Emanuele's heart felt like it was going to come out of her mouth. The hand that held the strap of her bag loosened immediately. A real nightmare, hellish and terrible, took possession of his consciousness.
Inside herself, she tried to find some spark of calm, of tranquility. Something she could hold on to while a huge hurricane of doom raged inside her. But instead, beyond pure lethargy, there was fear. An icy, dark, empty fear, like the mouth of a huge beast about to devour everything in its path.
Would that... would that be the day he would finally die?
Those would be your final minutes, those in which the memories of our life pass before our eyes like a short movie?
She could not see her attacker, nor recognize his voice. The breath that exhaled from her profane mouth was horrible, a mixture of alcohol and rotten teeth. The icy blade lay close against her neck, and Emanuele felt a thin trickle of blood pouring down her lap.
Soon other noises took over the alley. Rough, evil laughter, as well as the clatter of boots on the ground. Amidst the panic, the girl didn't know if it was two or three hundred men. The angry tears of a few minutes ago had become pure panic. She knew what happened to women in the big city; not that this was anything new in small towns.
The assailant who was holding the knife grunted once again:
"Okay, kitten. I'll tell you what you need to do. If you scream, you die. If you run, you die. If you want to be funny and use pepper spray, you die. All you have to do is stand very still. Do you understand?"
Even if she could answer, the blade was so sharp that it could cut her throat with a simple movement. Emanuele felt tremors so violent that she might faint.
"Me and my boys have been a while without... You know."
An ominous chorus of laughter sounded once again.
At that moment, all Emanuele wanted was to get out of her own body. Her deceased aunt used to say that the soul of a human being is free. For seconds the redhead imagined her own spirit detaching itself from her skin and flying away. But she doubted that she would ever return to the prison of flesh and bones if she experienced such freedom.
Finally the voices behind them turned into real beings: two men with evil faces, whose faces were petrified in a grim expression. Their crazed eyes promised violence, and also death. But not a quick death.
How could this be happening? Why to her? The girl could not contain her cries of agony. First she had to rush out of her mother's house to survive, advancing the process of the trip. As a consequence, she not only lost contact with the owner of the room, but also bumped into a stranger who claimed to be her brother.
When he needed a place to sleep, he encountered rapists. Would she live to make it to the next day?
It was not fair.
Even if she wanted to fight for her life, even if she desperately wanted to complete her goal and overcome the internal storms... She couldn't. She couldn't...
Who was she against those armed and dangerous strangers?
No one.
Just as her mother had always said. 'You are nobody, Emanuele.'
As the assailant pushed her closer to the huge brick wall, her voice echoed in her mind.
'You ran away from me, Emanuele, and now you will suffer the consequences.'
The girl's bitter cry became louder. The blade pressed harder into her neck.
"What was what I told you, you slut? Be quiet!" the man whispered in her ear.
Trying to swallow her crying, Emanuele finally walked the few steps to the end of the alley. From there you could barely see the main road. The thick raindrops fell mercilessly on the cold body already prepared for the girl's death.
One of the rapists came up to her and ripped off her coat. The other was about to unbutton her blouse.
"Don't worry, we'll be real gentlemen. Won't we, boys?"
The vile laugh that came out of his mouth was accompanied by others immediately. Emanuele did not react.
She was finished.
She closed her eyes. She thought about the friends she left behind, the cozy and modest house in Porto Feliz, the school, the graduation, her first and only boyfriend. If her spirit couldn't fly away, at least her mind could try to stay away.
Before she could try to understand what was happening, the hand that held the knife to her neck simply slackened. The boys in front of him widened their eyes and began to fight with a fourth man who had appeared.
He was very tall and strong. A huge hood covered his face, and all that could be seen were thick lips and a beard. Within seconds, the stranger snatched the knife from the hands of the main assailant and brandished it at him.
Emanuele tripped over her own feet trying to run, and stood there as she watched the confused but heroic struggle.
