Chapter 3 – Fear of Punishment
“What is your name?” he asked, dominance was so clear and evident in his voice.
My eyes went to nowhere. Lost. I do not know the answer to his question. I was never given one. My father never named me and that family only called me with degrading words, filthy, dog, trash, and many more that I already forgot even though they had used it frequently for 16 to 17 years. At least what I only know about me was my birthday, because every time that day comes, everyone’s mood were sour and my works would get heavier, and they would not stop reminding me of how a being like me had to exist in this world.
“Answer me, doll. What’s your name?” the Alpha asked in a more warning tone as he held my chin to make me meet his eyes again.
His grip on my chin scared me of what he is going to do. Unconsciously, a tear escaped my eyes due to the fear that had risen in me.
“I-I am sorry, Alpha.” I apologize even though I did nothing wrong. My lips quivering at each word that I had uttered.
Maybe existing in this world was my mistake. Thriving to live was my wrong.
Why did I swim faster than the other sperm cells anyway? Why did I even have to win that race?
“You are not answering my question, doll.” His grip tightened on my chin, but his touch did not send me pain but a different shiver in my spine and tingles that crawls under my skin. However, my fear towards him was dominating everything of me.
I shook my head to answer him.
“Words, doll.” He uttered, asking me to answer him in words.
“I… I-I do not have a name, Alpha.” I replied meekly but he smirked and released my chin.
“Are you trying to lie to me?”
Again, I shook my head and that was when he frowned.
“Get on the bed.” He instructed and my eyes widened in fear. I hugged my knees closer to me and buried my face on my arms, shaking my head as tears started to pool on my eyes, hands trembling, and the quivering of my lips did not stop causing me to pressed them into a thin line.
“Please, no, Alpha.” I muttered under my breath, trying not to hiccup.
I flinched when I felt his hand on the side of my leg. My toes curled in fear, wanting to resist. Then his other hand went on my back, and out of instinct, I kicked him and moved away from him, looking at him coming near me.
I figured that I had nowhere to go as my back only constantly hitting the footboard.
Then in a second, he lifted me in a swift and I trembled in fear as he put me down on the bed.
“Please.” I cried as I was not able to stop my tears to cascade on my cheeks anymore.
While standing on the ground, he bent down and placed his palms on the mattress at the both sides of my head.
“Do not cry.” He uttered, looking me in the eyes.
“Alpha, please do n-not do it. I will do a-any job you will g-give me, just please don’t.” I stammered.
“I said, do not cry.” He warned and it only caused me to tremble more. I clenched my fist to control my tears, but it was futile.
“You should learn to listen to me, doll, you know that there are consequences of not being obedient right?”
Meekly, I nodded.
He lifted his hand and was about to touch my cheek but I moved away, bracing my arms on my chest as if it could do something to protect me, but I know that my hands are just like a flimsy disk compared to the Alpha’s strength.
He sighed and let his hand fall back on the mattress as he shut his eyes tight and stood up properly. He took a step back and then the next thing I felt was the duvet covering my body and then the door gently shutting close.
Puzzled, I stared at the ceiling with the bedside lamp glowing at my tear stained face. My palm unconsciously gripped the duvet as my mind went into haywire.
I do not understand. My heart was like being squeezed at the action the Alpha did.
Why? Why did he not hurt me?
Why did he cover me with this duvet?
Why did he not scold me when I did not listen to him? Why did he not slap me for crying?
Isn’t it that people hated it when they see someone crying? when they see me crying? Doesn’t that annoy them?
I do not understand why I am feeling something foreign right now.
My mind travelled with a lot of questions until I drifted to sleep again.
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I woke up with the sunlight striking my face, and the soft mattress beneath my back was so new to me. I am not used to lying on something like this. The duvet was still covering me and what happened last night flashed in my head. How the Alpha acted towards me. He did not touch me, he did not hit me for crying and not listening to him. He did not hurt me. But why? I am supposed to get beaten, isn’t it?
Wait… sunlight?
Oh my goddess! I woke up late. I might get punished for this. I had to wake up early and serve them… Like how I always did with my father’s family. I would wake up before the sun shows up, cook for them and do the chores. As much as possible I would try to avoid them and lock myself up in the basement before, and I had to wake up early at those times so that I could sneak some food with me, but if they caught me in the kitchen, another bruises will be introduced in my body.
I quickly moved out of my bed and washed my face first before I ran out of my room. But I stopped on my track when I wondered where I should go and what I should do.
Should I go in the kitchen and cook? In the laundry to wash the clothes? In the garden?
Shall I go find the Alpha and show my gratitude for not hurting me last night?
Right, that is what I had to do first, because he might hurt me if I am not grateful at his kindness.
The pack house was quiet and empty. I do not know what time it is already but by judging the position of the sun, it is already late, probably around 9 in the morning.
I cleared my throat when I felt it dry coz I had never drank anything since before I was sent at the auction.
