Novels by Ciarra

Meera~My husband is a coward. Yep, he is. Always running from what he feels. He shies away from facing the hard reality. According to him things must go in his way or he will spiral.Just like his feelings for me. I used to think my love for him would forever be unrequited and I was okay with that.But now I am not alone in this love. He feels something for me. He has to feel something for me. It's not just lust anymore--its more than that. Deeper. Destructive.I just wish he grows the new set of balls and be bold this time. What does he think--that I wouldn't know about his sneaking in?That he would sneak inside this room by midnight everynight and sleep beside me--holding me in his arms and leave before sunrise.While I still pretended to be asleep.But he forgot one thing that I would know him even in the dark, the way he breathes, the traces of his shoulders and that jaw. The way he would awake every single cell in my body just by being near.I glance at the watch and two hours

Meera~"I am so sorry, Derek" I dabbed the cotton swab over her his split lip. I don't know what to say to him anymore. Abram doesn't care about anyone but his feelings. He does what he wants to do. It's always about him and his feelings. He wanted me to leave so that his guilt can be reduced and I want that to but not like being away from him.And now--Derek. God, how can he hurt his best friend who gave me shelter under his roof. If not for Derek I would have been rotting on the road. Derek saved me.I still remember how that speedy car hit me when I was hysterical. And then everything blurred the last person I saw was Derek holding me on his lap.And then I woke up in his home. I am grateful to him. "Stop saying sorry for others mistake Meera. It wasn't your fault" he spoke."I will leave soon, I don't want to bother you" I don't know where will I go. But I will have to go, I can't stay here long."You can stay here as long you want. And I am not letting you go in this conditi

Abram~"Sir--Hughes has snatched another deal from us and our new franchise isn't doing good in the states--sir??"Louis irritating voice echoed in my head scrapping my brain with annoyance."Then what did I hire you for, huh? Even after paying too much for what you deserve--i am still loosing the deals, still going in loss?"He played with his sleeve out of habit and I almost feel bad for lashing out at him. He opened his mouth to say something but shut it, heaving out a sigh.My jaw clenched "I want you to work on it, or else you are fired" and just like that he nodded and got up to leave. "I know you won't fire me, I am an asset to this company and your friend. And take my advice sort things out with your wife". One should never make friends with their P.A and he is right we can't afford to loose more deals. But how would I focus on work when my mind is occupied with my wife all the time."My wife--" I took a sharp intake of breath , loosening the knot of the tie that has starte

Meera~Three days since he last talked to me. Since he looked at me properly. I stretched my hands across his side of bed and found it cold. He woke up before me again. No, he didn't abandon me, but he distanced himself. Like he won't look into my eyes without releasing painful sighs. He won't touch me or talk to me.I don't know what has happened to him but ever since that episode, he is not him anymore. The man who was so full of himself, and so sharp is just nothing but a dull soul who has lost hope.I have seen it and felt it within myself and still feel it everyday. Remorse and guilt. Unfortunately, I knew this day would come and that is why I wanted him to stop to control himself.But damage is already done. We are back to square one. I watch as he silently took a bite from burnt toast that I deliberately made for him so that I could gauge out some reaction from him.My fist clenched and suddenly hot fury bubbled inside me, I strode towards him and glided the plate away, glar

Abram~"We are set to open our franchise in the States. The board said the coming month will be the best time--"I got up from the sofa and walked away from my team without saying anything. I know it's rude but I don't care. They all work for me and I pay them shit load of money, so I can behave however I want. And right now I want to be with my wife, in her embrace. I haven't seen her for a whole one hour because of this stupid work. I climbed upstairs to go to our room. Yes our room where she must be reading a book or might be sleeping. I pushed the door inside and inhaled the sweet scent and closed my eyes for a moment as the warmth engulfed me. The warmth that was absent for sometime is, now here. She spreads that coziness in our room with her mere presence. I locked the door behind me and my gaze found her sitting at the bay of the window, reading something. A smile broke onto my lips as I watched her groaning in annoyance as strands of her hair disturbed her reading. I

Meera~It was blood. The raw red blood gushing out of his wrist. His eyes were closed, chest not rising and falling because he is not breathing. His lips had turned blue I can see the outlines of them. They look cold, begging me to give them some warmth. But I couldn't move my feet, just watch as paramedics rushed him past me, as if they didn't see his wife standing at the doorway. He disappeared, he didn't call for me, why? Did he really gave up on me that easily? The man who would roam behind me all the time, the man who never keeps his hands off me, the man who would talk to me all the time even when I am silent. That man gave up on me. He didn't think about his pigeon, not even once. Doesn't he want me anymore? Doesn't he need me? But it's fine, I know his tactics he is manipulative and I was rude to him. And he is going to make it alive. I know he is going to, because he himself said he can't live without me and that meant he can't live without me anywhere. Be it hell or