The stranger knew how to fight. Very well, in fact. After cutting down two of the attackers, they decided they were at a disadvantage and took off running.
The man didn't follow.
He just looked at her.
Emanuele was gasping with anxiety, fear, panic and hatred. Her legs simply wouldn't move.
So he crouched down to her, careful not to get too close and frighten her. Slowly, the man removed the hood, revealing his face.
The girl opened her mouth without a sound.
It was Joshua.
REUPLOAD!
. . . . . . . . FIVE MONTHS LATER . . . . . .Emanuele looked at herself in the huge full-length mirror. The girl hardly knew where to look, which detail to care about first.She didn't know whether to look at the beautiful hairstyle in her now dark brown hair; her natural color.She didn't know whether to look at the impeccable makeup on her face, which made her even more beautiful and radiant than she was feeling.And I also didn't know whether to look at the beautiful white dress, simply cut, adorned with small mother-of-pearl beads. Despite the simplicity of the outfit, it was undeniable to say that the bride looked divine that day.Smiling, she turned around in front of her own reflection. Her heart was pounding with happiness, and she felt the stars in the night sky outside wishing her good luck. The curtain behind the door opened. A short, pudgy girl smiled sympathetically as she entered the room, openly admiring her."Miss Parker, you look beautiful!"Emanuele smiled."Thank
The old man falls to his knees at the same instant. Emanuele runs to him and hugs him tight, but Joseph does not respond. Instead, he seems to be doing his best not to scream as loud as he can."Dad!" The girl says."Adriele died? I had two daughters, and one of them died? Is that it?! Is that what you are telling me?!'Emanuele tries to hold back her sobs, but she can't. Instead, she says:"Yes, Dad. I'm really, really sorry. It all happened so fast! I lost my mother, my sister, and now... Now you are all I have left. You are literally all I have as family!"Joseph can't say anything for a while, only cry. The two of them are shaking very hard. Sarah, when alive, said that Morgan couldn't get the proper reaction, that he was too broken inside. But now he seemed quite emotional. I wonder what had happened.The smell of her father, enveloping Emanuele's nostrils, is soothing and familiar. In a snap, she remembers that the same scent enveloped her when she was in the arms of death, tra
Convincing Crimson to enter the police database to find her father's address was not that difficult.In fact, Emanuele was quite surprised when she had to use only one of the six rehearsed arguments. The old man shrugged and said that at that point it was no longer worth trying to pretend not to act unofficially from time to time.What really took a lot of lip from the redhead was convincing Joshua not to go with her. The girl knew that he only wanted to protect her, but Emanuele was very assertive in her arguments. She needed to do this alone, face that part of her past, and see if there was any possibility of fixing it in her future.Sarah had said that he was in a depressive spiral, and that when he saw her he could not react properly, and that it hurt her.Emanuele then prepared herself emotionally. She would not be disappointed or resentful if, by some chance, the man who at one time taught her a beautiful lullaby did not remember her... or was not touched by the moment.The youn
For a few seconds, all Emanuele can do is stare at Joshua. The two of them are still naked, and the distance between their bodies is as minimal as possible. "What?" she asks, softly. I wonder if she had heard right. Had her emotions stunned her enough for her to hear such a request?He gives a quiet laugh, then opens a confident, sentimental smile."Will you marry me?"The girl immediately sits up, leaning against the headboard of the bed. She covers her own nakedness with the blanket, still looking at the man, who also sits down."I..."Several things go through her head.The first was that no, she could not get married. Not in that life and not ever. All the misfortunes that had happened to her, all the horrible and unfortunately scarring traumas that were etched into her skin; all that made marriage itself a terrible idea.According to the books that the young woman read, especially during her teenage years, marriage was the union of two people. Total commitment to each other, com
