Not Your Virginity

Zina’s Pov

I should have gone back when I noticed that the door wasn’t locked, I know that now but it’s already too late because regret won’t undo what I saw few minutes ago or the words that were thrown at me by Darren.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this, I had everything planned out when I woke up this morning but that plan went south the moment I tried dialing his number in the taxi and it kept going into voicemails.

I was supposed to spend the whole day with him then move over to my mom’s new home tomorrow.

She’s been threatening me that if I don’t accept her new life and her husband she would stop sponsoring my education, and I just didn’t want to see what she was capable of.

I’ve never been one to visit anybody without letting them know that I would be visiting but since his number wasn’t connecting and he is my boyfriend “let’s go with it” I said to myself “we could just make this a surprise” i concluded with her smile.

Who knew that I would be the one to get surprised not him.

The first thing I noticed when I got into his villa was the cars. I almost didn’t notice because of how fast I walked. I was really in a hurry to see him but then something unique caught my eye, it wasn’t just how the cars were parked but the color.

Darren has always been a lover of black, almost everything he owned were black including his cars but the car that was parked behind his wasn’t

It was a pink Chevrolet Corvette!!!

“Wait” I stopped walking, this wasn’t any kind of pink, this was a girlish girl pink.

Only one person drove this car around here and I started praying that I was wrong,

“Maybe im just seeing things” I cautioned myself

“And overthinking” my subconsciousness added.

I pushed the half opened door and walked into his living room, it was a mess.

I noticed the female shoes, it was a glittering heels, female clothes, bag and undies were scattered all over his living room.

At this point, I was already loosing my composure, I could barely stand so I had to grip the couch for support. After few seconds of gaining composure, I decided to go upstairs and look for him, maybe demand answers but then I suddenly heard moans and laughter coming from his room upstairs, this time I really felt like vomitting.

This should have been the time where I turned towards the door and walked out of his gates like I had never been here but I couldn’t, not when this dream feels so vivid but my curiosity got the better part of me.

Before my brain could think of what to do, my body moved and my legs were headed towards the stairs, each step felt like I was headed to hell.

The moans and muffled sounds became louder, and finally I was infront of his room. The door was widely open and I could see everything thing that was happening.

Darren was like a beast riding into her like all the cars he had driven in his entire life wasn’t enough for him, and what was more annoying was that he seemed to be enjoying every single bit of it. It should have been me in that position but he had never touched me, always telling me that sex before marriage was bad because after marriage the vibe would no longer be there.

Was he lying when he told me that people who had sex before marriage always ended up getting divorced, because they get bored of theirselves too quickly?.

Did I believed him?

I had never ever thought of any other man aside from him, the way he pampered me was nothing compared to the way he was slamming into this woman in front of him, he kept slapping her butt cheeks which made her sob with pleasure while I could only watch in jealousy.

“you’re so tight, I won’t get tired even if we go all night again” he said with a low sexy groan that made him looked so hot,and right now it should have been me in that position not her.

“We’ve been going all night and all morning and you still want more, you naughty thing” she said her face in the sheets while her knuckles gripped it like her life depended on it, I still couldn’t see her face but that voice sounded so much like the voice of the person I prayed it shouldn’t be. “I love you Darren” she said her voice barely a whisper.

All hell broke lose when Darren’s response came immediately after hers “I love you so much Valery, I can’t bare to let you go”.

I guess that’s where I lost my sanity.

“Darren!! you’re having sex with Valery??” That was all I could manage.

“Wait, Zina? Of all the things you could have said, this is what you came up with” my sub-consciousness mocked at me.

They both scrambled around looking for what to cover themselves with

When Darren saw that it was me, he cleared his throat anxiously, “Zina, what are you doing here” he said using one of the pillows to cover his length while his free hand ran through his hair.

“What am I doing here??? Is that all you have to say to me right now” I said looking from him to Valery. “What the hell is going on here Darren, why is your ex girlfriend on you bed?” I said, trying not cry as I paced the room in confusion, but none of them would say a word. They kept looking at each other like they had something heartbreaking to say to me, but didn’t know how to say it, actually that look was only on Darren’s face.

Valery looked very unbothered by my presence, she just picked up her phone from the bed desk and started pressing it, I was so pissed that I wanted to walked over there and smash her head to the walls but I’m not an aggressive person. I took long deep breathes in attempt to calm myself but it wasn’t working.

“We’ve been together for one year Darren and you never touched me the way you just touched her, you said sex before Ma….”

“I know what I said Zina, but it’s never gonna happen” I barely completed what I said when he chipped in.

My head spun, this person infront of me was a completely different person. What does he even mean?

I took another deep breathe in attempt to stop the tears that were threatening to spill from my reddened eyes.

“Darren, twelve months, twelve good fucking months, we’ve been together” I inhaled, running my fingers through my hair roughly “ you’ve never touched me once, I crave your touch everytime I’m around you”

I laughed, not because all of this was funny but because i wasted twelve months of my time and loyalty on the man infront of me only to get betrayed.

“I don’t even know what it feels like to have a man in me, but here you are riding her like you have to win the Olympics, who even cares about sex before marriage?? Aren’t you unbelievable?” By now I could couldn’t stop the tears from dropping.

I was so done with the strong girl facade, I don’t care what they thought of me but right now, I really needed to cry so bad, so I didn’t stop myself.

“Darren you weren’t lying when you said she’s so desperate and dramatic” it was Valery. She was talking to me without even looking up from her phone. “Aren’t you over-reacting ?? He wasn’t yours to beginning with, Darren has always been mine and our families made sure of it” that bullet went straight to my heart.

There was silence, none of us dared to speak for seconds only glaring at each other, but I wasn’t going to back down.

I turned slowly to towards Darren, but he looked away. “What is she talking about Darren?? Tell me that she’s lying.” I asked taking two steps towards him but he two steps back.

This man who had claimed to love me for months was taking two steps away from me. I sighed wiping the tears that dropped on my face with the back of my hands.

“I’m sorry Zina, you weren’t supposed to find out this way” he said that so casually like he didn’t just shred my heart with his words.

Before I could stop myself I felt my hands on his face, the strike was the loudest I’ve ever heard, he used the back of his hand to wipe the trail of blood off his mouth.

Another slap landed immediately but it wasn’t on his face, that slap landed on my face, I never saw it coming.

My vision blurred as I lifted my head to see who had just slapped me.

It was Valery, she slapped me.

“did you just lay your filthy hands on me” I asked moving towards her in an attempt to slap her back but Darren stepped between us.

“Don’t you dare touch Valery, Zina, whatever you saw just now, was meant to happen anyways , my family doesn’t like you.” He rubbed his temple pacing around the room naked, the pillow had fallen when I slapped him.

“Valery’s parent are collaborating with my father’s company. Once we get married that’s when my father would trust me to handle things in the company” he took a deep breathe “this is what I want Zina, not your virginity”

Those last words stung so much that I wanted the ground to open up and shallow me whole. “But she’s your ex. Darren, you told me you were over her”

“What I told you doesn’t matter, Zina. It’s my actions that matter”he said turning away from me.

that’s it I’m done here.

That’s was all I needed , there’s no way I’ll stay here and let them rub filth on me.

I gave out a weak laugh “ I guess both of you were made for each other” without another word I turned and left, and Darren he didn’t even try to stop me.