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Amidst my confusion, I heard Camille speak. “From what I can remember, this engagement wasn’t originally supposed to fall upon Noemie. In fact, Lucien and Helene were the better match, with their ages being almost the same…” Her words Instantly pulled all of us back into old memories. Indeed, before the age of fifteen, I had always known that I had a fiancé. The engagement between the Laurent and Blackthorne families had been established during our grandfathers’ generation—long before I was even born. Originally, it was meant to unite the eldest daughter and eldest son of the main branches of both families. However, neither my father nor Mrs. Blackthorne had any interest in each other. They already had partners of their own—my mother and Lucien’s father. Naturally, the possibility of marrying their other children was considered. But with the Laurent family, they hit a snag—my father was an only child. With no suitable counterpart on our side, the match quietly fell through. And just like that, the engagement faded into obscurity. It wasn’t until my grandfather passed away that things changed. Whether out of regret or a desire to honor an old promise, Laurent’s grandfather brought the engagement back to the forefront, determined to fulfill the vow he had made to his late friend. Unfortunately, timing worked against them once more. Mrs. Blackthorne conceived late, while my mother gave birth to Camille early. The age gap between the two eldest children became far too wide for the match to be viable. And so, their attention turned to me, who was born around the same time as Lucien. Just like that, my future was decided. No one, however, anticipated what would follow. At thirteen, Noemie fell in love with her would-be brother-in-law. Her Infatuation was fierce and undisguised. She made no effort to hide either her feelings or the hostility she harbored toward me, until even our parents could no longer pretend not to notice. Then came the tears. The desperate pleas. Even threats of self-harm. She wielded every weapon at her disposal, until our parents finally agreed to transfer the engagement onto her. I never knew what my parents said to the Blackthorne family to secure their consent. I only knew that, before I could fully process what had happened, Noemie had became publicly acknowledged as Lucien’s fiancée. And I— Was “persuaded” to retreat gracefully. Even now, I could still recall the exact words my parents had used when they finally deigned to inform me of their decision. “Helene, I know this might be difficult for you to accept,” my mother had said, her tone steeped in affected gentleness. “But your younger sister truly likes him and insists she’ll be with no one else. Besides, you and Lucien don’t have feelings for each other yet, so it hardly matters… right?” As for my father— “You’re the elder sister,” he had said flatly. “Giving way once isn’t a big deal. To avoid attracting unnecessary attention, stay indoors for the next few days. As compensation, your monthly allowance will be doubled.” To be honest, I hadn’t felt much about the engagement changing hands. The truth was, I barely knew Lucien back then. Unlike him and my two sisters, who studied at elite institutions, I attended a regular school; having spent most of my childhood living with my maternal grandparents. For that same reason, Lucien and I had only met a handful of times—at most exchanging polite greetings that never lingered long enough to leave an impression. To me, he was merely a cold, distant boy. And to him, I was probably nothing more than a quiet, unremarkable girl. Moreover, I had always sensed that who his fiancée was never truly mattered to him. To Lucien Blackthorne, the engagement had always seemed like an obligation—one he would fulfill regardless of the name attached to it. So when the decision was made, aside from the faint distaste of being treated as a disposable pawn, I felt close to nothing. — Snapping out of my reverie, I studied Camille with renewed attention, as though seeing her for the first time. In this family, I had always known where I stood. To my mother, Noemie alone was enough to occupy all her affection and concern. To my father, grooming Camille into the perfect successor consumed his every thought and effort. As for me—the unfortunate middle child—I had long grown accustomed to being sidelined and overlooked. Yet I had never truly resented them for it. Perhaps it was because this was my second chance at life. In my past life, I had been born an orphan and lived in a post-apocalyptic world ravaged by extreme climates and mutated beasts. Survival had been a daily struggle. So when I died and opened my eyes again to find myself reborn in a clean hospital room, welcomed into a peaceful, orderly world as a newborn, I had been nothing short of overjoyed. At first, I had even harbored naïve fantasies. I thought I might finally make up for the regrets of being an orphan in my previous life. I never expected that, from the very beginning, I would be shunned and rejected by my birth parents. The reason was laughably simple and unbelievably cliché. Because I wasn’t a son. After giving birth to Camille or perhaps, even before then, my parents became obsessed with producing a male heir. So when my mother conceived me, they were convinced I would be the long-awaited answer to their expectations. Reality proved otherwise. And