I have decided to go find the kitchen first and quenched my thirst. I descended the stairs and there were just too much hallways leading to different directions, I do not know where to go. I might get lost or worse bump onto someone who would decide to hurt me. And I do not know anyone here.
Taking my useless non existing luck, I entered the left wing, but I did not saw the kitchen but it just led to another door, I tried the other wing, but it only led to the backyard. So far, I am thankful that I have not bumped on someone yet. I am not even sure if I am allowed to come out of my room.
I stepped on the next wing and found the dinner table, at the end of it was the Alpha. I stopped on my track and the Alpha had noticed my presence. He put down his cup of coffee and looked at me. I lowered my gaze, not wanting to meet his eyes for I know that would mean as a challenge to him since he is the Alpha.
Weirdly, again, I caught the scent of citrus lemon in the air. I wanted to inhale it but that would be inappropriate since the Alpha is just around. I had decided to walk towards him while fiddling on my hands.
“A-Alpha. I apologize for waking up late. It will not happen again. A-and t-thank you for n-not hurting me last night, Alpha… I… I…” even though I am so thirsty and hungry at the same time already, I swallowed my saliva and had decided not to eat instead since it looks like I have nothing to have here anyway. I should probably wake up earlier next time so I could see some food here or somewhere.
“I know I have to work now, Alpha, b-but may I a-ask where the laundry room is? And the cleaning materials? So I could start my chores now Alpha and finish soon.” I said, but I did not hear a response from him.
I peeked at him under the hood of my eyes, and when I saw him looking at me with a very serious face, exuding authority in the room, I quickly lowered back my gaze and waited for his orders.
“Who told you to do those?” he asked.
“I… N-no one, Alpha. I… I should go back to my room then, Alpha. I must stay inside and wait for your orders. I must not come out and walk around the house. I apologize, Alpha.” I uttered as the words flow out of my mouth easily like a rehearsed speech.
The same words that I had to repeatedly say to my previous family every time I commit mistake.
My life is going back to where it started again. Locked up, hidden, only allowed to come out when ordered and when it is time to do the chores.
Not waiting for his response anymore, with my bared feet since I did not have my slippers when I was took at the auction, I stepped back while my head remained bowed down. Then I turned around and walked fast to the stairs, ascending, limping as my ankle still hurts, and going in my room. I am not used to the brightness of the place so I walked to the large window and closed the maroon colored curtains, making the room dark, without any light.
I chose to sit on the floor beside the wardrobe instead of using the couch. They look nice, but I am not used to them. Leaning my head on the wall, I did not dare to touch anything in the room, I do not own anything in here. I might get punished if I touch or use them, worse, I might break them and I have nothing to pay or replace it.
I clutched my stomach when it growled due to hunger, but I have to endure it. Maybe tonight when everyone is asleep, I might be able to eat by then.
I do not know how much time had passed clutching my stomach, and enduring the thirst and hunger I have, when the door of my room swung open, making me alert instantly. Then the Alpha stepped in and roamed his eyes around the room until it landed on me who was seated on the corner of the room.
“What are you doing?” he asked and reluctantly, I stood up.
“N-nothing, Alpha. Do you have an order for me?” I asked politely.
“Why are the curtains closed?” he asked again and the authority in his voice never faded. He always speaks like that, emitting power, intimidating, as if making everyone know who has the power, signifying that in a snap he could kill whoever he wants.
I did not speak, I did not know that I was not allowed to touch them.
He strode to the window and opened the curtains wide open, blinding me with the sudden light striking me. I closed my eyes and covered the light from my face. He looked at me and I figured that he wanted an explanation so again, I apologized.
“I am sorry, Alpha. I did not know I was not allowed to touch the things here. I apologize.”
“Stop apologizing.”
“I am sorry, Alpha.” I said, sorry for apologizing to him.
“I said stop.”
“I am s—“
“One more and you will regret not listening to me, doll.”
I opened my mouth and was about to apologize again, but I shut it back. I was just used to constantly and automatically apologizing to everyone.
We were both silent until my stomach growled and automatically my hand went to my abdomen, and in an instant, I had to utter my sorry.
“I am sorry.”
