FAZER LOGINHe's good looking--bright blue eyes, pale skin, full pink lips. There's something in his features that suggests Asian descent, maybe from his mom or grandparents.
Hell, he's gorgeous. But the disgusted look he shoots me makes my stomach sink. I know that look. It's the kind that doesn't need words to warn you to stay far, far away. "Did you even hear a word I said?" Leanne's voice snaps me back to reality. Of course, I hadn't heard a thing. I was too busy gawking at the guy who's definitely out of my league and straight. Definitely straight. So unfair. "Uh..." I try to play it cool, my gaze drifting back to him before I can stop myself. He catches me looking this time before I even get a chance to check him out properly. He’s with a pretty redhead girl who’s bored out of her mind with her attention glued to her phone. I scoff under my breath. Leanne turns to look behind her, catching my wandering eyes. She smirks knowingly as the waiter brings our orders. "Oh, I see what's going on," she says with a grin. I nearly roll my eyes. "I don't know what you're talking about." She arches an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced. "You've got the hots for Fox Wilder, huh?" "What? No!" | almost choke on my coffee. "I don't even know who that is! Leanne laughs. "Relax, I'm not judging. He's pretty hot—objectively speaking” I push my glasses up my nose, trying to maintain some composure. "I don't know what you're talking about." Lying. Totally lying. I sigh, trying not to glance in Fox's direction again. What happened to the promise I made to myself? Stay away from jerks and hot guys. And yet, here I am, checking out a hot straight guy, fully aware of my weakness. The reality of being gay hits me hard. "Trust me, you don't want to fall for Fox Wilder,” Leanne warns, taking a sip of her milkshake. Fox Wilder? My roommate’s name is Fox. Obviously there are many people on campus named Fox. This guy can’t possibly be my roommate. Whoever this Fox Wilder is, I need to remind myself that I'm not interested. He's just eye candy. But even as I think it, I know I'm lying to myself. "Why's that?" I ask, taking a bite of pizza. "He's one of the most popular guys in school. Hot, frat king, throws one of the biggest frat parties on campus, and practically every girl and guy wants to hook up with him." Great. Another arrogant jerk who probably changes partners like he changes clothes. "I'm not interested," I say firmly, hoping it sounds convincing this time. I finish chewing my pizza and down it with a gulp of coffee, feeling more exhausted by the second. "So... you got a boyfriend?" Leanne asks casually, and I nearly spit out my coffee. "Excuse me?" She smirks, clearly enjoying my embarrassment. "Come on, you're cute as hell. I bet people fall all over you for that dimple alone." I blush, feeling awkward. "Nobody wants to date this guy. People like assholes and I’m complicated. Plus, my parents...” I trail off, wondering if I should open up about this to someone I just met. Leanne leans in, her tone soft. "You can tell me. I'm your friend now, and I promise your secret is safe with me." I take a deep breath. "They're homophobic. They think the LGBTQ+ community is responsible for, like, hurricanes and natural disasters." Leanne snorts. "That's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard." "Agreed. It's messed up," I reply, cringing as I remember. "In high school, I kind of outed myself by accident. Didn't think it through. I got bullied for it all through senior year." "Let me guess—had a crush on a hot straight guy who turned out to be a jerk?" she asks. I chuckle. "Pretty much." "Guys are the worst. I've dealt with my share of jerks, too," she says, her voice trailing off as the bell on top of the café door rings. Two more guys walk in, heading straight for Fox's booth. Both of them are just as good-looking. Fox greets them with a handshake, and they start whispering. One of them says something that makes Fox laugh—a sound so captivating, I feel like I could listen to it all day. Leanne sighs, snapping me back to reality again. "You okay? You're looking kind of zoned out." "Did you date one of those guys?" I ask, noticing her discomfort. She winces. "Fooled around with one, yeah. Carter, the shorter one with the black hair and that cocky smirk. Total *ssh*l*." I glance over at the group again. Carter is now flirting with the redhead and Fox is deep in conversation with the other guy—a dark brown-haired guy who’s also attractive and way out of my league. Then, suddenly, Fox's gaze locks onto mine again, freezing me in place. His expression twists in disgust, like I'm something he scraped off his shoe. The guy sitting with him follows Fox's stare, and now they're both glaring at me. "Look away, Cameron," I tell myself. "Look. Away." But before I can, Fox sneers. "What the f*ck are you staring at?" his voice is loud, drawing everyone’s attention. My heart stops. The café goes silent, and everyone—Leanne, the other customers, even Fox's friends—turns to look at me. I can feel my face burning with humiliation, the kind that makes you wish the ground would swallow you whole. Fox mutters something else under his breath but I can't make it out. “Yeah, look away, you little sh*t,” Fox yells. I just need to get out of here. "You wanna go?" Leanne asks softly. "Yeah," I whisper. We stand up, leaving behind our half-finished drinks and food. As we walk out, I can feel Fox's eyes burning holes into my back. *** It's almost 10 p.m., and my roommate still hasn't shown up. I've had dinner, studied, and now my mind keeps drifting back to Fox Wilder. He's every bit as good-looking as I thought, but that attitude? Absolutely disgusting. As I half-heartedly review my notes from today's lectures, I hear the front door open. My head snaps up—maybe that's him. My roommate. I wait, listening to the sounds of shuffling and the door closing. Should I introduce myself? I don't want him to freak out, thinking there's a stranger in his apartment. Throwing on a T-shirt and running my fingers through my curls, I head down the hall toward the living room. The lights are off, but I hear movement in the kitchen. The fridge door is open, casting a dim glow. "Hey, man," I call out, trying to sound