so, all their disappointment and resentment at having their hopes dashed were quietly redirected toward me—an innocent, defenseless newborn. One might wonder why the same treatment hadn’t been extended to Camille or Noemie. The reason was simple. By the time Noemie was born, Camille had already displayed signs of remarkable business aptitude, resulting in my father no longer feeling desperate for a male heir. And with that pressure lifted, my mother became free to display her ‘motherly affections’ without reservation. Absurd, wasn’t it? But it no longer mattered. What you never truly had could never truly hurt you. That said, I had always felt a faint sense of pity toward Camille. Because before she became favored, she too, had endured a period of neglect. But unlike me, she had neither the memories nor experience of another life, no emotional distance to shield her. Yet now, as I mulled over her words, I realized that my pity might have been misplaced. She actually wanted to push the engagement back onto me. What a perfect arrangement, I thought mockingly. Enjoy the benefits during the good times, and when misfortune strikes, simply pass the burden onto someone else. Seems like they were beginning to mistake my silence for me being a pushover. So— I lifted my gaze and met Camille’s eyes directly. “You must be joking,” I said calmly. “Everyone here and in all of Solstice City knows how deeply in love Noemie is with her fiancé. She even once swore she’d never marry anyone else but him. Given such devotion, who could possibly be a more perfect match than the two of them?” I turned my gaze toward the figure nestled in our mother’s arms. “Isn’t that right, Noemie?” “It’s understandable to feel shaken by his accident,” I continued gently, every word dripping with feigned concern. “But considering how much you love him, I’m sure you’ll come around soon. After all, abandoning him at a time like this would risk you being labeled as flighty and unfaithful.” “You—!” Noemie shot upright, her face flushing red with humiliation and fury as she pointed at me. “Y-you’re spouting nonsense!” Of course, my parents wouldn’t stand by and watch their cherished little flower get ‘bullied.’ “That’s enough, Helene,” my father snapped. My mother frowned, displeasure evident in her tone. “Do you really have to speak so harshly?” Suddenly, I felt exhausted. How long was I expected to keep enduring this blatant favoritism and disregard? Ten years? Twenty? Or a lifetime? Whenever Noemie hurled insults at me, they barely reprimanded her. Yet the moment I spoke even slightly out of line, I became the unreasonable one. With that thought, my patience finally wore thin. I rose slowly to my feet. “I just remembered I have an important engagement,” I said evenly. “I’m afraid I won’t be able to stay for dinner.” My father’s expression darkened instantly. “What kind of flimsy excuse of that? Are you trying to walk out simply because we scolded you a little?” “You’re overthinking,” I replied calmly. “I genuinely have something to do before the day ends.” Without waiting for a response, I picked up my bag and headed for the door. “If you leave now, don’t even think about stepping foot in this house again!” my father barked behind me. I didn’t pause. As I reached the entrance, I caught my mother’s hushed reproach, the word ‘ungrateful’ slipping into my ears. Ignoring it entirely, I stepped outside and shut the door behind me, the sound echoing sharply through the quiet night.LUCIENI tapped the armrest of my wheelchair, slow and deliberate, trying to keep the irritation building in my chest from surfacing.This was exactly why I avoided returning to the old house when I could. Too many people here fancied themselves clever.It hadn’t even been long since the accident, yet they were already beginning to show their hand. If her subtle expressions were anything to go by, even Helene—who was meeting them for the first time today—seemed to have seen through them.That said…My eyes narrowed slightly, suspicion flickering beneath the surface.Could people as foolish as they were truly be capable of orchestrating something like that?The moment the thought surfaced, I cut it off, as I had done countless times before.Speculation was useless. What I needed was evidence. Cold, irrefutable proof.Tuning out the voice droning beside me—and ignoring my mother’s expectant gaze—I let my eyes pass briefly over Ethan before settling on Isabel.“Where’s the old man?”“
HELENEI had already expected that I wouldn’t be meeting just Lucien’s mother and grandfather. Still, the moment I stepped into the living room—at least twice the size of the Laurents’—I couldn’t help but feel taken aback.The entire Blackthorne family was here.Sebastian Blackthorne, Lucien’s grandfather, had three children with his late wife.Vivienne Blackthorne, Lucien’s mother, was the eldest and had only one child: Lucien.Marcus Blackthorne, the second child and only son, had two sons and a daughter with his wife.Eleanor Blackthorne, Isabel’s mother, was the youngest, with a son and a daughter of her own.And now, every single one of them was present.Weren’t they all supposed to be busy?And hadn’t Isabel once said her parents were traveling the world?Yet here they were.My steps faltered slightly, and I instinctively glanced at Lucien beside me.Perhaps sensing it, he tilted his head a little.“Nervous?” he asked under his breath.Before I could answer, he added, “Don’t be.
