Chapter 3

Kayla's POV

The drive down to Alpha Stone’s pack was terrific. At one point, I thought I might pass out from fright. Some days I still think about what might happen if I wasn't chosen by him as a peace treaty. 

And some days, I just want to curl up and cry at my ill fate. It's like moving from the frying pan to the fire,  only this time, the fire is my savior. 

I see how he looks at me like he couldn't figure out what I truly am. I too don't know what I am. I lost the little self-esteem I had when I found out my whole life was a lie. 

Those memories I tried to bury in my heart always came resurfacing whenever I saw an older woman. My mom - my former mom was everywhere in everyone. 

I'm so weak. I wish I could be strong like Fiona who is Alpha Stone's bed warmer. 

I think I hate her because she is what I can't be no matter how hard I try. I secretly envied her strength and courage. I hate her, yes. But if only I could be a little of what she is. 

I scrubbed the floor harder as Alpha Stone's grunts came from the slightly opened door of the bathroom. This goes on for three days a week for the two weeks I have spent here. 

Him having sex with Fiona whenever I'm in the bathroom cleaning. I'm supposed to feel pain because it reminds me so much of Jackson; the pain of being rejected.

But all I feel is grief - I'm supposed to be with him right now in a comfortable house, fulfilling my dreams of becoming a fashion designer. 

The grunts and moans finally stopped to my relief. And like always, Alpha Stone comes to the bathroom stark naked to have his bath. 

Seeing people naked in a werewolf pack was considered normal given our clothes always tear off whenever we want to shift. Only the expensive materials don't tear. 

But that doesn't mean I'll get used to seeing Alpha Stone's hard dick jutting out. I've seen it once and never again will I see it even if I fight myself each time to take a peak whenever he walks into the bathroom. 

“Look at me,” he growled. I stood up. I couldn't do what he aske- commanded. 

“I can hear you, Alpha,” I said instead as I bit my lips. 

He was angry. He was always angry whenever he finished having sex with Fiona which made me wonder why he calls her back again and again if she doesn't satisfy him. 

He growled again and came towards me, I felt so self-conscious like I was the naked one. 

His cold fingers dragged my gaze up to his beautiful hazel eyes. He opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something but closed it back. 

Then he went into the tub. I took that as my cue to leave while I waited in the room and listened to all of Fiona's nonsense. 

“Slave,” she hissed when I came to stand by the wall. 

I looked down at my feet, not in the mood for her silly talks; reminding me why I will always be below her. 

“Hello, Miss Fiona,” I said with clenched teeth. I knew what was coming. 

“Have you ever had sex before?” She asked and my head came up so fast I thought I might have a whiplash. 

I didn't expect that. What happened to the talks about being blessed beyond measure, having the best father who is the pack's gamma, and being the best female warrior in the pack?

I contemplated telling her the truth. It would be nice to make her know that I am not the lowest of the lowest as I lifted my eyes to her. 

“Yes, I have.”

“Oh, do tell. Was it with a fellow slave like you? Or the farmer's son?” She sat up in bed and the covers lifted from her chest, revealing her breasts. 

“No, it was with a man I met at the motel two weeks ago. He wasn't poor. He is of high class. I could tell by his cologne,” I said, remembering the night I spent with that stranger. 

Somehow, it was the best night of my life before I was caught by Jackson the next morning and dragged back to his pack. 

The stranger disappeared without a trace. If it wasn't for the dull ache between my legs, I would have concluded it was all a dream. 

I couldn't count how many times I had slapped myself mentally for not taking a look at his face that night. It was so dark in my room plus I was dead drunk. 

“Silly. He's of high class?” Fiona sneered, “Which high-born man would want to lay down with a pest like you? You should take a look at yourself in the mirror. I'm sure your judgment is as bad as your skin,” she hissed in anger. 

Fumbling with her clothes, she wore them and left the room. I wondered why she was so mad at that information. It gave me joy to see that I could make her mad. 

I crossed the room to the bed in a happy mood as I changed the sheets. Minutes later, Alpha Stone came out of the shower and left the room. 

Quickly finishing up, I walked up to the kitchen and I stopped abruptly. Something about the conversation I had with Fiona made my heart beat erratically fast in my chest. 

On the night with that stranger, I didn't take the morning-after pills. And I had no idea if he used protection because I was dead drunk. 

I turned around and walked up to Fiona's suite. It was on the second floor of the pack house. It was where the Gamma's family stayed. 

Once, I chanced upon a pregnancy test kit I saw in Fiona's bathroom. I had to make use of that fast. She wouldn't suspect me because the pregnancy kits are so many in her bathroom, I thought for a while if she was planning on selling or distributing them. 

Thankfully, I was allowed into her suite because I also work for her family as a maid. Going into the bathroom and finding what I was looking for, I followed the instructions on the kit and found out to my horror I was pregnant. 

No, no, no. This should be a mistake. 

I cried inwardly as I redid the test three more times but it all came out the same. Two red lines - I'm a freaking mother! 

Crying as I rushed out of her room. How could I let this happen to me? How? I was so foolish. And I don't even know who the father is. 

No, that's not even the problem. The problem is bringing a child into this cruel world. I couldn't let what happened to me happen to my child. 

I seriously can't deal. I need space. A lot of it. And it scared me what passed through my head; killing it. 

No, I can't do that either. Running away? But to where? I had no one. I'm so cursed. 

I cried harder as I bumped into a hard chest. 

“So sorry,” I said, not looking up as I ran harder into the woods. 

My wolf wasn't here to give me ideas. I heard a wolf is one's best friend. Maybe if I had her, I wouldn't be so lonely. 

Standing by the edge of a cliff, I contemplated jumping. The raging waters looked up at me as if mocking me for being cursed. 

Now, I believe it. I'm cursed. My birth was probably a mistake just like the child in me. And it’ll do us no good to continue with this life. 

“Hey, what are you doing?!” Alpha Stone's voice boomed behind me. 

I turned around to him, making me miss my step as I fell hard into the raging waters.