Chapter 4 – A Gem“You really don’t listen to me, do you?” he uttered and took a step forward, so I also stepped back out of fear of what he might do.He only stopped taking steps forward towards me when my stomach grumbled again and I tightly closed my eyes in embarrassment.“Go wash up and come down in the kitchen when you are done.”“I might come down a bit later Alpha since I would still have to dry my clothes so I have something to use after I shower.” I said because what I am wearing now is the only clothes I have at the moment. I still have to work to earn some pennies to buy cheap clothes somewhere or to other pack members here if they will allow me.He sighed and messed his hair with his palm and brushed it on his face in frustration. I am going to lie if I would say that the Alpha is not attractive in every way. He is an epitome of a human god if ever there is something like
Chapter 5 – Out of Danger… For Now.I tilted my head at the food on my plate as my mind could not clearly comprehend what the Alpha had said. However, I had decided to brush it off instead and eat my food and since there was no one here in the dining area, I filled my stomach to its fullest since I am not sure when would I have this opportunity again and to see that all these dishes were very well cooked and seasoned makes it more delicious! Goddess, I could have thought of this table as the table in heaven.It almost took me an hour to finish more than half of the food on the table, I could not take them all anymore, I am too full. I plopped myself back on the chair and rested for a few minutes before I stood up and started piling the empty plates and took them in the sink.“Madame, I will do it.” A lady came in the kitchen and quickly tried to take the plates from my hand and prevent me from washing them.&ldquo
Chapter 6 – Nice? What Is It?It was almost one in the afternoon when I remembered to eat. I put down the book the Alpha lend to me and walked to the bedside table, and opened the drawer and took out the lunch box with spoon and fork, and walked back to the footboard of the bed and sat on the carpeted floor where I was seated earlier. I am not used to using these fancy and looking comfortable furniture inside this room, I am still used to what I was given when I was growing up, the floor to sit and sleep on, the old and worn out clothes that were passed down from my sisters, and well, just being alone.For the past hours I just stayed inside my room as ordered by the Alpha, and I did not dare to disobey him again coz it seem like his patience towards me was getting thin already.I opened the lunch box and started to eat while my other hand was on the book on the ground, holding the pages to keep it open as I read and eat at the same time.
Chapter 7 – Then I Name You……We entered the forest and the dried leaves crashed down and twigs break below the soles of our shoes as we step on them. I do not know where we are going, but I still followed the Alpha as I looked around, and admired the trees around us and the birds chirping around and some insects buzzing as we pass by, probably we are disturbing their homes. I have been kept for years inside the four walls of my room. I had never got a chance to explore the world outside a pack house. I was caged, and deprived of my freedom to the point that I have not much knowledge about the outside world and I had only live inside the world of the books I read. I was lucky that I even learned to read whenever I hear my sisters tutors teaching them before and when they discard some of their school stuff I would keep them and teach myself to read, aside from that, I am pretty dumb already. I have no proper education or anything, I guess f
Chapter 8 – Because You Can Hurt MeI looked up at him and stared for a moment. There was no joke or any hint of amusement and mocking on his face.Is he serious?“A-antheia?” I asked, repeating what the Alpha had said.“Yes… Antheia… do you like it?” the Alpha asked in return, turning to look at me, towering over my petite figure compared to his tall built, blocking the light of the sun behind him, and making himself look as if he was an angel from above but with a features of a deadly devil from below.For a moment, I was lost in awe at him that I had myself unconsciously nodding in approval at the word he named me.Antheia…It is a nice name.A name… for me.I finally have a name…“Antheia? Why? W-why Antheia, Alpha?” I asked out of curiosity coz it sounds so beautiful how could he come up with it?He shrugged h
Chapter 9 – She Is All I Have“What? You do not understand?” the Alpha asked in disbelief, looking at me as if I am such an unbelievable creature in front of him, but more like a dumb one.“No. How could someone promise of something so uncertain Alpha when one does not hold the life of the other neither the circumstances that this life holds against me?” I asked because I know that at some point, I would get hurt, one way or another, and such an utterance of certainty from him sounds so unreal. Why would someone like him who just met me will try to protect me and say that I would never be hurt again? such a lie.The Alpha then turned around after a sighed, then he continued to walk and I just followed behind.“Well at least… while I am around, I am not going to let anyone hurt you. That is a promise.” He uttered.“Why?” I asked in curiosity.But I did not get an an
Chapter 10 – Fine Lady 101“Lea, someone will be going in town today, right?” I heard the Alpha’s voice entered the dining area but I did not dare to look up at him as I just sat on my chair, frowning at the foods in front.“Yes, Alpha.” Lea replied.“Buy these for the kitten. And by the way, send someone in her room to clean up and take her plates” The Alpha uttered which made me tilt my head to the side and eventually look at him and he just raised an eyebrow at me after handing a piece of paper to Lea.“W-where is Daisy, Alpha?” I asked, hoping that my kitten was okay.“What do you think I did?” the Alpha asked in return as he took the chair beside me and started piling food on his plate.“You took her away from me?”“I took her to the pack doctor.”I was speechless for a second, I thought he was actually taking h
Chapter 11 – Turning a CinderellaA circular plate at the middle of the place mat and on top of the plate was a white folded napkin, then on my right were two spoons on the outer then two knives, then the plate, and then on the left of the plate were two forks and on the upper area of the plate there is another pair of spoon and fork, then on the right upper part were three wine glasses and on the left upper part was a small plate and a knife placed on top of it.Ookay… What is happening?“Uhm… I just had my breakfast?” I uttered.“You are not having another breakfast darling… Now, do you know what those are?” Finary asked.“Ah yeah, of course, forks, spoons, plates, and wine glasses. And oh of course a napkin.”“Sure they are! but not really....” She deadpanned in the end of her sentence.I looked at her blankly and dumbfounded. What does she