I COULD barely sleep last night thinking about what might happen when Zandy and I moved out of the house. I'm just thinking about what's going to happen, I'm sure both of our heads will hurt because I know we won't get along. We will have a hard time getting along with each other. I don't even know if I can live with him even for a day.I snorted and sobbed when I finished telling Andrea about my conversation with my Mom and Aunt Mandy about Zandy and me moving out. "I didn't do anything, Andrea, if I didn't agree to what they wanted. I hate him. I don't want to live with him in the same house because every time I see the man—gay or whatever he is, I just remember what he did and Roven to me," I complained while I couldn't paint my face.We are currently outside the building where we work to eat. It's lunchtime and Andrea and I are at a restaurant. I haven't been able to move my food because of the irritation I feel. I still can't get out of my mind what could happen when Zandy and I
"HONEY, I'm here."I feel suddenly warm even though I can feel the cold night air. How dare he call me Honey in front of my coworkers. Is he crazy?I wasn't going to pay attention to Zandy and was just going to act like I didn't hear anything when Melissa suddenly screamed while Shai and Chad were asking who that man was.I closed my eyes tightly and slowly, facing Zandy. What a look, still smiling! What else did he think of to call me Honey?"OMG! Miles, is he your husband?" Melissa asked as if seeing an artist as her cheeks were flushed and her face was full of excitement. She turned to me and slapped my arm."Aw! Melissa, it hurts," I complained and moved my arm away from her. "Shocked? Surprised? You want him, then he's now yours." I joked."So, is it true he's your husband?" Shai asked to confirm.I turned to Andrea who was also laughing. I also briefly looked at Zandy who was standing in front of his car. I looked back at my coworkers and slowly nodded. "Yes, he's my husband. Is
WE CHOSE to eat at a nearby restaurant, where a band was playing on stage. There were many people in the place and it was open, which is why I could feel the cold air blowing on my body."Are you sure, Zandy, that this place is okay with you? You're rich and you don't belong in this place," Andrea asked Zandy again when we sat down at the empty table.Zandy smiled and bowed for a moment. "Don't treat me like a rich man tonight. Besides, I also want to experience this simple life. Just think that we're on the same ground," said Zandy seriously.I was silent as I was simply stunned by what Zandy was saying which was hard to believe. Why is it that if he acts on someone close to me, it seems that he is kind and did nothing to me? I'm disgusted and angry at his pretending to be so kind to them."Hang on, Chad, order food and drinks so we can start the party," Melissa ordered Chad, who was sitting next to her. Zandy and I are next to each other while Andrea and Shai are opposite."Are you o
I FEEL that the surroundings are spinning. I feel dizzy because of the alcohol I drank. I didn't realize that I drank more alcohol because of the happy conversation and laughter that we had."We're going home now. Thank you, Zandy, for the drinks and food for us tonight," I heard Chad say goodbye as if he wasn't drunk. "I'm going to take Melissa home because she doesn't seem to be able to go home alone," he added.Even though I was dizzy, I still understood what they were saying, but I'm sure that the next morning, I'll forget what happened."Shhh! I-I can go home, huh? I'm not drunk, Chad, I can go home alone," Melissa said, almost closing her eyes and unable to understand what was being said as Chad supported her. She's still poking Chad's cheek and he's avoiding Melissa's finger."Thank you, Zandy, and congratulations again to both of you. Thank you for tonight. We're going home and I'm sure my husband is waiting for me." Shai laughed, her cheeks were reddened but she didn't look d
I winced when I opened my eyes because of the pain that came from my head. I also feel that my throat is dry and it hurts a little. I moved slowly and I was blinded again by the sunlight that penetrated the window of my room.I leaned against the headboard and gently massaged my head. My body is weak and I don't want to move. "What happened?" I asked in surprise. I tried to remember what happened last night but I frowned because I couldn't remember everything. I don't even remember how I got home. I quickly looked at what I was wearing because I wondered what happened to me. When I saw that I was still wearing my clothes, I breathed a sigh of relief. "How did I get home?" I asked myself.The last thing I remember, we left that restaurant with Shai, but she also left us. That's it and I don't remember anything else. I winced again as my head throbbed again, probably brought on by a hangover. Why did I drink and get drunk last night? I don't know what happened. What if I or Zandy did so
I LOOK at the wristwatch I'm wearing. Until now, I'm still here in my room and wondering if I'll show up for the date they prepared for Zandy and me. It's six o'clock in the afternoon and mom said our date at a well-known restaurant is at eight o'clock.I closed my eyes tightly while lying on my bed. The man I saw earlier in the mall came back to my mind. I opened my eyes and saw the white ceiling."Roven," I said. Why do I still feel pain to this day? But I also know that despite the pain, there is longing and joy that appears in my heart. It's been over a year since I last saw Roven and earlier, when I saw him, I didn't know how to feel. Will I be angry or happy because I saw him?I shook my head several times. My mind is once again confused because of Roven. I shouldn't care about him anymore but why do I still feel this way? Why can't he get out of my mind?I can't deny that I want to talk to him and ask him everything. I also want to hear his side, his explanation. I'm left with
I COULDN'T look at Zandy as his car drove us to the restaurant where we were supposed to be on a date. I tried to remember what I did last night and it all came back to my mind. I don't know how to deal with Zandy. He was right, I was crazy last night.I'm ashamed of myself, even of Zandy because of what I do and say. I suddenly regretted drinking a lot. I remembered that I was the one who challenged Zandy to kiss me, I even brought my lips closer to him because I thought he couldn't do that. I forgot that he did that when we got married.Later the car stopped in front of a restaurant. It looks very elegant from the outside and it can't be denied that almost only rich people eat there. It was a glass wall with strange lights hanging from the top. The table and chairs there are also not typical.I didn't wait for Zandy to open the car door for me and it didn't look like he was going to do that either. I first looked at the whole building and couldn't help but smile and marvel at its un
I CAN'T GET OUT OF MY MIND the argument Zandy and I had last night. I still can't get rid of my annoyance and anger toward him."Miles, you seem too quiet?" I heard Melissa say that she was close to me. "Your article, oh, you're being talked to, you're not paying attention," she joked."Yes, I've seen you like that before. What happened? Did you and your handsome husband fight?" asked Andrea who moved the swivel chair closer to me.I looked at them seriously. "No, I just thought of something," I reasoned. "Alright, go back to your work," I shooed them away, then faced my monitor again."Do you want to drink again later?" Melissa offers.I faced her and frowned. I will not drink again because I only remember what happened that night. Maybe the next time I get drunk, more than a kiss will happen. "No thanks, Melissa I'm busy. I have many articles to finish," I reasoned."Ok, fine," Melissa agreed and moved her swivel chair towards the opposite of her monitor.I have tried several times