CHAPTER 17 FanaaFanaa- destruction of self; "destroyed in love"Origin: Arabic and Urdu17I take the supplies that I need to clean his wound and lay them out on the counter. I prop up my leg leaning it on the toilet bowl just below his crotch and placed his hand on my leg.I.Put.His.Hand.On.My.Leg.Holy hell.His arm draping across my leg and I wish my hands would calm down and not shake while I clean his wound. As I start putting alcohol over the cut with the cotton ball clipped with the tweezers, I push all of my hair to one side so it won't intervene while I'm cleaning his wound. I was amazed that he doesn't flinch at all from the stinging pain. He just sat there and doesn't make a sound. I was even silently wincing for him but he just watches me work quietly. We didn't talk as always.I don't know if he was looking at his hand or thinking if I was doing it right even though I know what I'm doing, or he was looking at my face. I don't know because I'm too nervous to look a
CHAPTER 18 SerendipitySerendipity- finding something good without looking for it18"I'm very attracted to you Savannah." He repeats.My heart leaps."But I just don't want those extra other stuff between us." He added while holding the back of his neck.My eyebrows furrowing."Other stuff?" My voice shying away."Those boyfriend and girlfriend thing. I don't want that." He said firm.Holy hell.I just do not know what to say to him or even how to react to that thing he just confessed to me. I wait for a little more to rethink again and then think a lot more. He just admitted to me that he just wants to have sex with me. He doesn't want those sweet little things done in a relationship. He doesn't want it to lead into something. He wants sec from me. Nothing but sex.I should be punching him or hitting him with my fists and I should be mad at him because that's what he's only after me but the fact that he chose to kiss me after those straight eight years, makes me flatter. I find it
CHAPTER 19 SaudadeSaudade- the feeling of longing for something or someone who you love which is lostOrigin: Portuguese19NICK'S POVEIGHT YEARS AGO"Is this how you do it?" I asked.Catherine looks over at me while I was chopping the spices she needs for the spicy spaghetti she's teaching me. She laughs and stands behind my back as she pressed her front on me."Love, that's too small..." she giggles."Is it?" I pulled my head up to her."But don't worry. It'll work out just fine later I guess." She leans over and kissed my cheeks while her blond hair falls to my left shoulder.I smile at her.She keeps kissing my cheek while her arms were holding around my chest. Her breasts pressed against my back. Catherine was teaching me how to cook and even though I hate cooking, she forced me to and since I love her so much, I allowed myself to learn. At least if we'll go to college, I'm ready to make meals for her if she comes home late.Catherine walks back to the burner with the chopping
CHAPTER 20 AistraAistraTranslation: infatuationOrigin: Lithuanian20SAVANNAH'S POVI missed my first class today but it was alright because it was worth it anyways and I'm still not over the fact that I just allowed myself to let Nick have sex with me as much as he and I wants to. My brother will kill me if he'll know about this and I'm doing it with a frat guy. I haven't seen Nick around the campus too after he dropped me and Tracy off the dorm a while ago.My mind was floating the whole day. I was thinking about Nick and when we will be finally doing it. I was physically present in my classes but I was mentally absent because I'm imagining Nick and how kissed me that night. I could still feel his lips and I always smile at myself when I remember how it tasted. He was such a great kisser.I walked out of my class and I was thankful that the day was over. I'm tired and I haven't had enough sleep because we left too early a while ago. The only problem I have right now is I need to
CHAPTER 21 NuminousNuminous- awed yet attracted; the powerful personal feeling of being overwhelmed and inspiredOrigin: Latin21It was already midnight, almost one in the morning and I think Tracy is still at the frat party. She hasn't come back yet and I won't be worried because I'm sure Nick is there with her. While as for myself, I'm busy reading this book and I'm already half way through after Nick borrowed it a while ago. The only light in my room was coming from the lampshade on my study table and this novel assigned to me is actually pretty good, despite the old English words used on this but it's amazing. I wish I could become one of New York's bestselling authors someday. All of a sudden my phone lights up right next to me and I quickly grabbed it.A message from an unregistered number: Where are you?Who's this? I replied.Nick.My heart raced and hands went cold as ice in a nanosecond. It's Nick.How did you get my number? -SavannahRobert. -NickRobert?? Who is Robert?
CHAPTER 22 ZugzwangZugzwang- a situation where every possible move or decision is a bad one; one that will result in a damage or lossOrigin: German22He licks his lips."Kiss me Nick." It's a plea.Nick quickly crashes onto my lips without hesitations, invading all of my mouth and starts kissing me. I'm lost every time he kisses me. I'm lost every time he touches my body. I lose the ability to control my body when he takes over me. My limbs weaken when he brushes his hands on me. My hands now busy unbuttoning his pants and our kiss becomes more deeper.Hard."Hmm, pepperoni." He teased.I smiled at him before he kissed me back. He is smiling too, I feel his smile in between our kiss. He slowly pulls my shirt off from my head and slips my shorts together with my underwear off my legs. He unclasps my bra right away and he's such an expert to that. It's was even less than a second."Wow." He complimented while his eyes were busy looking at my breasts after he took off my bra. He grop
CHAPTER 23 Idée Fixe Idée Fixe- an idea that dominates one's mind especially for a prolonged period; obsessionOrigin: French23"Please tell me you'll come?"Here comes Tracy again, begging me to go along with her and her friends. I love Tracy but I don't love... I don't like, at least, most of her friends. It's a mutual feeling though and whenever Penny is around, all she'll ever do is to retaliate me. She gets to my nerve like I how I get into hers. She hates the way I dress. She hates every thing I do. She hates me being around the same place that she's around. She hates me. She loathes my entire being.Penny is just so hateful. And I'm sure as hell that she's just jealous of me because I am way better than her. She looks like a prostitute with those kind of clothes on her. And I look like the kind of woman that men respects more.And if it's not only Tracy's birthday this Saturday I wouldn't wanna go. But since she's turning twenty and I'm her roommate, and she begs a lot then
CHAPTER 24 SehnsuchtSehnsucht- a painful desire for something or for someone particularly if there's no hope to attain the desire or when its attainment is uncertain; wistful longingOrigin: German24It was still drizzling outside but not as heavy as a while ago and it was right on time when Nick and Alec were done eating dinner. I was just quiet the entire time when the two of them were eating and Aries were talking to them too, joining Nick and Alec's conversation. They were talking about the foods that Tracy likes and the things they need to prepare for her. Nick's hand has finally left my thigh and I was just finishing on my glass of water."We better go before the rain pours hard down again." Alec says.The four of us starts standing up, Nick stands while finishing his glass of orange juice as I stood right next to him."I'll just drive Savannah back to her dorm then I'll catch up with you guys on buying the foods for Saturday and--" Aries said."I'll drive her." Nick cut him