The day moved fast, the way it always does when my hands are busy and my mind’s a thousand miles away.
Harvesting isn’t glamorous, but there’s something meditative about the rhythm of it—snip, sort, repeat. The sticky-sweet smell of the plants, the warmth of the sun on my back, the hum of casual conversation around me. It grounded me, kept me from spinning out too far in my head. Tyler trotted along beside me like he owned the place, his tail wagging at a consistent, happy beat. The owners of the farm—thank the universe—were laid-back and totally fine with him tagging along. Honestly, I think he was more popular than I was. He’d made best friends with every person on the crew, collecting belly rubs and sneaky treats like some kind of golden-furred politician. I couldn’t take two steps without someone stopping to coo at him. “Is he always this perfect?” one of the trimmers asked me, rubbing behind his ears. “Only when he’s awake,” I grinned, watching Tyler lean into the attention like a king receiving tribute. By late afternoon, the sun dipped low enough to cast everything in golden light. I found myself leaning back against a wooden crate, watching the way Tyler’s fur shimmered as he chased a butterfly through the rows. I had one week left on the farm. Just one. And then? I didn’t know. That was both the magic and the ache of this life. The freedom. The wide-open nothing. The choose-your-own-adventure of it all. It thrilled me. It terrified me. That night, after washing the day’s dust from my skin and slipping into my comfiest sleep shirt, I curled up in bed with Tyler already passed out at my feet. My van glowed with the soft, warm light of string lights overhead, and the air smelled faintly of lavender from the sachet I kept above the bed. I pulled out my phone, opened I*******m, and scrolled to the draft I’d queued up this morning. It was a photo of me and Tyler on the beach a some time ago—me in a bikini, holding Tyler’s paw, both of us mid-laugh (okay, I was laughing, Tyler just looked majestic) on a beach somewhere along the Oregon coast. I tapped the caption box and deleted what I had written earlier. Instead, I typed: “Inseparable. And honestly? I wouldn’t have it any other way.” #vanlife #goldenhour #wanderwithblue #homeiswhereheis I hit post. Within minutes, the likes started rolling in—five thousand in the blink of an eye. Two hundred comments followed, most of them from people I’d met on the road. Travelers, dreamers, dog lovers, kind souls I’d crossed paths with at campgrounds and beaches and gas station parking lots. All of them cheering me on, loving Tyler, telling me they missed us. I smiled, phone resting on my chest, heart a little fuller than before. Yeah. This life wasn’t always easy. But it was ours. And that counted for everything. I pulled my MacBook out from the cubby next to my bed and propped it on my lap, My fingers hovered over the keys as I opened up my maps and zoomed out, just enough to see the whole damn continent stretched in front of me. One week left here. I could already feel it—the itch. The buzz under my skin that always hit right before a big move. The kind of restlessness that made my bones vibrate, made the horizon feel like a dare. I wasn’t sure where I wanted to go next. South felt too hot, too familiar. West? Been there, done that. I let the map guide me like it always did, my eyes scanning, half on instinct. Toronto. My heart paused for a beat. I zoomed in, just enough to see the shape of the city against the lake, a cluster of streets, green parks, a glittering skyline. International border, yeah—but that was part of the thrill. It felt big. Bold. A little chaotic. Totally alive. I clicked open a few tabs—campgrounds outside the city, pet-friendly hotels just in case, a blog post about hidden gems in Toronto, a travel reel from someone who looked like they’d stepped out of my dreams. Music festivals. Street art. Coffee shops and local bands and lakeside sunsets. Yes. I felt that familiar buzz in my chest again. That moment where it all starts to click into place. The next step. The next story. I opened my notes app and started typing: – Route options – Passport check – Tyler’s vet records for crossing the border – Harvest gigs along the way – Places to sleep, eat, explore I glanced over at Tyler, his paws twitching like he was chasing something in his dreams. “Hope you’re ready to go international, buddy.” He let out a sleepy woof and wagged his tail once. I grinned. “I’ll take that as a yes.” I kept the momentum going, letting the glow of the screen guide me deeper into planning mode. With one hand lazily scratching Tyler behind the ears, I opened up TravelSurfer, the site I always came back to when I needed something to tether me for a few weeks. Temporary jobs, odd gigs, work-trade listings—it was a lifeline for people like me, the half-wild, half-wandering. I typed “Toronto” into the search bar and hit enter. It loaded slowly—thanks, satellite internet—and then: boom. Dozens of