Even though I still couldn't fully feel the rejection from Dimitri, it still hurt. My chest felt like my heart was shattering. Why would he do that, why reject the person who the moon gods mates you with? It was still hard to process the whole thing. It's been a week since his birthday and his rejection and I didn't care anymore. I'll live even though it'll hurt like a mother fucking bitch. I'm not going to let a simple rejection break me. I've been teased my whole life and this time I'm not going to let it rule me.
"I heard Dimitri was rushed to the hospital after collapsing in the middle of Mrs. Roche's class this morning" a voice said and I looked over to see Cara, one of the school's top gossipers and drama starters in history. She was surrounded by a group of students all listening intently to every word she says and I rolled my eyes and continued to walk to my locker where my friends and brother were already waiting and for the first time, they all looked worried making me raise a brow"Why do you all look like someone killed your cat?" I asked and they looked at each other before looking back at me with Chris sighing and rubbing the back of his neck"It's Dimitri" he said and I nodded for him to continue "he's in the hospital Benny. He was rushed there after collapsing from chest pains in the middle of Roche's class""So I heard" I replied with a nod though I had hoped it wasn't real when I heard Cara talking about it. I sighed and opened my locker to grab my books for my first classes "I heard Cara talking about it on my way here""Everyone's blaming you for it" Julian said and I rolled my eyes"Of course they are. They don't know what really happened. They think that they can blame someone who does shit and just keeps to himself and his friends""Those morons don't know shit. If they only knew that it was he who rejected you then no one would sympathize with him" Broxton said"They'll just think that I was the one who told him to reject me. He's the future Alpha" I said and they sighed because no matter what we say or do they'll still think that I had something or do with Dimitri being in the hospital.~*~*~*~"AHHH" I screamed as my chest began to hurt even more than it ever had before and my door burst open slamming against the wall before I was being pulled into strong arms of my father"CALL VINCENT AND TELL HIM WE'RE COMING" my dad yelled before I was being picked up and rushed out of my room. Tears were streaming down my face as the pain only increased with each waking moment."Papa it hurts" I whimpered"You're going to be okay Bennett" he murmured as he held me tight"It burns. Papa make it stop please" I cried as I scratched at my chest as the pain intensified"Shh, you're going to be okay" he promised as the doctor came in"Alpha I need you to exit the room so I can check him properly" the doctor said and dad looked conflicted but nodded and I panicked grabbing his hand shaking my head"Don't go please" I pleased but he gave he a reassuring smile kisses my forehead whispering that he'll be back soon and I whimpered but nodded letting him leave. I felt the doctor pressed the stethoscope on my chest as she listens to my heart beat and I have no doubt that it was beating to fast for her likening if the look on her face is anything to go by."Bennett I need you to take deep breathes for me and try to relax can you do that for me?" She asked softly and I swallowed the knot in my throat but shook my head as I tried to do what she asked but it was hard to breath. My lungs felt like they were constricting with each breath I took and my vision was starting to get blurry as tears continued to roll down my cheeks"I need you to try to focus on something you like and close your eyes and focus on that" Doctor Kennedy said and I whimpered"I can't" I cried as it was getting harder and harder to breath, my breaths were coming out choked"Count back from ten, can you do that for me?" He asked and I sniffled as I nodded and did that but it seems like nothing wanted to work. Why wasn't anything working? What's wrong with me? Why is this so hard to do?"Shh, you're going to be alright Bennett I promise you'll be okay"he whispered before my vision began to dot around the corners and my breathing began to come back to normal and before I knew it, I was asleep.~*~*~*~*~"How long has been out for?" I heard a familiar voice asked and another voice answer with a few hours"His body is under a lot of stress. He's mate rejected him and he's been trying hard to move on from that. His wolf was under stress and was trying to come out but Bennett was keeping him at bay" the second voice said and I heard someone crying and a voice soothing them."So you're saying that his body succumbed to the rejection?" The first voice asked and I could hear their panic and I wanted so bad to wake up to see who these people were but I was to tired."I'm afraid so Alpha. There's not telling when he'll wake up and if he'll even wake up for that matter. He's body needs to regain its strength back" I heard the doctor say to who I now knew were my parents as my mother began to cry."What about his wolf? How is Bailey doing?" My mother asked"I can't seem to find him. I've tried to get to him but Bailey seems to want to be dormant at the moment. There's no telling if Bailey will be awake once Bennett's wakes up"Doctor Kennedy saidYou're leaving me to aren't you Bailey? I whispered into the void blocking the rest of the conversationWhy would I do that? You're my human Bennett and I am as much as you as you are me. I just need to sleep Bennett. I need to restore my energy so I can help you keep moving Bailey whispered and I smiled nodding my head as I let the darkened once again engulf me.