Redemption

Meera ~

The universe has brought down, the stars on the Earth. But still my heart is not happy Because It has come without him.

The image of that woman sitting on his lap, flashed across my eyes and she shut them close tightly, and a lone tear escaped from her eye. Falling on her red hued cheeks.

My chin wobbled, and lips quivered, tear drops falling onto my lips. My heart is in pain, a kind of pain I never felt before, not even when I committed the greatest sin.

Finally a sob left from my mouth and I cried, sobbing my heart out, holding the railing of my balcony tightly.

I am once again standing in my balcony, in a starry night, stars blinking, glittering, moon shining high above in the sky.

I feel like as if it is moking me, telling me that I do not deserve the moon nor its moonlight.

I look up in the sky and licked my lips, why? I stared at the moon questioningly. Why it has to be me? Why can't you shimmer my life with your light? Why does it have to be always dark? I questioned but no answer came back.

My body burns, as the moon shines in the night and I asks only one thing, to not to come until he comes to her, not to come until their bodies and souls are not tied.

The moon just glowed profoundly and the stars glittered.

I still remember the first time I saw Abram, he was so beautiful, he still is but he was sweet, he had the heart of gold.

Blue against amber, they burned with intensity and I fell for him then and there. His name became the only word in my dictionary. The only name I wanted to recite for the recite.

He became the joy of my days and peace of my nights. My heart would hum and butterflies would swarm in her belly everytime I saw him.

He was gentle and sweet Abram , charming and compassionate but I took it away from him. Today what he did, he would have never done to me, I had not done what did that night.

He would have respected me and treated me correctly, but I took away his charm, his empathy his everything.

I took away his love, the woman he was supposedly happy to marry and to spend his life with.

I cannot even blame him for what he did today, she deserved it, she deserve every inch of hatred from him, every humiliation.

I wiped the tears from my cheeks and took out the photo of my sister and mine from my bag.

I traced the fingers on the picture of them from the vacation, just the two of them had in Bali. Those were the happy days.

Charlotte was the best sister to me, always protecting me, loving me, making me confident everything.

But what I did in return, I snatched Abram from her.

Teardrops fell on the picture, and I whispered "I am sorry, lottie, I am so sorry for everything. I am sorry for what I did to you, I am sorry for snatching Abram, I am sorry making him this way. I am sorry for everything, please forgive me".

I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed.

I don't know what to do, I can't bear Abram's hatred for me, even though it means to redeem my disgusting deeds.

I just can't bear that look in his eyes, I can't bear to see him with another woman. It hurt me, it hurt my soul.

Even though I am guilty of so many things, one thing I will never regret is marrying Abram.

I will never regret marrying the love of my life, even if I being called bitch and selfish.

I wiped my tears, I will not let my heart live again, I will not yearn for his forgiveness, I have his hatred and this is the only way I could pay for what I did.

"This is the only way I can redeem myself from killing my sister".

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