Serena - Space

I collapse into the bed. Frustrated at Diesel and how he reacts. I understand though, he was hurt over and over by everyone he loved. So his reaction is to expect the worst from people.

All I wanted was a day without the shit, but it has come just as quickly as the morning sun rises. Part of me wants to hide away in here, just pretend the world doesn't exist. 

Actually, I feel like screaming and killing Diesel, he is so blinded by his own past, his own pain and fears he hasn't even realised or thought how I feel. 

Jake is still out there. Fear burns through me and has since the moment I thought I could be pregnant. Every day the past is on replay, and with how volatile Diesel is, I am afraid of the ending. 

Sure he wouldn't hurt me on purpose, but I have seen how quickly he loses control, how angry he gets and forgets to get all the information. Like today.

He just assumed it was Jessies, assumed that it meant I knew and kept it hidd