listings. Dog walker, farmhand, retail clerk, mural assistant… but one stood out. A barista job at a cute little café downtown. The listing mentioned oat milk, playlists, and an “easygoing, artsy vibe.” I didn’t need much more than that. I clicked through, heart doing a soft flutter. The photos showed string lights, mismatched mugs, handwritten chalk menus. I could already picture myself behind the counter, pulling shots of espresso, chatting with regulars, maybe journaling between shifts. I hit apply without hesitation, filled out the short form, linked my @wanderwithblue profile, and wrote a quick note about how I made a mean lavender latte and had a dog that could probably charm even the grumpiest customer. Once I submitted it, I sat back against the pillows and let out a slow breath. Now came the worst part—waiting. But I was used to that, too. You learn patience when the road is your home. When every plan depends on weather, timing, and the kindness of strangers. Tyler stretched and rolled over, belly up and tongue lolling. I nudged him with my foot. “Manifest it, buddy. Mama needs a good cup of coffee and some city noise.” He sneezed in response. Fair.The moonlight filtered through the van’s curtains in slanted bars. Blue was curled up beside me, breathing slow and steady, wrapped in Tyler’s warmth. I watched her chest rise and fall, the soft curve of her collarbone, the way her hair fanned across the pillow. My heart felt like it might burst. But I couldn’t sleep. Not until I told her the truth. I shifted so I could look at her face. “Blue?” She stirred but stayed asleep. I brushed a kiss to her temple. “You deserve to know everything about me.” I sat up, pulling my knees to my chest. Tyler lifted his head, nosed my hand, then settled again. I took a breath and began. “My parents—” I paused, swallowing. “They run a real business. A big one. Offices, suits, boardrooms. I did my time at business school, got the degree. It was expected—get the credentials, prove yourself, then step into the family empire and run it one day.” My fingers traced the lion tattoo on my forearm. “When I told them I wanted to be a musician inste
We lay tangled together in the quiet, skin still slick and hearts still racing like they hadn’t gotten the memo that the storm was over. His fingers traced lazy circles along my spine, up and down, again and again, like he was trying to learn my shape in braille. The van felt like a heartbeat—quiet, alive, and completely ours. He kissed the top of my head and murmured, “Can I ask you something?” “Mmhmm,” I hummed against his skin. He tilted his head, curiosity warm in his voice. “Why are you named Blue?” I smiled lazily, not even opening my eyes. “You’re not the first person to ask.” He chuckled softly. “I’m sure I won’t be the last.” I sat up slightly so I could see him, brushing my fingers along his jaw. “My parents named me Blue because they wanted me to be endless. Like the sky. They wanted me to be free and fearless. Untamed. To live without fences. That’s what my mom always said. She wanted me to grow up knowing the world didn’t have to be something you stayed inside the
I jumped into his arms like there was no one else on this damn planet. Legs locked around his waist, arms around his neck, and I didn’t care who was watching anymore. Teddy caught me without missing a beat—like he’d been waiting, aching, praying for this moment. He buried his face in my neck and whispered something like “thank fuck,” but I couldn’t hear it over the roar in my ears. We didn’t say a word. He carried me across the field like I was weightless. Past the tents. Right up to my van—our van, lately. “Brody’s got Tyler,” he muttered as he yanked the door shut behind us, locking the world out in one slam. Then he turned and looked at me like he was starving. But before he could even touch me, I pushed him. He landed hard on the bed, wide-eyed. “Oh, we’re doing this?” “We’re doing this,” I said, crawling on top of him like sin in bare skin and determination. He reached for me, hungry, but I pinned his wrists down. “Nope. My turn.” Teddy looked at me like he’d just been st
I don’t sleep. I pace. I write and rewrite a hundred versions of what I want to say—half songs, half confessions, none of them good enough. My notebook looks like I bled out on the page. By the time the sun starts creeping over the edge of the trees, I have a plan. No more playing it safe. No more hiding the parts of myself I think she’ll run from. It’s the last day of the festival. People are hungover, shuffling around camp with sunglasses and half-open beers. Brody tosses me a sideways look when I tell him what I’m about to do. “You sure?” he asks. “No,” I say. “But I’m doing it anyway.” I find the guy running sound for the main stage, offer him a handshake and a favor to cash in later. Then I go looking for her. She’s crouched outside the van with Tyler, hair tied up in that effortless, messy way she doesn’t realize is sexy as hell. She looks up when she hears my footsteps, but her face is unreadable. Like she’s not sure how to hold me anymore. “Come with me,” I say. S