As soon as he closes the door, Joshua gives warm, soft kisses on the sensitive skin of Emanuele's neck. The man sighs, almost intoxicated with passion, and murmurs:"I love the way you smell."With all the delicacy and romance in the world, Joshua props the redhead's torso on the bed, leaving her legs and feet touching the floor. He caresses her over her clothes. Emanuele moans."The last time we were together like this, I gave only a demonstration of what might come next. Remember?"He stimulates her further with the tip of his thumb, in subtle, gentle circular motions. "Those were the words of a man overcome with desire, and even lust, if I am willing to admit it. Today I may again have those feelings in my body, but... there is a difference. Now I am sure that I love you."Still with his thumb on Emanuele's clit, Joshua kisses her eagerly; the movement of his tongue is smooth and warm. Murmurs come out of her throat, as if the teacher is delighting in that moment.Emanuele's hands
The winter dawn is cold.A month has passed since Emanuele saw her sister die. One month, and even then, the memory was still latent and terrible.The girl had already been to therapy, but the nightmares continued to torment her. Joshua didn't know what to do anymore, since every night at two o'clock in the morning the girl's terrified screams woke him up.The teacher got out of his own bed in the dim light. The clock on his cell phone said it was one hour and fifty minutes, that is, ten minutes before the nightmares began.Standing up, taking care not to make any excessive noise, Joshua opened the door to his room, going towards Emanuele's door.But the door was open.Frowning, the man approaches the room. Her bed is empty.Still not making hasty decisions, Joshua goes to the living room, equally empty. His heart only slows down when he sees the girl sitting at the table, drinking a glass of water. She watches him without saying anything, then goes back to sipping the liquid.Slowly
Joshua immediately embraces Emanuele as soon as she, still very tearful and emotional, leaves the room where Sarah is being held. She clings to the man's clothes, sobbing terribly. Her eyes are swollen and red. "I am here," he murmurs. "I'm right here, my love." The girl can barely respond or say anything. A man wearing religious robes appears. He is middle-aged and wears thick-rimmed glasses. In his hand is a Bible. The man's voice is patient and docile, and he uses all his politeness as he approaches Emanuele. "May God's infinite mercy soothe your heart, child. I am so sorry for your loss." Apparently, the priest was already very well informed of the situation. The girl does not respond, only sinks even deeper into the chest of Joshua, who makes no mention of letting go. The policeman in charge of Sarah's surveillance accompanies the religious man. That was the protocol. Before being formally executed, Sarah would have the right to console herself and at least try to ensure a se
The next day dawned gray, cold and absolutely silent.Of course, cars were still passing by, people were leaving their homes to go to work, and children were going to school. But the noise present, that typical sound that Emanuele's ears were used to, could not penetrate the enormous bubble of silence that surrounded her.The call from the delegate the day before was an answer she had been begging to receive, but now that she knew that her sister's last wish was to see her, an unbearable weight had taken over her heart. Sarah was going to die. And all they had together were brief, monitored, timed conversations.Emanuele looked at herself in the mirror. She was wearing a black overcoat and pants of the same color, as well as dark boots. Her dyed red hair was tied up in a tight bun, and no matter how hard she tried to disguise her swollen face, red from crying with makeup, it was still obvious to anyone paying a little more attention. Joshua appeared in the doorway, wearing dark soci
Emanuele could neither sleep nor eat properly in the days that followed.All the girl could do, and at the massive insistence of Joshua who took care of her whenever he could, was to take a few naps and, very begrudgingly, put food in her stomach. He always tried to be as close as possible, even though he needed to work.With the insurance money, Joshua was able to recover almost nothing from the old apartment, so he opted to buy new furniture and decorate Alexandra's apartment, or rather his apartment. Doing this, however, seemed pointless and even disrespectful, since the present moment was one of mourning, not of celebration.When the man apologized for his attitude, Emanuele just shrugged and continued to stare at some fixed point on the wall.They did not sleep together. Each stayed in his own room most of the time. Joshua tried to get close to her physically, but he was content to give her a respectful cuddle and caress to comfort her. It was not the time for them to get close l