If Only

Hazel checked herself out in front of the mirror. She was fully dressed up already to go to Rex's home but something was pulling her back from going there.

"Should my first time be because I want to prove something to others?" She questioned herself.

"No, it should not be. My first time should be romantic. It should be what the both of us want. I... I at least want to get my wolf side first before mating with Rex" she mumbled, still staring at her reflection in the mirror.

"What if I eventually shift and we are not mates?" She questioned herself.

"Then I would have lost my first time to someone who is not my mate" she sighed heavily and sat back down on the edge of her bed.

She did not want to lose her first time to some other wolves, she wanted it to be her mate. She at least had to affirm that Rex was her mate before she gave herself to him.

"But then Clarissa..." She took her fingers into her hair and ruffled it up.

She needed no one to tell her that Clarissa was going to taunt her