I wasn’t even sure how I’d ended up at this bonfire. Some kid from another band had passed me a bottle of Jack and pulled me into their circle like I was one of them. Laughs, smoke, stories—none of it registered. I wasn’t really here. I hadn’t been since she stormed off. My knee bounced restlessly as I stared into the fire, my hands twitchy with the kind of energy that couldn’t be burned off with a drink. I’d tried to talk to her earlier—hell, I’d wanted to fix it. But her eyes were a wall. Ice behind sunshine. I knew I was losing her. Knew it the second she asked what I was doing after tour and I couldn’t give her the answer she deserved. Because I couldn’t say home. Couldn’t say my real life is a cage my parents built for me. Couldn’t say I want you, but I don’t know how to keep you when I’m not even free myself. So I gave her nothing. And now I had nothing. Someone changed the music, and I heard the opening chords of Whiskey and Rain. The crack of the fire masked most of th
The fire crackled low, casting golden shadows across the faces gathered around it. This wasn’t the same bonfire where I’d seen Teddy. That one still lived in the pit of my stomach like a coal. This one, though? It felt safer. Softer. Like a place I could sit down and not unravel. Luke and I were perched on a couple of folding camp chairs, red solo cups in hand. Someone had connected a speaker, and Morgan Wallen’s voice drifted through the trees like a worn-out prayer. I took a slow sip, feeling the sting of bourbon on my lips and the smoke in my lungs. “You know,” Luke said, glancing over at me, “I thought you were just another influencer when I first saw you.” I smirked. “Ouch.” He held up a hand. “Let me finish. I thought you were just pretty pictures and perfectly filtered van shots. But then you opened your mouth and started talking shit, and I was like—hell, she’s real.” I laughed. “I’ll take that as a compliment.” His eyes lingered on mine, steady and kind. “It is.
Rage Cage had chewed me up and spit me out. My head was spinning in that warm, buzzy way where I wasn’t drunk-drunk, but definitely riding the line. I ditched my empty solo cup on a folding chair and staggered away from the glowing chaos of the circle, hand to my forehead like I was shielding myself from a hangover that hadn’t even arrived yet. “I gotta pee,” I told no one and everyone. The music was still bumping behind me as I wandered past tents, strings of fairy lights, and a couple making out on an inflatable mattress. Typical. I found the edge of the forest, the unofficial latrine for half the festival, and was just about to dip behind a tree when a flicker of firelight caught my eye. A bonfire. Crackling, low, intimate. Not one of the big ones surrounded by drunk campers singing Wagon Wheel at full volume. This one was smaller, tucked into a dip in the land where the trees thinned out. And it had… people. Quiet laughter. Talking. One head tilted toward another. A
The pounding on the van door shook the last bit of rose clay from my face. I blinked at Sadie through half-wiped streaks and we both froze, listening. “Let’s go, party girls!” Thomas’s voice boomed through the cracks. “Drinking games are starting!” Sadie grinned at me through her sheet mask. “We’re not turning that down.” I hesitated, nerves fluttering like a trapped moth under my skin. But Sadie gave me her classic don’t make me drag you look, and I caved. “Okay, okay,” I sighed, peeling off the rest of the mask. “Outfit change. Two minutes.” She skipped off toward the tent she and Brody were sharing while I ducked back into the van. Tyler trotted in behind me, tail wagging like he knew the vibes were shifting. I pulled on a yellow bikini top with a matching cheeky bottom, then slid into low-rise jean shorts that clung just right. My black Chacos were practical but gave outdoorsy hot girl energy. I re-braided my hair into two neat plaits, tugged a few wisps free to fra
The van was dark, save for the soft amber glow of the fairy lights strung along the ceiling. My boots were still on, half-off the bed, one heel digging into the edge of my blanket. Tyler was curled tight against my chest, breathing slow and steady like he was trying to regulate my heartbeat with his own. I didn’t know how long I’d been lying there—maybe ten minutes, maybe forever. A soft knock tapped against the van door. I stayed still. Maybe if I didn’t move, whoever it was would take the hint and go. Another knock. Louder this time. Then a voice. “Blue?” Sadie. I wiped my face quickly, dragging my sleeve across my cheeks, but I didn’t say anything. “Babe, I’m opening the door,” she said gently. “Don’t freak.” The latch clicked and the sliding door creaked open. A gust of cool air rolled in, laced with woodsmoke and beer and the distant thump of bass. Sadie stepped in like she’d been here before. Like she already understood the silence. She closed the door behind