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Chapter 42
The adrenaline had worn off with me. Instead I just felt tired. Tired of having to juggle everything, tired of making choices. I wanted nothing more than to just curl up into bed and sleep the month away, but I owed Robert the bare minimum of an explanation.
My heart was pounding in my throat when I approached his door. Though we were definitely closer now than we had been a few months ago, I still knew that he would rightfully so chose the baby over me. The very same baby I had been impacting with my dumbass choices.
“Come in,” I heard his low voice say when I knocked on the half open door. He was sitting on the edge of the bed, his hands hidden away in his pockets. The sheets on the bed had been discarded to one side, the pillows were messy too. I had definitely disturbed his sleep.
“I am so sorry.” I said. I really was, I hated needing other people to depend on. I hated being this much of a liability.
“What happened?
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Her long blonde hair was cascading down her back. She wore a light pink dress with high heels and smiled a pearly white smile when she saw me.“It’s good to finally meet you,” she said and walked up to me to shake my hand. “I’m Emily.”She was a bit taller than me, with the most impossibly light blue eyes. That seemed like a family trade apparently. Robert was still standing near the door, watching this play out with interest.“It’s nice to meet you too,” I answered and got up from my chair to greet her properly. “I’m Dalia.”“I’m Clara.” Clara budded in, looking at Emily with big eyes. Even though she now knew that Robert wasn’t a vampire, this newcomer was definitely a strong contender to be one too. She was stunningly gorgeous and very pale, a perfect match to what we had seen on TV.“Well, it is very nice to meet you too Clara.” Emily smi
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