I will accept him…. only because of you.” I said, planting a kiss on her forehead when she looked up.

“I’ll even get my hands dirty if I have to but I think your grandfather would deal with all of that if he has to without hesitation.” I said letting her hold onto my index finger with her little hands.

“It’s still afternoon over there by him. We could call him real quick and check up on him but I don’t want to call and then he is in the middle of business. I’ll call him in the morning then you can talk with him.” I said standing up when the kettle was done.

Pouring the hot water into the sink with the bottle’s I already placed in the sink. Opening the tab to cool the water a little so I could be able to put my hands in it. Looking down at Neveah before I started to clean her bottles she was just laying there peacefully. Cleaning the bottle’s I made sure to scrub every little space, making sure they were cleaned properly. Draining the water I placed everything in the steriliser, closing the lid. Rinsing my hands, drying them off, I went to my room grabbing Neveah’s pacifier and gave it to her. It should take about an hour to be done but usually it takes longer but I had to make her a bottle for tonight.

Walking up and down in the kitchen, patting Neveah’s back softly trying to make her fall asleep. I started to hum a song, I tried learning to sing her to sleep. After about 5 minutes she was asleep, holding on tight to my t-shirt with her little hand. Realising it was the white button down Dominic gave me that I still had on. I forgot about still having it on and went to sleep with it. The hour passed and the steriliser was done, taking out everything I placed on the counter putting it back together. Turning on the kettle I started to prepare 2 bottles, scooping the powdered milk in them.

It was pass 3 and I’m supposed to stand up in a few hours to get ready for work. And here I thought he wasn’t going to be able to sleep because of how big he is. But it looked like he was peaceful. The water was done, pouring just enough warm water in the bottles. Making sure that the water and powdered milk was mixed properly. Placing the bottle on my night stand I walked over to her crib. Taking her carefully out of the kriss kross wrap, I placed her in her crib taking out her pacifier from her mouth.

Taking off the baby wrap I made sure to take off the white button down. Walking towards my closet I took out a black oversized t-shirt, putting it on. Walking back to my side of the bed, I climbed under the covers and went back to sleep or tried to go back to sleep. I laid awake for about 15 minutes turning in bed until I fell asleep.