You’re a better person than I am…

Ruby

I froze for a long second and no matter how much I tried, I just couldn’t peel my eyes from Asher’s face. He was staring back at me too and I searched his eyes thoroughly for even a hint of remorse but found none. He just sat there and maintained eye contact with me for so long till I couldn’t bear it anymore.

I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes already and I didn’t want to do that, at least not in front of him and his lover. And Ava, she wouldn’t take it lightly if she noticed, she’d create a scene and I didn’t want that.

“Hey, I’ll be back in a minute, I need to use the restroom” I said and then quickly stood up before Ava could even reply.

I vanished into the restroom and then locked myself in one of the stalls. The tears came flooding right then and I just stood against the door till I had nomore in me. I wiped my face clean and then went out to clean up but the moment I opened the door, it was Camilla standing there, waiting for me.

“Well well well, if it isn’t the newly wedded bride locking herself away just to hide from her husband.” She mocked while clapping her hands to a slow rhythm.

“Tell me though, why are you hiding in here to cry? What were you expecting when you married a man you clearly knew has no love for you at all?!” She mocked further and that just did something to me.

“You must think you’re making any sense with the rubbish coming out of your mouth, don’t you?” I blurted while she looked at me shocked. She obviously wasn’t expecting such a comeback from me.

“First off, I wasn’t crying, I only came in here because I was pressed. And then, who told you that Asher doesn’t love me? How did you think he was faring all those years that you were nowhere to be found. You left him at his lowest and only showed up when you found out he’s back on his feet!” I slammed at her and didn’t even let her say a word before I continued.

“I know what you are! You can have him fooled because he’s so blinded by love but not me. And I promise you that I’m going to make sure the scales over his eyes fall off very soon. You should get everything you need from him really fast because that’s going to end soon and when that happens, you’ll be back to trash that you’ve always been!!” I slammed hard at her this time and my goodness, it felt so good.

I didn’t even know I had that in me, especially because I was just crying few minutes ago and all up in my misery. But there was just something about her audacity that angered me and pushed me to the edge.

“You can’t do anything to me. Asher loves me so much and he will always do. You’re just bitter because you desperately settled for a man whose heart will never be yours!” She let out, thinking she had gotten me but I burst into laughter instead.

“You know it’s so bold of you… no, actually it’s so funny that you believe what you just said. I mean, have you ever sat down to think about why he married me and not you since you’re the queen to his heart? I mean, if he loves you so much as you claim, he shouldn’t have walked down the aisle with then. It should have been you instead. Why did he marry me?” I blurted and she couldn’t even get her words right anymore. She stuttered for a long second before she finally got something.

“Well like I said, you’re the desperate one. I’m not because I’m confident of my place with him. You only married him but you will never enjoy him. He’s mine.”

I burst into another laugh and seeing as her face burned red with anger only made me more happy and satisfied.

“I think I should remind you at this point that I remain his legal wife while you Camilla Holland will always be the mistress. You’ll forever be the trash that can not be brought inside but only used and trampled on outside!” I blurted while she rushed towards me and I even stepped forward as if ready to take her on. She stopped so close to me with her fist tightly clenched.

“I dare you, Camilla. I dare you to put your hands on me.” I said firmly.

I’ve never been in a fight my entire life and I wasn’t even sure I could take her on but I sure know that I have enough anger inside of me to give her the beating of her life. And even if I don’t win, she would have marks to remember today for the rest of her life.

“Let’s see how Asher is still going to love his trash when he can’t even recognize her anymore.” I added and that immediately calmed her down.

She stepped back and just kept staring at me while I washed my face. I pushed her aside when I was done and then walked out.

“What took you so long? I was starting to think you left me here all alone?” Ava retorted while I smiled.

“Well, I just did a nasty thing and I don’t know what to expect. It was so satisfying at the time but now that I think about it, I don’t think I was in my right senses.”

“Tell me. What the heck happened in there?” Ava asked impatiently while I then motioned in the direction that Asher was sitting. Camilla was back with him now and seeing as we were watching them, she immediately started touching Asher all over.

Ava wanted to stand up then but I quickly held her back. I knew she was going over there to give them a piece of her mind but I didn’t want that turning into a scene.

“No, don’t.” I whispered while she reluctantly sat down.

“Ruby, you do know you’re the one giving this bitch the chance to walk all over you like this, right? You should put her in her place and let her know she’s nothing but a trashy wh*re!” She chimed in.

“That was exactly what I did in the restroom just now.” I let out while she looked at me in shock.

I nodded and then narrated all that happened. She was happy with everything except the part where I didn’t gift Camila a few slaps so she could bounce back into her senses.

“It’s not worth it, really. It’s not her fault after all. I knew Asher was in love with another woman and I still went ahead to force myself on him. Well, I guess this is my punishment and I just have to face it.” I let out while Ava shook her head pitifully.

“Ohh my baby, you’re a better person than I can ever be. I’m not proud of that anyway…” she teased and I found myself laughing it off…