Agastya~ (Period when Agastya and Raina were separated )I walked inside my cabin and sighed. I feel tired, my muscles feel sore, and I am sleep-deprived. I walked toward my chair and sat on it. I opened my laptop and started reading the file of the patient I was treating. Someone knocked on the door "Come in--" I said and heard the footsteps walking inside of my cabin. "Good morning, son--" I craned my neck up and saw Dr. Mihir Aaron my father-in-law standing with a box in his hand. He smiled at me, his eyes warm and smile radiating positivity. That is what I needed. He sat on the chair in front of me and opened the lid of the container. "I thought why not have dinner with my favorite person," he says and I smile at him in gratitude because he said what he meant. Even though I and his daughter are together, we both have gotten closer over the past three years. He served plme the sprouts and a glass of mango juice and forwarded the plate toward me. I thanked him and took the spo

♡Agastya♡Three Years Later I rested my head on the cold tile wall, as my heart pounded against my chest with trepidation. How can I do this to my wife? I at the age of 33 and she at the age of 28, are having a baby and she is in the operation theater, bringing our baby into this world. I should have gotten my vasectomy done. Instead of depending on contraceptive pills. Her pregnancy is delicate and fragile. Her body is not strong enough for pregnancy but still, she insisted on keeping the baby. And here we are, delivering our baby, prematurely. And if something happens to her, I will never be able to forgive myself, heck I will die if she won't survive. While being together for three years after five year long gap , we never once thought of babies, because we never desired them. We were more focused on our careers me being a cardiologist and her being a literature professor. Apart from our professional life, we indulged ourselves in traveling around the world, this was the life

Raina~"But I thought you love me, like love me kind of love me" I whined, a deep jealousy surged into my veins. I rubbed my temple and heard her sigh. "I still love you, Raina. Like love you kind of love you. And I think I will always will, but it feels so alone here. When you were here, it did not irk me, but now that you are back with your husband I feel so alone. So, I guess it is the right decision." she says over the other side of the phone, from London. "But you are lesbian, then why are you doing this, Susannah?" I ask, this time confused and more irritatingly. Because she can't ruin someone's life just because she is alone and feels lonely. I heard a teary chuckle and I frowned. I do not think if I said anything funny. "B is not a silent letter, Raina. Just because I love you it does not mean I do not like men. They swell at the places where a woman does not." she says, in a trying sexy voice. "But you will forget me, Susannah, if you marry". I say and my eyes are sprink

♡Raina♡I pushed the bell button again and again, desperately until it was jerked open, followed by a curse " Why the fuck, you can't wait?" He opened the door, shirtless, giving me a wonderful view of his olive skin. "Raina, what are you doing here?" He asks, frowning. I shivered as his eyes raked over my body and gulped. I pushed him inside and slammed the door behind me. "what is wrong with you?" He asks, there was a slight tremor in his voice."Why did you tell that man, that I am your wife?" I ask, I need answers. I need to know what is he thinking about me. " What? " His lips parted but he opens and closes them like a fish. Is he hiding something from me? "What, what Agastya? Tell me why would you say something like that? I signed those divorce papers, we are not husband and wife anymore." As much as I want to be his again, I need to know if he still feels the same for me. He stared at me, boring his brown pools into my hazelnut ones. He steps closer and closer until we ar

Two years later A girl around 25, with short hair reaching an inch above her shoulder, in a short, sky-blue denim skirt reaching just below her hips, paired with a pink floral cami top, holding a luxury bag in her hand walked out of the airport. A sigh of contentment escaped from her lips, as she took a long breath, inhaling the air of her homeland, after five years.She glance around and smiled, her country, her people, everywhere. Her gaze struck at a tall man, with grey hair, standing there with open arms. She squealed and ran towards him and jumped into his arms. Tears flowed from the eyes father and daughter duo, they stayed in each other's embrace for some minutes before withdrawing themselves. The old man shuffled his daughter's hair and hold her hands, leading her towards their car. Soon the other man, who was standing far away, smiled sadly and sank inside his car. She has changed, her body got mature, with big tits, and juicy thighs. Moreover, her old charm has returned,

Raina~ Three years later~ I sighed and gave fake smile to Joe. I want to stuff his mouth with Taco Bell so that he shuts up with his mouth. God, he is so annoying. Always bragging about his fucking achievements and how much wealth he has made in such a nickel of time. Trust, me this junk should meet my husband once. Then he will know what real hard-working money is called. I face-palmed myself, fuck I once again call Agastya my husband. When will I stop addressing him as my husband? I must not forget that I divorced him. We are divorced now. And we have not contacted with each other for over three years now. I am pretty much sure that he must have found some pretty woman by now. I just hope she ain't good looking as me, she ain't good in giving him butterflies as me. Even though Agastya has moved on, I still want to be the in his mind all the time. I want to be the one who he imagined while running himself. I grabbed the glass of wine and chugged it down my throat in one gulp.