~*~*~*~*~I woke up to the sound of voices taking back and forth from across the room but I decided to let them be and not listen to what they were saying and go back to sleep.I woke up in a forest. It was beautiful and peaceful here. The trees were like towers. The grass was high, covering my head. I walked through the trees and emerged into a breathtaking meadow.The field was covered in lilacs with the sun setting behind a tall line tree. The sky was stunning with purples yellow reds and oranges. I could see a vast of more trees in the far. I walked further and smiled as a breeze flew and my hair ruffled with the wind.(Bailey)"Took you long enough" a voice huffed and looked over to the right to see a black wolf with a white patch of fur shaped as a heart with light green eyes make his way towards me and I smiled"Bailey" I murmured walking towards him and he gave me a wolffish smile before licking my face making me giggle"Where are we?" I whispered as we sat on the grass in front of the giant tree"This is where you brought us Bennett" he replied into unheard and I frowned"I brought us here?" I asked confused because I've never been to this place before"It's peaceful so I understand why" he said instead and I hummed running my fingers through his thick coat and he purred and I chuckled"Does your chest hurt?" He questioned looking up at me from his positing across from me and I shook my head"Not as much as it did before. It feels like a dull pain now. Will I still feel those horrid pains when I wake up again?" I replied and he nodded"It will only get worse as time passes Bennett. Your body is not used to that type of pain" he answered and I sighed. I had a feeling that was going to be his answer but I was hoping that he'll say no. That the pain will go away once I wake up and won't be back again "I promise I'll be there with you, Bennett. I won't let you go through the pain on your own. We're one in the same remember that""I know and I love you for it" I murmured and he whined licking my face"Don't be scared Bennett. We'll get through this together" he whispered and I swallowed the lump in my throats and nodded as tears filled my eyes."I don't want to keep hurting Bailey" I whimpered"I know Bennett but I promise we'll be okay"It's been about a month now since I rejected Bennett and my chest has been killing me. It's hard to breath and my heart feel like it's going to burst. My parents and Grey have refused to speak a word to me and it sucks because I can't even talk to them about how it feels to be in this pain. My brothers don't even look at me nor does my baby sister who was always stuck to me like a second skin clinging to my leg crying when I had to leave for school. My friends would only utter a word or two to me but other than that it's like I'm invisible most of the time. Today was no exception. I had greeted my family and they didn't answer. I walked down the school halls listening to the gossip going around and heard something about Bennett being in the hospital. "I heard he ODed on some prescription medicine" one said "He tried committing suicide" another voice "I bet he's just doing it for the attention" More comments that were similar filtered my ears as I continued walking down the hall to
Its time to wake up Benny, our family and friends need us a voice said and I grumbled shaking my head keeping my eyes shutStop being stubborn Bennett. We need to go home the voice insisted I don't want to. It's peaceful and warm here. Why do we need to go back? It's not like we're wantedI replied and I heard Bailey huff in exasperation. I could feel him trying to wake me up but I was to stubborn to listen. I mean what was the point in waking up when I wasn't needed? Wanted? My mate rejected me when I didn't even know we were mates. I still had a year to find out but he rejected me right in front of everyone and he didn't even bat an eye when he did it. He even smelled like sex and that hurt even more than the rejection had. I mean you knew you'd find your mate that night so why sleep with some one else? It was stupid. I would have never done that if I were in his place. I don't understand why our ancestors made that treaty all those years ago when the first born of the King pack ma
I groaned as I was slammed into the wall by Chris first thing Monday morning. I glared at the Beta as he sneered down at me with blue eyes filled with hatred. I could feel the power coming out of him like smoke and I clenched my teeth to keep from lashing out. Even though I was the next Alpha, the Savage pack were much stronger than the King pack and Christopher could easily take me and knock me out."You're the worst person I've ever met in my life Dimitri and I sure hope that my brother moves on from you and decides to officially break the bond between the two of you because he deserves a better than a man whore like you who doesn't give two shits about anyone but himself" he snarled and I gulped looking at him as Gray sat back and watched the whole scene without even trying to help me push Chris off of me You made your bed and now it's time to lie on it he said when I asked him why he won't help and I glared at my wolf. So much for being strong and brave.You rejected my mate Dimi