friendly. "Sh*t!" comes the startled reply. The fridge door slams shut. "Who the f*ck are you?" That voice. Why does it sound familiar? I flick the light switch by the door and the kitchen floods with brightness. No. No way. This cannot be happening. Standing in front of me, holding a carton of milk, is none other than Fox Wilder. And he's my roommate.Epilogue It’s Christmas Eve, and the living room glows with the warmth of soft fairy lights wrapped around the tree. The scent of pine lingers in the air, mingling with the faint aroma of cookies from earlier in the day. Lila pours herself a glass of wine, while my mom sits with a steaming mug of cocoa. The room feels alive, even in its quiet moments, filled with the soft hum of conversation and the occasional jingle of bells as someone adjusts a decoration. Fox sits across from me, his usual confidence replaced by something more tender, almost nervous. He’s holding a small black box in his hands, fingers drumming lightly against the lid. I glance at him curiously, but he doesn’t meet my gaze right away. “Cameron,” he says, his voice steady but softer than usual. My mom stops mid-sip, her eyes darting to us, while Lila freezes with her wine glass halfway to her lips. The room suddenly feels smaller, like everything and everyone is focused on us. “What’s going on?” I ask, h
The hospital corridor feels endless, the fluorescent lights casting a harsh glare on the white tiles. Each step toward my father’s room feels heavier than the last, like wading through quicksand. My palms are clammy, and I can hear my own breathing, shallow and uneven. I stop outside his room, staring at the closed door. This is it—the moment I’ve dreaded for months. My heart pounds in my chest, and for a fleeting second, I think about walking away. But I can’t. I push the door open. Inside, the room is quiet except for the faint beep of the heart monitor and the hum of machines. My mother sits by his bedside, her face pale and tear-streaked. She looks up as I step inside, and her expression softens. “Cam,” she whispers, standing and wrapping her arms around me. Her embrace is warm but trembling. I glance past her at my father. He looks smaller and frailer, his skin pale and sallow. His once-commanding presence is now a shadow of itself. “You came,” he says, his voice we
The campus buzzes with excitement. Families crowd together around their graduates, snapping photos and sharing laughter. The energy in the air is electric, but as I walk toward the main ceremony, my mind is somewhere else. On my dad. I smooth the fabric of my gown, trying to calm the knot tightening in my chest. Today feels surreal for so many reasons. It’s not just the graduation itself—it’s knowing my dad is here, despite everything. After years of tension, he showed up. Fox walks beside me, his hand brushing against mine as if reminding me he’s there. He’s been my rock through it all, even flying back from Seattle, cutting his med school rotation short, just to be here. “You okay?” Fox asks, his voice soft as he leans in. “Yeah,” I say, managing a small smile. “It just feels… overwhelming, you know?” “It should,” he says with a grin. “You’re officially smarter than all of us now, Counselor Brooke-to-be.” I laugh, even as a wave of nerves washes over me. “Not quite a cou
I stuff another slice of pepperoni pizza into my mouth as Landon drones on about school. He’s complaining about how hard senior year is, but my mind is somewhere else entirely. It’s been over a month since Fox left for med school in Seattle, and I swear I’ve never felt lonelier. Sure, we FaceTime every night, and he talks me to sleep when the silence in the apartment gets too loud. But it’s not the same. I miss him—his laugh, his presence, the way he makes everything feel okay. “Are you even paying attention?” Landon asks, snapping me back to reality. I sigh, putting the slice down. “Sorry. I’ve just been…” “Thinking about Fox,” he finishes for me. “We know. You miss him, but that doesn’t mean you have to zone out every time we hang out.” It’s not like I haven’t tried to snap out of it. I’ve tried everything. But it feels like I left a part of myself with him in Seattle. The apartment feels empty, hollow even. My friends stop by to keep me company—sometimes Landon stays the ni
“You’re going to be fine, right?” Fox asks as I help him adjust his shirt. He’s leaving for med school today in Seattle, and I already feel like I’m falling apart. He’s still standing right in front of me, but the ache of missing him is already here, gnawing at my chest. I want to tell him to stay, to skip med school, and just stay here with me, but that would be selfish. Fox has supported me through everything these past two years—it’s his turn to chase his dream. Yeah, two years. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and watch him sleep, wondering how we’ve made it this far. It hasn’t been easy, especially for him. The stares, the whispers, the murmurs that followed us everywhere. But over time, things changed. The homophobia lessened. People got used to seeing us together. Lexi didn’t stick around to see it, though. Her parents, surprisingly progressive, were horrified when they found out what she’d done to try to break us up. They shipped her off to school abroad. B
Dinner is quiet. Fox and I sit across from his parents at the long dining table, the tension so thick it feels like a plate might fly across the room at any moment. Fox looks like he’s barely holding himself back from snapping at his father, and honestly, I wouldn’t blame him. “I should just get this off my chest,” Mr. Wilder says, breaking the silence as he sets his fork down. His voice is measured but heavy. “The tension in here is so thick, I feel like some people are already suffocating,” Fox mutters under his breath. I elbow him in the ribs, and he grunts softly. Mr. Wilder ignores the comment and looks directly at us. “I’m not promising anything, but… I’ll try to accept whatever this is between you two.” His words are deliberate, as if each one takes a great deal of effort to say. “It’s obvious you’re serious about each other. I never saw this coming. Honestly, I thought you were just roommates. But now… well, it’s clear I can’t stop it. Fox never listens to anyone, so t







