Inside the storm

*** Rebecca ***

 I sat on the bed in my hotel room,  millions of thoughts inside my head. I was again inside the storm, my head and my life was upside down, my heart in turmoil. I thought I will restart my life down here, heal my shattered heart and then find someone and have a family that I have always dreamt of.  What a joke, my destiny was laughing at me and turning tables around once again. What now? I was too afraid to let anyone in, and too scared to love someone just yet. How can life throw someone at me right now, when I'm so broken and have no idea where is I am going. And what about Luke, how does he feel? He must be going crazy and out of his mind not knowing what's gonna happen. I don't know how and why, but I care how he feels. And deep inside I crave those sparks that he gave me when our  skin touched. The way he looked at me, like I'm the only one in the room, the only one for him.  The way he made me feel wanted and desired. But how can I let him in? How can I trust another man? I don't think I'm ready to trust anybody yet. Is it even true what he said about the mate and destiny, could he really be sincere. My mind was going million miles an hour and I felt like I was about to lose it. I need some fresh air. I took my jacket and walked out the door.

 I have been walking around the town and by the lake for few hours, and remembered I had barely anything to eat today. I stopped by the diner I ate the first day I got here to have some late dinner.

 With my stomach full and my mind a little bit at ease I one back to my room and hit the bed like a sack of potatoes. I was exhausted and slept all the way through the night. But woke up quite early and  the thoughts started nagging me again. I got up and went for a joke, that will clear my mind for sure.

 I came back almost an hour later and saw someone standing at my door.

"Soirse?" 

"Hi, Rebecca." She smiled at me. 

"Umm, hi. What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I thought you could use someone to talk to, as you don't really know anyone around  here" she said.

"Soirse, really, thank you, but I don't feel like talking" I said.

"Look, I won't pretend to imagine how you feel. Honestly you must be thinking you're dreaming or something,  But if you don't want to talk, just listen then. And then maybe you'll change your mind about talking, please" she pleaded with me.

Ohhh,  I couldn't really say no to a pregnant woman now could I. So I asked her to wait for me in cafeteria and I went to have a quick shower and change.

 She was still waiting for me when I came out, so I sat in front of her and nodded for her to say what she must.

" Should we order first something, I have craving for some pancakes" she said laughing.

"Yeah I should probably eat something as well" I replied.

 We flagged the waitress down and placed our orders. Soirse got some pancakes with decaf coffee and me some eggs with bacon and strong espresso.

"Well, I suppose I should listen to what you have to say" I smiled.

"I am still a bit surprised that you haven't fled the town, after learning who we are" she said shyly.

"Trust me, me too" I laughed.

"I'm really glad you didn't. And I am just gonna tell you my side of view and trust me, I am not gonna try to convince you to stay or leave, it's completely up to you. I just want you to listen." Said Soirse.

"OK, go on." 

" Werewolfs have a goddess that created us, just something like a God to humans. And the goddess has also created our other half which is one soul, one heart in two bodies.  We feel the bond and usually find our mate when we turn 18, but for some of us it takes years to find our other half. And once we found our other part of soul we want no one else in our life, it's like love at first sight, and you can't undo it.

 We feel a very strong pull towards our mate and connection like no other. And all we crave is to be with that person no matter what. Our mate can feel how we feel, they feel when we are worried, sad, when we are in distress or pain. At first just a whispers of what we feel, but once we are marked and bonded, we have a full connection and can communicate in mind and feel what our other half feels.  And the mate bond is so strong that your mate would not be able to cheat, as they would feel physical pain. Rebecca, I don't know what you have been through and I can't begin to imagine, cause since the second I met Ryan I was safe and loved, adored and never felt pain or betrayal.  But I can tell you have and I understand it's hard for you to trust or let anyone in at this moment. But please, consider it, just as a possibility, because you will be loved and cared for like you have never been cared in your whole life. And I know this, because Luke is literally your other half and he is already crazy about you. He's one of the best men I have ever met in my life, he is sincere and honest, strong and very protective. All I am saying, don't run away, just not yet. Stay and see if you can make something out of it.  Give him a chance, glimmer of hope, before you decide what's best for you" said Soirse.

She then sat back and ate, letting me to absorb everything she just said.

"What's a mate bond?" I blurred after a few minutes of silence.

"Well it's like a pull towards each other generally speaking, but it's not fully completed until, you know.." she smirked. "And the mate has to mark you for the bond to be completed." 

"Mark you?" I asked.

"Yeah, the werewolf, normally the male has to bite into your neck and leave their mark." Soirse explained.

"To bite me??" My hand instantly flew over my neck. "What do you mean?" 

"That's literally what it means. We normally have do it, while having sex, because it feels amazing and hundred time stronger, it also bonding our souls and sacred for us.  The mark to show everyone who are we with and whose ours. It gives you unexplainable pleasure and you can feel and hear your mate in your thoughts. It is honestly hard to explain, but once you are mated it all makes sense" she said.

I blushed a little, but not wanting to look like a prude just smiled at Soirse. 

 I do understand what she's trying to explain to me and I am trying to wrap my head around all the things I have learned. Trying to convince myself not to run away. 

"How do you know when you meet your mate? I mean how does it feel like?" I asked curious.

"Well as I said earlier, you feel a pull towards that person, like your body wants your mate without head realising it. You feel calm and relaxed in his presence, he gives you sparks and tingles when your skin touches and they smell amazing. Literally makes your mouth water" she laughs.

"It might be a little different for you, since you're human, but you would still feel it" she explained.

"I see" I smiled and went back to eating in silence. 

She eyes me curiosily and takes a sip of her coffee, the says: 

"You have been feeling it all, haven't you?" 

I lift my eyes a bit, blush and smile.

Soirse just smiles back at me and we finish our lunch in silence.