"AHHHH!" I screamed as a blinding pain traveled through my body as tears rolled down my face. I could hear Bailey whimpering and clawing trying to stop the pain. It's been a year since I left Canada and every passing day it was harder to move. The sound of loud pounding making their way to my room made me feel like an asshole for worrying my family. I moved back home when I turned 18 and ever since then there was this burning pain in my chest as if I was feeling what Dimitri was feeling. Is that what this is? Am I feeling what he's going through? Is this his pain I'm feeling? What is going on with him? Why is he hurting? He rejected me then why is this happening to me? I want this all to go away.Tears blurred my vision as my door slammed open before Benji was pulling me into his arms as I began thrashing as I clawed at my chest as the burning pain intensified. I could hear my poor mother and Bonnie choking on a sob as they watched me as my brothers and father tied to stop me from cl
*WARNING TRIGGERING*The sound of a door slamming closed rang in my ears as I tried to figure out where I am. I don't even know where the fuck I'm at. The only place that I can ever get in touch with Bennett are in my dreams. He looks so different from the boy from a year ago. God I was such an asshole to him and I won't blame him if he rejects me as well even if I had already accepted him as my mate all those months ago. I rejected him without thinking and I know that's no excuse but I was stupid and I thought that I had it all but when I lost him I lost myself. I lost Bennett even before I had him and I hate myself for what I did. I hope these bastards kill me so the pain of losing my mate will go away. "I see you're awake" a voice said and I looked up even though I had a blindfold on so I couldn't see the assholes face and I clenched my jaw glaring in what I'm hoping is in his direction. A chuckle was my answer and I sneered at the bastard. I don't even know why I'm here."What sh
Blood. All I could see and smell was blood and I could feel Bailey clawing at my insides to get out, to go in there and get our mate. No matter how much I wanted to hate and reject Dimitri, I just couldn't. I loved him to much at this point to give up on us. Call me crazy for loving the man who hurt me and rejected me but I couldn't help but do so. My heart already belonged to him even before we knew we were mates. I had fallen in love with him over the years regardless of who he was and what he did to me. Call me a masochist for loving my abuser but I couldn't help it. Dimitri was something, someone, that had my heart from day one. A year ago I may have reacted the way I had because I wanted to make myself believe that what I felt for him was just a silly crush and that I could move on even if we were mates. I wanted to see if wha to felt for him wasn't just because of the mate bond. The longer I was away from him, the harder it was to move on. My heart bled for him every waking mom
It's been exactly 8 weeks since I was back home and every day is hard to move past what happened to me for 6 months. It scares me just how much I've changed over that time. My family can't even hug me without me breaking into a panic. The only person who can hug or hold me without triggering my attacks was Bennett and god bless his soul for putting up with me for this long. He could have rejected me when I was at my lowest her he stood by my side and helped me through everything. I started going to therapy to help me with my nightmares and my anger problems. Nights have become my enemy because whenever I closed my eyes, I would be back in that warehouse, tied to a chair with a bag over my head as voices talked about what they would do to me. I could feel them in me, I could still taste their fluids on my tongue and it would cause me to throw up even if I had nothing in my stomach. I would wake up covered in cold sweat with Bennett's arms wrapped securely around me, whispering that ev
"Would you like to stay for dinner?" Dimitri asked once we crossed into the backyard of his house and I smiled nodding."If it's not to much trouble" I murmured but he shook his head "You're always welcomed to join us whenever you want" he assured and I nodded giving him a small smile before linking with my parents and brothers to let them know I will home late this evening to which they said to be careful. Closing the mind link, I followed Dimitri up the steps to the kitchen once we were dressed."Dinner will be ready soon, why don't you boys go and freshen up?" His mom said and we nodded and so with that, I followed him to his room ignoring the whispers of a few of the pack members and he clenched his jaw as a few words were harsh."He should have killed""He's a weakling no wonder he didn't get the Alpha title handed to him" "He's so pathetic, I mean look at him. He walks with head down" I clenched my jaw so hard I was surprised my teeth didn't crack with the force and I could f