~Benny~ Kai smiled down at me, sadness enveloping his eyes as memories flooded his thoughts. “It’s all in the past,” he said, looking straight at the ceiling. “We all go through challenges in life that change our perspective. After she died, I searched for the truth behind that mission. I found out that the man we rescued wasn’t a businessman but an agent of the CIA black ops. The government used our team because we were dispensable. They don’t value our lives.” “Kai…” I whispered, feeling his resentment. He glanced at me. “It’s okay to be mad, Benny.” My name rolled off his tongue like honey. “But don’t let the pain rule your life.” Somehow, his words seemed to touch me where no one had ever done before. I stared at my hand on his chest. “I… I don’t know how not to be mad at the world, Kai.” Rough fingers skimmed my chin, forcing me to look into those tantalizing gray eyes. “You’ll find a way,” he said and the surprising part was, I believe him. ~~ Like Kai said, Skipper, the
~Benny~We spent the drive in extremely uncomfortable silence. Well, I am uncomfortable, my companion though, he wore that knowing tilt of his lips throughout the drive.The windows were open, letting the salty and warm Florida air slip inside the car. Morning sun rays bounce off the hood of our rental car. The ocean glistened as sunlight struck down on it. It was beautiful out here.Kai took a turn on a narrow dirt path, leaving the seaside and open road. Trees danced with the ocean breeze, and the silhouette shadowed the road we were driving through.Like a piece of hidden paradise, a bungalow slowly became larger as we got closer. Freshly trimmed shrubbery line the clearing surrounding the house.Kai pulled to a complete stop, stepping out while I studied the house, admiring its aesthetic. It was a cross between a cabin and a beach house, made of huge logs and stones. Two large windows were on each side of the wooden double doors, cream-colored drapes provide cover for what was ins
~Benny~Her name was Justine, Kai’s childhood friend. This place was where Kai grew up. The portraits hanging on the wall were proof of their claim.“God, I miss cooking with you,” she nudged Kai’s shoulder. They had their backs on me, busy preparing dinner by the kitchen counter while I sat quietly on the sectional, glancing at them from time to time.It took me a while to understand why I felt this strange pinching sensation when I saw them at the beach.I’m jealous of how she could make Kai smile so easily. He looked cool and relaxed around her. When he’s with me, he’s either on edge, annoyed, or worried to death. I cannot compare to her, anyway. Who was I kidding? I am his job and she is his friend.It was obvious that Justine had a thing for Kai. I’m a girl and I know those little telltales of silently flirting with your crush. Kai introduced her as a friend, but she corrected him by telling me they’re best of friends.Who could blame Justine, really? Kai looked so good. He shave
~Benny~ I can see it now, his anxiety. I’m learning a thing or more about Kai each time we spend together. It’s like treading in shallow waters. I’m never sure how deep it is or if it’s rocky or smooth underneath. I wonder if he’s talking about his fiancee and best friend or another chapter from his past. Either way, I could feel the weight of his words. There was more to that rugged look of a mobster than that he portrays, I’m sure of that now, and I’d like to peel off those layers one by one and see what Kai was truly made of. My heart did an odd thump thump thump, the same beat it did from the yacht. I bite down a smile, relishing the fact that Kai is letting me see another layer of his personality. I opened my mouth, ready to squeeze him for more, but my stomach growled, as though there was a monster caged inside me. Kai tilted his head in my direction, eyes narrowing with amusement, the tips of his lips lifted into a teasing smirk. My cheeks reddened as I kept my gaze on the
~Kai~“It’s up to her. I’m not her keeper,” I said detachedly.By definition and my job description, I was her keeper. Her brother asked me to protect her, but whenever I am around Benny, my mouth and brain coordination are always in a plight that has proven hard to fight.I would’ve chosen another place if I had known Liam was in town. It’s not that Liam would have a negative effect on Benny’s welfare; it’s quite the opposite. Liam is one of the good guys, and the fact that Benny was looking at him with googly eyes annoyed me more than it should have .Benny whipped her attention in my direction, and an emotion I couldn’t assess crossed her face. She tipped her chin, defiance twinkling in her eyes.“Sure,” she said without taking her eyes off me. “A party sounds cool.”Liam smiled victoriously, biting down on his lip. “Kai knows where. Just head there anytime you’re ready.”When I took Benny here, I prepared myself for the surge of nostalgia that would hit me once I dwelled on the fa
~Kai~Benny’s hand fits perfectly in my grasp. It was delicate and small, a stark contrast to my coarse and huge one. It felt like I was holding a child’s hand.While walking back home, our steps turned from slow to measured ones, as though we both didn’t want this night to end yet. Maybe it was just me, and Benny was only following my lead; either way, I didn’t hear or sense any protest from her end.Eventually, I had to let her go to open the door once we stepped on the threshold. Benny stood beside me while I pulled out my keys. She hugged herself as if the humid temperature outside suddenly plummeted.She followed me inside and trailed behind me as I headed to the wet bar, grabbing the bottle of bourbon.This day had been a whirlwind of nostalgia in my head. I might look calm and collected outside, but inside I am truly questioning my decision to come back here.“Want a drink?” I offered, filling a rock glass with golden brown liquid.“Uhm, sure…” she said, shifting from one foot
~Benny~ I squinted my eyes, the bright light blinding me as my consciousness slowly awakened. It seems that I had been dead tired from having forgotten to close the curtains before going to sleep. Still with my eyes closed, I shifted, stretching my dozed-off limbs. I froze when I felt heavy arms restraining me. Dread washed over me, realizing a man’s arm fettered me from moving. Heart beating wildly, I tried to recall the events from last night. Dinner. Liam’s invitation to a party. Kai and I walked back home, hand in hand, the two of us drinking. Fuck. I had never drunk anything stronger than fruity cocktails and beer. The moment I saw the bottle of bourbon, I knew I should’ve said no to Kai’s offer for a drink. Even the bottle has a label saying it’s for the bad boys. Even without opening my eyes, I knew it was Kai holding me. It’s funny how quickly I got acquainted with his scent. It’s spicy, yet not the kind that’s stingy on the nose or painful in the eyes, but the kind tha
~Benny~I swallowed hard, unsure of how to react to what Kai murmured.That doesn’t sound like me at all. But to a drunk Benny? Hm, that’s a maybe.“I almost lost it, Benny,” he said, still stroking my cheeks tenderly like he was afraid to break me. “From now on, you are not drinking without me. Do you know what else you did to convince me?”I’m curious but afraid to know. My cheeks were probably in flames. Tony knew I am a virgin, and he agreed to have our first time on our wedding night. Somehow, I am grateful that he conceded to my request.At some point, I consider that the reason Tony cheated on me with my mother. No matter how much I loved her, my mother never experienced a shortage of vitamin dick. She was good in bed. Sometimes, I’d hear her and her flavor of the week banging in all corners of our apartment in Paris. So when I turned legal age, I moved out of her place. In her defense, she tried so hard to keep it down. It’s just that the walls had been so thin, and her men w