HELENEThe Blackthorne Estate sprawled across the hillside, stretching over acres as far as the eye could see—an unapologetic display of wealth and power.The car carrying Lucien and me passed through the towering iron gates before coming to a smooth stop at the main entrance.A line of staff stood waiting.At the forefront was a middle-aged man with perfectly slicked-back hair and an air of practiced professionalism.I recognized him immediately.Alaric Winston—the estate’s head butler.And the reason I knew him so clearly—My gaze flickered briefly to the man seated beside me.—could be traced back to last night.After Isabel and Adrian left, I had remained in my assigned room, intending to stay out of Lucien’s sight for the rest of the day. With our earlier meeting as reference, it had become painfully clear that neither of us knew how to interact with each other beyond negotiations and carefully defined terms.I didn't want to risk another awkward encounter. But after missing bot
LUCIENLooking at the woman sitting across from me, who was doing her utmost to appear completely at ease, a trace of amusement surfaced in my eyes.During our previous meetings, she had been so composed and unflappable that the possibility that she might develop post-marriage nerves hadn’t crossed my mind.And yet here she was.Fidgeting with her fingers and carefully avoiding my gaze. I had been watching from the window when she arrived, noting how she lingered in the car far longer than necessary. If Isabel hadn't come along, or if I hadn't deliberately sent Adrian outside to receive them, I suspected there was a fair chance she might have turned around and left entirely.The contrast between the woman who had sat across from me days ago and proposed a contract marriage with the calm efficiency of someone closing a business deal, and the one currently doing her best not to look at me, was unexpectedly—I considered the word before settling on one.Endearing."Has the matter with
HELENEThree days later, I found myself behind the wheel, driving into Villa 001 at Monarch Park, my gaze fixed on the brightly lit building ahead.I pulled into the driveway but didn’t turn off the engine immediately.“Are you nervous?”At the question, I glanced at Isabel in the passenger seat.“What do you think?” I replied flatly.She laughed, clearly amused. “Relax. My cousin doesn’t bite. And besides, you’re legally married now. Even if anything happens—”“Alright, that’s enough,” I cut in before she could finish whatever nonsense she was about to say.That was on me, for expecting anything remotely comforting from her.I shifted my gaze back to the villa, looking out through the windshield.Today was the day I moved in with Lucien Blackthorne.The official first day of our contract marriage.And apparently, I had developed cold feet.In the three days since my father’s call, I had been almost entirely occupied with the procedures required to sever ties with the Laurent family.
HELENEAfter applying the final touches to the pictures I had taken in Country F, I reviewed them one last time. Only when I was satisfied did I send them off to the studio.At the same time, I let out a quiet breath of relief.Finally, my ears could get some rest.The constant nagging these past few days had nearly driven me to the edge.Stretching, I rose from behind the desktop and walked over to the bedroom window. Propping my forearm against the frame, I leaned my head against it, looking out at nothing in particular as my thoughts drifted. Of the one-day ultimatum I had given my father, more than half had already passed in silence.I doubted the delay was because he had suddenly grown a conscience.Could it be—My brows knit slightly as a thought surfaced.Had there been a new development on their end?Fortunately, I didn’t have to wonder for long.Right then, my phone rang.I turned, picked it up from the bed, and glanced at the screen.Father.I answered but said nothing, le
LUCIEN For the first time in my life, I felt as though I wasn’t intelligent enough. From everything Helene had said so far, it was obvious she found the idea of replacing Noemie and marrying me just as ridiculous as I did. She had even clearly foreseen the consequences it could bring—especially fo
HELENE“What exactly is going on between you and my cousin?” Isabel asked.The moment the question left her lips, a single thought crossed my mind.As expected.When I saw her standing outside my door earlier, I had already guessed why she came. And, as it turned out, I wasn’t wrong.Thinking about
HELENEI sent Grandma a message to let her know I’d received the package she’d sent, having spotted it by the front door earlier.Knowing how rarely she checked her phone, I didn’t expect a reply anytime soon.Fortunately, the produce was still fresh as I sorted everything into the refrigerator. Ot
ISABELFollowing the words I’d meant as comfort, I was caught off guard when Helene lowered her head and whispered an apology.Then came the tears. One after another, large drops slipping silently down her cheeks.“I—I didn’t mean to blame you,” I stammered, panic rising as I reached out to wipe t







