"What do you mean you're going to Europe?" Mark struggles to keep pace as I practically sprint to our new gate. "We're going to Europe, not just me," I reply, briefly turning around before continuing to hurry. "You know what I meant. Now, can you slow down?" He pleads, and I do so only when we reach the gate. "Can you explain it to me now?" "We're going to Europe because it's been my lifelong dream, and I'll be starting treatment in a week. For the next six months to a year, I'll be too ill to do anything," I explain, my voice choked with emotion. I hear the loudspeaker announcing the flight to London, UK, and tears threaten to well up in my eyes. "Now, you can board that plane with me, or you can go back home and wait for me to return in a week. I'm doing this, with or without you." "Shouldn't we call your dad? He'll be expecting you home," Mark suggests, a hopeful expression on his face. "No! He'd do everything in his power to bring me home, and it would work. Besides, I don't h
As soon as I hear the phone ringing, I abruptly wake up from a deep slumber. It might not even be my phone, but I can't be certain, and I'm not inclined to investigate. The sound of someone entering the room indicates it's Mark's phone. He appears to be conversing with someone related to his work when I hear him say, "Hey... no, I can't come in today... I already told you why..." What!? "No, dad, I'm not coming in today!" Did John forget? Because I was present when Mark called him to let him know that I will begin chemotherapy the next day. Then it hits me. Today is my first day of chemotherapy. I wait for Mark to conclude his call and leave the room before I readjust my position and sit up. After slipping into one of Mark's sweatshirts that I found in a box, I reach for my glasses and head to the kitchen. "Hi," I greet him in the most cheerful tone I can muster. Mark inquires, "Hi, how was your sleep?" as he prepares coffee for himself and then moves over to the Keurig to make so
"Hey, how about going to the movies?" Mark suggests, trying to lift the spirits. I stand up and head to one of my boxes, which is still filled with stuff. "I have the movie right here," I reply, my hands still trembling a bit from crying. I grab the movie. "Can You See It?" Mark inquires. "Yeah, it's another movie my dad and I watched a lot," I mention as I return to the bed after putting the movie in the player. "Hey, could you grab some water for me, please?" I ask Mark. He nods and heads to the kitchen. Meanwhile, I notice his phone, which he left behind. I contemplate sending a text message to Charlie. He blocked my number, but I know he didn't block Mark's. I decide to go for it and send him a message. I greet him with a simple "Hello, Charlie. Just wanted to let you know that Alyanna is starting her chemotherapy today, and I think she'd really appreciate it if you could be there. If you feel like it, come on over." "Are you starting the movie without me?" Mark yells from the
The memories of my chemotherapy sessions felt eerily similar with no significant differences. They began by administering a seemingly inconsequential pill, followed by the inevitable needle in my arm. It took a few attempts to find the right vein, and the sensation of needles pricking my skin left lingering bruises on my arm. I settled into the chair, bracing myself for the challenging hour ahead. As the intravenous drugs flowed into my system, I couldn't help but feel the relentless march of time etching its toll on my body, aging and wrinkling me with each passing minute. The timing of Maya and Abby's arrivals couldn't synchronize perfectly. Abby came first, having squeezed in a doctor's appointment prior to visiting me. While she remained in the dark about the full extent of my condition, her intuition hinted at something amiss. She disclosed that Charlie wouldn't be accompanying her to the doctor's appointment, a fact that tugged at my emotions. It would sadden me when she had to
"Ok slow down, one foot in front of the other." Charlie says keeping his hands out ready incase I fall."We've made it out of the hospital, to the car, to the building, got out of the elevator, and into the apartment. I think I can walk 10 feet to the couch and be fine." I smart mouth him. He backs up and puts his hands up. Mark and my dad laugh.I sit down on the couch and sigh. "How do you feel?" My dad asks, taking a seat in a chair next to the couch."Ok, not the best but not as bad as yesterday.""Well the doctor did say that you would gradually feel better in the next few days. I think tomorrow or Thursday you'll feel the best." Mark says, crossing his arms. He's the only one standing and the most tense."Alright. Well I better get to work." My dad says getting up and moving to the door."I should go too. Abby keeps asking me to go shopping for the baby with her." Charlie says getting up from his spot on the couch next to me."Bye, love you both." I say giving them hugs before t
The next few months of chemo went by in a blur. They pricked my arm and made me swallow a pill. I stayed in the hospital for the night then went home and recovered for a few days. Mark had to work most of those days. I tried to find shows that I would only like but I kept coming back to NCIS and Hawaii Five-O, my favorite shows. I promised Mark I wouldn't watch without him. That was hard.After a few weeks of not finding anything to watch I stooped down to watching My Little Pony. I can't believe I watched all seven or eight seasons. I'm not proud of that part in my life. A week after finishing My Little Pony I started reading more.I read the Twilight books again. Not listening to me actually read them, it's better that way. Then my body is focused on what's happening in the book rather than doing other random things. Like what? I'm not sure. The books are just like I remember them, better than the movies.I read the book To All the Boys I've Loved Before and the books after that. Wa
When I'm done in the shower I walk out and find Mark gone. I take this opportunity to get dressed. I got on a pair of dark jeans a black shirt and one of Mark's flannels. I want to be warm and cliche, I want to smell like him. I've always told myself that I never want to do that, but look at me now. Whatever, I can get away with it. I hope so."Nice shirt." Mark turns to me smirking with no shirt. I can't help but gauk at his chest. "Like what you see?" He teases. I can't help but blush. "Hold on a second. Is Alyanna Romero blushing?""I'm Alyanna Hernandez now." I say trying to get the subject off of me blushing. I don't get how I'm blushing so much now. I never used to. Even the occasional compliments from my first boyfriend. I just smiled and even felt uncomfortable when he did that."My mistake." He said, bowing? Sometimes he's really weird and hard to read. Especially with his guarded look. Speaking of the look, it's gone and I can see it in his blue eyes that he's happy.His pho
"What does all of this amount to?" He does so once again."This is a surprise for you on your birthday." I respond to him while extending my hand to him. After grabbing it, he follows me into the back of the truck and sits down."Could you just explain this to me?" He inquires while sitting down and pointing to the various cushions and blankets nearby."We went to a drive-in theater and watched movies that you and your mother used to watch all the time. I could remember some of them, but for the rest, I had to make educated guesses." I stated that I would sit next to him and he would cover me with a blanket."I am grateful." Mark says this to me while placing his arm around me and pressing his shoulder against mine."No issue, and best wishes on the birthday." I say giving him a hug back.I tune the radio to the appropriate station and bring the volume up to practically its maximum. I also open the windows in order to maybe improve our ability to hear the conversation. I was only able